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@Inliytened1 thank you, bro. How does one continue to learn more and continue to mature spiritually? Just meditation and contemplation, with an internal longing for knowing more? Also, i want to add to your forum post’s initial topic of discussion with a theory i have that couples with solipsism- i do think that i experience life in everyones perspective at some point/dimension. So you inliytened1 (and everyone else) are not just a npc with minimal appearances in my life, but i lived your whole life. In my current movie scene im talking to you as my advisor/mentor, but when i live as you, i am inliytened1 living out his whole life with “me” (aguywithtanskin) as the one who made a few appearances in which inliytened1 mentored aguywithtanskin; but somehow, i cant explain how, god stitches all these experiences/lives together. God is so intelligent/a supercomputer, that he/it can only be explained by being magick. Cheers!

@Inliytened1 i did force my mind to think away from that, but at the same time knew i was just lying to myself to hide from the reality. Like a child hiding under their sheets when a monster is in the room, as if that is any good to erase the fact its there. So is that what im stuck with for eternity, to hide from the truth to cope with it? Or is there some milestone Im behind on, that I need to overcome to get to the mindset or place where I actually prefer resonating with the truth/oneness over what I’m used to in the illusory world with having “others”? Does that bliss on the side of enlightenment that you mention supersede all other euphorias from the maya/illusory perception of life (drugs, alcohol, etc.)? And dont hesitate to be honest and blunt with me, I can accept it (while im in this maya at least). I’ve done a lot of work trying to practice and strengthen myself to accept it, by strengthening my self love; traveling alone, accepting losses, etc.

@Inliytened1 take your time, and get back to me. I’ve been wanting to ask you this for a few years lol, but just would get sucked back into my busy life. I just want a bit more clarity, around that contradiction.

@Inliytened1 hey brotha. I’ve been lurking on this forum here and there since 2023, and your wisdom/words resonate with me the most. yours, along with @Leo Gura, @Breakingthewall , and some guy with a black persons profile pic (with sunglasses, i think he calls himself morpheus or something) posts catch my attention. I always wanted to reach out to ask questions to help me clear up my understanding of things but i’d get busy with life, and other times i couldnt find your old posts. i’ll preface by saying that i have consumed LSD once (as my first psychedelic), in 2012, at coachella, and experienced ego death and it was true hell because i remembered that im alone forever, always have been and always will be. Prior to this, i tempted god when i lost faith in god to show me himself if he truly exists; and during my trip, god telepathically told me “you wanted me to show myself right, well here i am” and i pleaded with regret to just go back to the illusory world i was used to, as i thought at this point i opened a can of worms that couldnt be undone anymore. It was so haunting and sad knowing that the actual truth of this life is horrific and i’ll always be stuck with it infinitely, and only by pretending/lying to myself forever i can cope with it. I went in not knowing anything about spirituality or philosophy; just wanted to take a “drug” to party, but it was nothing of the sort. What began as euophoric and noticing how similar my friends and i were, feeling a close bond to them, evolved into realizing that they literally are me (their voices were coming from within my mind, and not outside of me/thru their mouths as we perceive).. the soul that i always thought was inside them (as “other”), and of course everyone else in this world, was no longer a “separate” entity… rather it was just me this entire time like a ventriloquist pretending his puppet is a separate being, but its actually just the ventriloquist himself pretending to be the puppet by changing his voice, though in the dream/maya the ventriloquist is under a trance that blurs the knowledge of the fact that everyone is actually him. Another example is toy story, when Andy enters the room and all the toys lose “life” and lay on the ground… on LSD, thats what i experienced- that everyone i ever knew was always just a puppet, and all their personalities and voices and appearances just came internally from my (or the one and only’s) mind. It’s the same thing as when we go to sleep, in our dream those other characters are just our own mind… or in virtual reality, same thing. There can only be one pov experience occurring at the present moment, like a movie, and for now its mine as the character im playing. But even my body is all imagined, made of the same consciousness (or pixels) as everything else in each scene in every moment. I did shrooms once after this, and experienced the same thing but to a shorter duration and less extreme, but it caused a panic attack. Is this considered enlightenment- those moments when I dissolved into that oneness? The main question I’ve been wanting to ask you is- why do you (and many others) say that enlightenment is “total bliss” or it’s something to desire and yearn for, and the most amazing love or euphoria or whatever.. when at the same time you have said you wouldnt wish it upon your worst enemy? And many also describe it as realizing that you are the one and only lonely king trapped here for eternity and thats just the way it is. This is contradictory. I’ve seen comments on posts in the past from you, with takes from both sides. And by the way, as a result of the very few psychedelic trips, I became obsessed with learning more and read up so much philosophy… that i now believe in solipsism, as only it makes sense. The best way to explain/describe existence, is that its literally magick! Theres no other explanation.