ExploringReality

Philosophical curiosity. Epistemic drive. The ontological investigation. The love of understanding itself. Not understanding to solve a problem. Understanding as an END IN ITSELF. Investigation and understanding is not a means to an end, it is the end, it is the point, it's like breathing, it's simply what you do when you're awake. Tying into your post about understanding systems by exiting them, this is profound. Because I find myself really wanting to understand something but I'm too close to it, and my understanding of my own enmeshment is the key to stepping outside of it to see it more clearly. It's hard to understand a system when you're it's variable. I just want to understand and have the biggest picture possible whether it serves me or not.

Hooray 🎉 you did it. You moved through! Now go live your life brother, you've done what few people are willing to do, I hope you took good notes along the way, may wisdom and insights flood your mind from here on out. Namaste

God please no haha

Perfect I'll check them out. I've been doing some serious research and diving deep into the world of BPD and NPD and also your video on gaslighting you highlight a relationship you had with someone that was neurodivergent and dpd. This shit is like eating a berry in the forest and having very disorienting hallucinations and you try to find your way out of it. Right now I'm going through a serious phase and researching BPD and NPD. Why the fuck aren't we taught this in school? From what I gathered and what I learned, narcissism specifically is a developmental arrest or retardation. Basically it's a fragile and unstable sense of self that needs constant sources of validation to prop up a false ego. It's quite sad. Imagine the inability to hold paradox, black and white thinking, immense defense mechanisms that go unconsciously and are projected outwards? Holy shit.

We don't learn about mental illnesses in school and a lot of us grow up with family and parents that are extremely dysfunctional whether it's overtly or covertly. What are your favorite books or thinkers on mental health?

He was praised by Anthony Joshua after the fight for stepping in there with a former world champion. Within the grandiose delusion of Jake Paul, there's this admirable self-confidence in himself and the work that he's put in to compete in there

No surprisingly he lasted 6 rounds till he got caught with a straight right hand to his jaw.

Spot on. I've been sparring pros Leo, I'm still amateur and my coach and other coaches have told me specifically what you said. You have to be relaxed and not tense cause that wastes energy. I can push to 10 rounds in sparring now. Diaphragmatic breathing and kriya yoga really helps with my boxing.

What makes someone radicalized into extremist ideology? What's going on in there? Why are people such as rascist, Nazis, extremist very far out with delusions? What makes a Nazi a Nazi?

You can verify absolute solipsism even in familiar waking consciousness by being conscious right now that everything you experience is happening through you. The only reason other people exist is because you do. Others realness is coming through you. Objective reality is being experienced through your consciousness, without it there is no reality. Look around, look at people and objects or whatever your consciousness lands on, is it out there? Outside yourself? Check! It appears outside of you. Also look at your body, it appears outside of you but notice that all this is happening through your consciousness not outside it. You don't have to delude or trick yourself into seeing what is already the case. Actually the reverse is the case, you're playing a hard trick on yourself to avoid seeing what is, that's why your life is so fucking hard and why you attribute a negative conotation to absolute aloneness because you don't clearly see yourself. Your not conscious of reality

Can you make a video touching on the topic of mental disorders such as cluster b personalities and narcissism? Do you something on your booklist that clarify this stuff? It can be maddening. I've dove into therapist on YouTube specifically about gaslighting, manipulation, narscissm and BPD in people and relationships and this is something that can destroy your life especially when not mapped out. I would be interested in hearing your mind on this issue from a unique perspective.

Yes. Cuz if you don't stay on its ass it will blow smoke up yours

@Terell Kirby It is a pointer, useful but also becomes its own trap. It's the most obvious but the illusion is in not seeing.

That's a childish and silly response. Awakening doesn't argue against or neglect the relative survival domain. You're conflating absolute with relative. You fell into the trap of conflations and strawman arguments.

I always said snackatooth growing up haha

Breakthrough on thca isolate, this stuff is strong. I started touching my face very sensually while looking in the bathroom mirror then I come to sit down on the couch. I go within myself and I notice thoughts, I'm seeing the contents of thoughts and suddenly I have this gnarly epiphany. That everything is imaginary! It reminds me of my LSD trips. There is so much reality. I am imagining and I am imaginary. Everything is Imaginary. I notice my entire life history and self at the moment is completely imaginary. Thoughts are imaginary, but are imagined to be real. My entire self image is being constructed moment by moment. I could go on and on but it's like trying to feed you the ocean. It's freeing and terrifying. I know I could have way more consciousness into the nature of infinity and imagination, knocked me off my boots but in no way is this the highest one can go but definitely a good trampoline boost into infinity

@LambdaDelta I have the philokalia books, those were written by early Christian mystics. I heard about it through Alan Watts. During my highest psychedelic peaks, I've experienced and explored themes of prayer, surrender and high spiritual teachings that come through religion and I'm able to discern and reinterpret spirituality through religion. There is a lot of cultural programming and indoctrination of minds on religion but there is also gold stripped of mindless beliefs and ego. What are your thoughts on this especially tying in with your psychedelic tripping? What are your thoughts on the essence of religion and what people get wrong about it and what religion gets right? Also what are your experiences directly with religion?

Translation: you gotta care about your self deception. 😏

Omg Leo, not blowing smoke up your ass, but you are a gold mine of wisdom that even this throwaway post to the user is hitting me and transforming my mind. It's motivating and inspiring

I'm only asking because you've mentioned in the past martin ball and he goes to quite length about what he calls non-dual energetic body movements etc and he always displays the way he moves during his trips, but I've never heard you talk about this and what your experiences like physically and what you do during the trip. I don't assume that I'm going to start moving like that during my trip, I'm simply asking because I'm thinking about this. On every single one of my trips I either sit down or stand up in one place, in my room and I contemplate and ask questions, all of my trips are very philosophical and existential.

I'm sick of finding bullshit on 5 meo DMT trip reports on YouTube! It's either someone talking about their shamanic experience, Chanting, ceremony!! Nothing wrong with it but I need a video of someone talking only about how they prepare for the trip, what their intentions are, what their experiences, what their body does during the experience, and how they experience the come down, the only other person that I've found is Martin ball. But I'm honestly looking for raw trip experience videos, like those classic salvia 60x videos. Where the video is them smoking it tripping balls, but instead I would like an intelligent person to record this, seems you can't find shit on the internet now Like the main question I have for smoking five meo , does everybody move around in that symmetrical way on the floor? The way Martin ball explains it?

I'm becoming more conscious of of all the different ways I survive. Contemplating all the ways I conform and don't know it is boggling to my mind. This can be maddening

Yes. Mindfully notice the minds tendency to scroll down, giving sovereignty of mind away to a cesspool of conformist cliches, and choose not to. There are few actually thought out comments out of millions. The comment section is polluted.

Good observation. Our sense of obligation comes from our family and cultural upbringing. If we didn't conform we would be ostracized and criticised. We conform out of fear and unconsciousness

I do run Marathons to train for fights, also when I do something physically challenging as a marathon, it can put me into a Flow-State, deep reflection on myself and my entire life and to endure, use suffering as a way of growth and facing reality no matter how hard it is. But I get it. Most of the people running are conforming to the cause of Marathons, but we can't just throw the baby out with the bath water, we can't just eliminate all conformity, maybe we can but also it's possible to transcend conformity while also being in it unattached