Puer Aeternus

That's actually SO interesting I've only ever seen attractiveness be doubled down on for their own benefit or somewhat treated as an annoyance due to all the attention. Let alone a full 360 spin in the opposite direction towards going extra hard for competency. But, I'm not saying it doesn't make sense. It does. Because looks aren't your primary thing, it's not what you want people to connect with you on! You want to be seen and appreciated for your character. Yet so many people giving you opportunities and attention just because of how you look?! It is ridiculous. It DOES sound like a mindfuck. It's like in your own way.. you were compensating? I'm more than my looks! See how much I can do! Do you see me yet?! How unfair the whole game is.... unattractive people get totally dicked. Speaking as a representative of generally unattractive people. I think you're underestimating how much you have been dicked in comparison! It was a big chip on your shoulder and that's not nothing eh. Caused a whole emotional bender era! And it's still an annoying thing you have to filter people through. For me, the looks were a problem for through all schooling years and there's still some lasting pains/insecurities. But unlike attractive people, I can straight GHOST mode life. I don't have to worry about existing in front of some man and instantly catching god-knows-wtf projections and horny attention. If they look at me.. well. They're going to look away pretty fast AHAHA and I LOVE IT I don't have to worry about if romantic partners like me for me! I don't think the struggle gap is quite as large as people make it out to be. Both sides really struggle! But yeahhh, makes sense! Men really do take more time age out of immaturity to fine wine. That extra life experience can really be golden and change everything. Truly, it isn't just DILF season. It's DILFs for life. Mmm but in the end all that locking in led to actualizing your talents. It was lots of work and emotional labor but brings me second hand joy to hear how well you're doing now!

Interesting, do you think a typical person would find you interesting in time? Or would they need to be operating from a similar level as you? It's really wild how functional a mask people can present initially. It's like its own game, the pretending it's all okay game. If I was still in my naive phase I'd think everyone is sane and all's peachy in the world. Ahh yes, where to even find someone like that though Where to even fish for a fellow "boring" person with overton window smashing takes and ways of thinking. Not even in intellectual circles or a spiritual community. Es una problema muy grande. But I suppose the universe pulls the strings in its own little cutesy, magical way. God'll toss an ideal match at the most random fuck off moment just to mess with you! Everything else was just a prank, the real work starts NOW.

No homo and definitely no homosapien! Unless you and my client kissed while on 5-meo, then it's just the universe kissing itself and perfectly solipsisexual.

Yuh, I mean kind of- Humankind and its societies are very corrupt, it's systemic. No escaping! I'm sort of in a bargaining phase. Seen that this world is quite mucky and dirty. If I want to survive in life, I'll have to get dirty. But how much do I really have to do? It is a very difficult question. Can I get away with only dirtying my hands or must I plunge into the muck and struggle my way out. Dunno, I'm no good person though.

Love?! Responding on behalf of my client @Keryo Koffa

Le simple recipe de perfection. I stay inside, consuming theory all day. Constructing an illusion of the world that I feel confident and secure in. Can resist the naysayers with my rationalizations and literary references from my studies! Clearly they're delusional and haven't done the research like me! That way, whew! Don't have to get rejected or have women tell me I'm a 3 out of 10! And I can grift all the other guys just like me for racks upon racks of monies

A video well summarizing and doing additional research on Mearsheimer's book The Israel Lobby and U.S. Foreign Policy. It's shocking how a foreign power has achieved a total iron grip on U.S. congress, and have maintained it for decades. Very concerning with how the Iran attacks have been kicking off.

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Gabor Maté's When The Body Says No Haven't properly read the book yet- But my body has started to say no to various things over the past year. Always remember the title because it so simply describes what happens every time!

Mhmm mhmm. So basically you're trying to wake them up with a projector slideshow broadcast into their ego VR experience. Sounds absolutely brilliant. Just.. on the day of mass awakening, be sure to bring the CORRECT reality hard drive. Collective humanity doesn't need to see other the other weird ass shit you've been downloading.

I think you just earned yourself hosting privileges. Ya the average MAGA supporter may be a few stages below the consciousness of a typical Amazon delivery driver. So we may need a few quranic EDM hedonism sessions before we throw them into the deep end of appreciative finger snapping at zen slam poetry night and all the rest!

What a beautiful thing that would be.. Imagine. They've converted the Berghain club in Germany to a mosque, but retained many nightclub design elements. They fly a delegation of Trump supporters out. And you're just in the middle of it all. Flashing lights, a meaty MAGA man throwing it back and grinding on you to EDM augmented Quran verses performed in German. You might find God right there. One event would be enough to push humanity into fourth density consciousness.

People always think that, my pants are too baggy for them to know it's just my helikopter.

Personally I'm going.. MAGA Rally>Nightclub>Religious Gathering MAGA rally would be hoot n a holler. Let out some not PC devilish humor and laugh along with the attendees, maybe chant some fun brain rot, and listen to orange man perform his standup comedy routine. Just can't take any of it seriously or it ruins the fun. Nightclub just sounds boring. Oooooh let me dance with some strangers who are absolutely sloshed out of their minds while the DJ plays music at volume levels deserving of a war crime. Maybe if I had friends to go with, fortunately I don't. Religious Gathering is just a no. Unless we are doing certain drugs or I get to preach the sermon. Then it would be #1, even better if I can start a cult.

True true, tis a very fair take!

Hehehe plus sometimes the individuals have no choice. Drawn in like a moth to a flame. Choo choo! Here comes the god train! Bouta RUN THROUGH your ego ready or not, trauma or not! You better buckle up for that dark night of the soul style suffering! Meditation tis' but a method A sexy and potentially potent one But just a method

Respectfully sir, you can do much better than dick rudder in this life time. Personally, I've been swinging and practicing the art of..

I shall discretely respond with affirmation as not further expose you to the public eye

To give an example, chess player Anna Cramling really gives off the vibe

A few days ago I was out walking in the park down the block from where I live. And that's when it happened, when she happened. One look at her as she approached me on the path, and it was like her entire body was glowing with happiness. She cast some sort of spell when she initiated with the most genuine "Hiiiii " Knocked me completely off my feet, I was completely disarmed with one word. She had a cute lil doggy so naturally I had to give the good boy some attention! Meanwhile this woman gave me weather small talk with such sincerity that it didn't feel like small talk anymore. Her voice was oozing with enthusiasm over the raw comfortability of 70 degree fahrenheit weather. Then she paid me the most genuine comment on my footwear, somehow her smile growing even wider and aura radiating even more joy. She gave me one final bit of fuzzy warm undescribable eye contact and wished me a good day, walking off smiling and laughing. All I could do was just stand there like an idiot, big shit eating grin across my face, day made and vibes absorbed via osmosis, thinking to myself what the FUCK was that. I'd never met an adult who felt so alive before? Questioned if she was just an english speaking golden retriever in a human suit. No ulterior motives, just vibes. Imagine being that way. Imagine being able to melt through someone's walls with only the radiant joyful beam of your attention. But it's difficult. Because we have ulterior motives, we have traumatic goop blocking that flow of energy- Yet in reflection, I realized there were more people like her I'd encountered online. All of them like that- All of them so magnetic. Should I encounter her in the wild again, I'm definitely asking this woman to teach me her ways. Just want to be around more of that, it was healing for my soul.

HE'S REALLY REAL!!!

@Daniel Balan I mean you're cooking but also leaving it in the oven a lil too long. The ice ain't that thin- They ain't firing his ass just over a lil slippy uppy. Just like your boss probably wouldn't fire you if he caught ya scarfing down on his red velvet cake slice in the company break room. Nothing for the better? My half filled glass stays on half empty but even this is to cynical for me. Of course things can be made better in a corrupt system. Sometimes a W for the commoners overlaps with a W for the elites. And certainly, there's exceptions where leaders have gotten away with lots of stuff. But generally what you said is important, do it to em Daniel!

@Jannes Yaya we are on the same page then Sorry for the misunderstanding! I agree. Haha saying my concern for your lack of life experience was if you were saying average men can't get away with being generally toxic and still have romantic success, not how you actually meant it.

Emerald is really right here. You're right that "beta" men won't be able to behave like men with abundance though, and be toxic in the same ways as them. They're not getting away with that. If that's what you mean, valid. But yeah, the average person has toxic traits, I have toxic traits. So of course they can be toxic. Yet it's not stopping them from coupling up. I swear, the amount of dysfunctional toxic people I've seen in relationships- is baffling. No offense but it makes me question how much real world experience you have with this.

Ehhhhh. I mean I've thought a lot about this too. Much of the time adding on more responsibilities will pull you deeper into survival in the material world. Not even just having a girlfriend, but also like a dog, a child something like that as well. But don't believe in a definitive answer like yes getting a girlfriend will always send me deeper into the social matrix. Can certainly find a situation like @eliasvelez talks about- where you find a person like that.. who knows, but I'm sure it's possible! If one really wants a girlfriend or to have sex, I could see not pursuing that to potentially be less spiritual. Because maybe the timing is off, maybe someone's watched some Actualized videos and gotten the idea to pursue truth at the expense of everything else. But it's not really what they want in the present and they plateu stuck in inner conflict. Doesn't sound like the case for you @r0ckyreed , this seems like an insight you've found pretty organically. But reality is non-linear and full of surprises- All the things I listed inversely could become key ingredient experiences for further traveling a spiritual path.