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On 12/07/2023 at 4:13 PM, Buck Edwards said:
On 12/07/2023 at 4:14 PM, Buck Edwards said:
On 12/07/2023 at 4:15 PM, Buck Edwards said:Aghori nandi
On 12/07/2023 at 4:30 PM, Buck Edwards said:Sadhu. Nag panchami
On 12/07/2023 at 4:33 PM, Buck Edwards said:Tirupati Balaji
On 12/07/2023 at 5:14 PM, Buck Edwards said:.
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On 12/07/2023 at 8:28 PM, Buck Edwards said:I bought some more consecrated items.
On 13/07/2023 at 0:21 AM, Buck Edwards said:Mahavatar Babaji
On 13/07/2023 at 0:28 AM, Buck Edwards said:I think the power of shaktipat is important here.
I believe in Spiritism of the Hindu deities. And I feel like they communicate with us through the power of shaktipat.
On 13/07/2023 at 0:30 AM, Buck Edwards said:Ishta Devata
Who and Why?
Moksha is a concept associated with the birth and rebirth cycle, and Vedic Astrology defines the attainment of moksha as the only purpose in life for every human being. Our Ishta Devata or chosen deity is the one whom we pray to, and who can guide us to our true purpose - salvation. Ishta Devata, literally translates to 'the favored deity' whom we worship, and is the higher power, whom we connect with spiritually. He/She guides us through life, helping us live a fulfilling and protected life, and then finally directing us into leaving the cycle of rebirth behind to experience of oneness with the One Supreme Self. Unlike our Kul Devata, the Ishta Devata is unique for every individual, and can be easily discovered through our birth chart. As per astrology, one should definitely worship their specific Ishta Devata. The rituals behind the veneration of your chosen deity are rather easy to follow and are mainly based on the chanting of mantras pertaining to them.
On 13/07/2023 at 0:31 AM, Buck Edwards said:The knowledge about one's Ishta Devata can easily be discovered through the Atmakaraka in Navamsa in our birth charts. The Atmakaraka is the planet with the highest degree in our kundli. The Navamsa, on the other hand, is the ninth division in our birth chart, that signifies Dharma and thereby is also known as the Dharma-amsa. The Atmakaraka in one's Navamsa is called the Karakamsa and the twelfth house or sign from it pertains to our Ishta Devata. The planets posited in this house determine our chosen deity, however, if this house is empty then the Lord of the house is taken as the significator. Every planet pertains to a certain deity who has to be worshipped
On 13/07/2023 at 0:32 AM, Buck Edwards said:Planets and Deities
According to the planet residing in the twelfth house from your Karakamsa house, or the Lord of the said house, the deities to be worshipped are
Sun: Lord Shiva, Sri Rama
Moon: Goddess Gauri, Goddess Lalita, Goddess Saraswati, Sri Krishna
Mars: Lord Hanuman, Rudra Deva, Lord Kartikeya (Subrahmanya), Sri Narasimha
Mercury: Lord Vishnu, Sri Buddha
Jupiter: Lord Hayagreeva, Lord Vishnu, Lord Indra, Lord Dattatreya, Any mentor/teacher
Venus: Goddess Lakshmi, Goddess Parvati
Saturn: Lord Vishnu, Lord Brahma
Rahu: Goddess Durga, Shri Narasimha
Ketu: Lord Ganesha
On 13/07/2023 at 0:33 AM, Buck Edwards said:Lord Vishnu is known as the 'preserver' in the hindu trinity, and he is considered to be the deity who can guide every individual towards Moksha easily, as he carries the Sudharshan Chakra, which is considered essential in attainment of salvation. For such individuals, the following list carries the specific forms (avatar) of Lord Vishnu whom they should worship as their Ishta Devata
Sun: Lord Rama
Moon: Lord Krishna
Mars: Lord Narasimha
Mercury: Lord Buddha
Jupiter: Lord Vamana
Venus: Lord Parashurama
Saturn: Lord Koorma
Rahu: The Varaha form
Ketu: The Matsya form
On 13/07/2023 at 0:36 AM, Buck Edwards said:My star is Venus. So it's Goddess Laxmi and Lord Parshuram.
Some other place gave the following result.
Lord Kartikeya Murugan. Lord Hanuman.
Still some other place said -
Your Ishta DevataShani Dev/Hanuman/Kurma/Shiva/Vishnu
On 13/07/2023 at 0:50 AM, Buck Edwards said:As the research of Indian tradition, in every human being’s life there should be four actual targets includes: Dharma, Artha, Kama and Moksha. People have to pass by from such four phases of the life. In oradre to get the entire aims you have guided to workship different type of devtas and among all devtas, the Ishta is the actual one of them.
According to Vajrayana Buddhism, the Ishta devata is not a deity but an enlightened being with which a person recognizes when he/she busy in personal meditation. In this case, this is always translated as “meditation deity”.
Varied tradition has varied path of worshiping to their deity, but in India, there’re generally two ideas to worship of Ishta devta- “one is through chanting perfect mantras and another through doing easy puja with pure heart and belief”.
This is all about to our belief and path of trusting. The real fact is worship to achieve pleasure and showing faith towards our God. Never forgive to thank our creator that given precious life to us.
The various associations of planets and houses form Moksha Yoga. The 5th house represents soul and power of the mind. The 9th house represents spiritual understanding and philosophy. And the 12th house represents salvation that is Moksha.
Jupiter, Moon, Sun, Uranus and Neptune are the planets that indicate the stage of spirituality of the person. Jupiter is the most essential among all. This dominates spirituality.
Saturn also is associated to salvation quite frequently. The planet is spiritual thus ads to the stage of Moksha Yoga in one’s chart. It plays a sufficient act into the journey of human soul to salvation. It helps you in the journey to liberate.
Moon female natives are extremely amazing and supportable. They’re really great homemakers. They prefer travelling. Moon male natives are emotional, feminine and type. They are really slow in speech.
On 13/07/2023 at 1:20 AM, Buck Edwards said:My weekly planet is Venus and my lord is Jupiter or Brihaspati.
Lord Vishnu.
On 13/07/2023 at 1:59 AM, Buck Edwards said:So I went to clickastro and did my vedic astrology chart using my birth details.
That it's Venus in my 12th house in Navamsa chart
Let's see what that
On 13/07/2023 at 2:09 AM, Buck Edwards said:That's my Navamsa chart.
I can see Venus in the 12th house of the Navamsa.
What does that mean?
On 13/07/2023 at 2:14 AM, Buck Edwards said:So I clicked here andhttps://www.vedicastrodiction.com/navamsa-chart/venus-in-different-houses-of-navamsa/
And from this article I found -
I don't pay attention to physical appearance. They are right about it. I do wasteful spending. They can be poetic. Yes I am poetic.
On 13/07/2023 at 2:57 AM, Buck Edwards said:My vargottama planet is Saturn. It lies in the sign of Scorpio in both the Rashi and Navamsa chart.
Taken from article on Vargottam
https://www.anahitarao.com/vargottama-planets-double-the-power/
Saturn is Vargottam for me.
SATURN: Saturn indicates delays, obstacles and stability. Your mind may be blocked when you find Saturn as your Vargottama. On the other hand, it means you have good stability and resistance to go through any bad event.
On 13/07/2023 at 3:40 AM, Buck Edwards said:As the deity of time overall (Kala), Shiva is related to Saturn, which as the slowest moving among the major planets governs over longer time periods and is the great karmic reckoner.
On 13/07/2023 at 3:47 AM, Buck Edwards said:My weekly planet is Venus. I was born on a Friday.
Taken from the web -
People who have birthdays on Fridays are affected by both Lakshmi and Venus as the lord of Friday is Venus and its goddess is Lakshmi. This is the reason that people born on this day are fond of material comforts. They like decorations a lot. The people born on Friday are the owners of magnetic personalities.
My zodiac planet is - Jupiter.
My Vargottama - SATURN(NOT SURE)
My ascendant is - Libra/Scorpio
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On 12/07/2023 at 3:23 PM, Buck Edwards said:
On 12/07/2023 at 4:07 PM, Buck Edwards said:
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On 12/07/2023 at 1:50 PM, Buck Edwards said:On 12/07/2023 at 1:59 PM, Buck Edwards said:Nag panchami ashtami
On 12/07/2023 at 3:21 PM, Buck Edwards said:
On 12/07/2023 at 3:22 PM, Buck Edwards said:
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On 12/07/2023 at 8:36 AM, Buck Edwards said:Jai Kedarnath Jai Mahakal
On 12/07/2023 at 8:48 AM, Buck Edwards said:Om Namah shivaya
Om Nandi.
On 12/07/2023 at 9:18 AM, Buck Edwards said:Om Namah shivaya.
Shivling and Nandi (sacred bull) made of black marble.
On 12/07/2023 at 9:54 AM, Buck Edwards said:Marble statue edition.
Marble Ganpati statues
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On 12/07/2023 at 10:00 AM, Buck Edwards said:Marble statue edition.
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Shesh nag
On 12/07/2023 at 10:01 AM, Buck Edwards said:
Jai Shree hanuman in white marble
On 12/07/2023 at 10:11 AM, Buck Edwards said:Nandi statue marble.
On 12/07/2023 at 10:16 AM, Buck Edwards said:
Nandi.
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On 12/07/2023 at 11:53 AM, Buck Edwards said:
On 12/07/2023 at 0:05 PM, Buck Edwards said:Nag Panchami
On 12/07/2023 at 0:39 PM, Buck Edwards said:List of Shiva temples.
On 12/07/2023 at 1:29 PM, Buck Edwards said:
Nandi.
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On 11/07/2023 at 9:03 AM, Buck Edwards said:The power of connections.
On 11/07/2023 at 9:03 AM, Buck Edwards said:The power of Bhakti
On 11/07/2023 at 9:06 AM, Buck Edwards said:Rasik Swami.
On 11/07/2023 at 9:22 AM, Buck Edwards said:Ganga Aarti.
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On 11/07/2023 at 9:25 AM, Buck Edwards said:Om Namah shivaya.
On 11/07/2023 at 9:26 AM, Buck Edwards said:Mahadev Aarti
On 11/07/2023 at 7:56 PM, Buck Edwards said:Who were rishis.
Rishis were souls of high order, human beings of high consciousness who could harness information from the cosmic energy and consciousness around and provide it to normal human beings.
On 11/07/2023 at 11:10 PM, Buck Edwards said:Kaal Bhairav ashtami Hindu Calendar
I missed the January and July.
The next in the first week August. I must not forget that one.
Next date is August 8.
Also Kaala Bhairav Jayanti
On 11/07/2023 at 11:14 PM, Buck Edwards said:Amarnath Yatra already began..
The tough traveling.
On 11/07/2023 at 11:25 PM, Buck Edwards said:Vaishno Devi Yatra Jammu
Jai Mata Di. Bhairo Nath. Hanuman Ji. Bhairo Baba. Maa Kali. Maa Vaishno. Maa Saraswati.
On 11/07/2023 at 11:28 PM, Buck Edwards said:Holiest Hindu Teerths or 7 Holy Dhams.
Ayodhya, Mathura, Maya (Haridwar), Kasi (Varanasi), Kanchi (Kanchipuram), Avantika (Ujjain) and Dvaravati (Dwarka).
On 11/07/2023 at 11:33 PM, Buck Edwards said:Pandharpur Wari Yatra
Pandharpur Wari ... In the months of June and July, every year, Varkaris or pilgrims of the god Vithoba from all over Maharashtra take up a 18 to 20 days ...
Shree Jagannath Rath Yatra Puri
The Jagannath temple is of utmost importance to the Hindu devotees as it is one of the Char-Dham Pilgrimages.
Puri Rath Yatra
The Puri Rath Yatra is celebrated since it is believed that Lord Krishna returns home during Janmashtami, that falls in months of June or July every year.
Shri Kashi Vishwanath Yatra.
Kashi Vishwanath Yatra ... Kashi Yatra is a pilgrimage with the purpose of performing Vedic rites for ancestors.
Baba Baidyanath Dham
Located at Deoghar in the state of Jharkhand, Baba Baidyanath Dham is one of the famous pilgrimage centres in India for Hindus.
Kashi Yatra
Kashi Yatra is a pilgrimage with the purpose of performing Vedic rites for our ancestors. This yatra is meant to be done on foot,
Varanasi Yatra
Tirtha Yatra is a part of Hindu culture wherein a devotee undertake journey to a famous pilgrim site.
Dwarka Yatra.
The four Dhams are Badrinath, Dwarka, Jagannath and Rameswaram. ... It is believed that every Hindu should visit the Char Dhams during one's lifetime.
Kedarnath Dham Yatra
Kedarnath Dham Yatra ... Located in the district of Rudraprayag in Devbhoomi Uttarakhand, this ancient and holiest of all temples of Lord Shiva in Kedarnath
On 11/07/2023 at 11:41 PM, Buck Edwards said:Badrinath Devasthan Yatra
Char Dham Yatra · Badrinath is located in the North Indian state of Uttarakhand, in Garhwal hills on the banks of the Alaknanda River.
Kanwar Yatra ... This annual pilgrimage is for devotees of Lord Shiva. Thousands of saffron-clad pilgrims collect water from river Ganga at Haridwar, Gangotri ..
Deoghar Yatra
means abode of the Gods and Goddesses, It is also known as Baidyanath Dham or Baba Dham situated on the eastern side of Jharkhand
Rest are Amarnath Yatra and VaishnoDevi Yatra and Kailash mansarovar Yatra which are already covered above.
On 11/07/2023 at 11:48 PM, Buck Edwards said:Location of 12 jyotirlings.
Jyotirlings are shrines of Shiva located at 12 sacred places..
12 Jyotirlinga images with name and place:
Somnath – Gir Somnath In Gujarat
Nageshwar – Daarukavanam In Gujarat
Bhimashankar – Pune In Maharashtra
Trimbakeshwar – Nashik In Maharashtra
Grishneshwar – Aurangabad In Maharashtra
Vaidyanath – Deoghar In Jharkhand
Mahakaleshwar – Ujjain In Madhya Pradesh
Omkareshwar – Khandwa In Madhya Pradesh
Kashi Vishwanath – Varanasi In Uttar Pradesh
Kedarnath – Kedarnath In Uttarakhand
Rameshwaram – Rameswaram Island In Tamil Nadu
Mallikarjuna – Srisailam In Andhra Pradesh
Jyotirlings are shivlings
On 12/07/2023 at 0:07 AM, Buck Edwards said:
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On 12/07/2023 at 0:26 AM, Buck Edwards said:Oops. I kinda messed up and I think the images aren't clear. Anyway here is a clear image.
Location of 12 jyotirlings or shivlings.
On 12/07/2023 at 7:45 AM, Buck Edwards said:
Shivlings.
On 12/07/2023 at 8:03 AM, Buck Edwards said:Jai Kedarnath
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On 11/07/2023 at 9:03 AM, Buck Edwards said:The power of connections.
On 11/07/2023 at 9:03 AM, Buck Edwards said:The power of Bhakti
On 11/07/2023 at 9:06 AM, Buck Edwards said:Rasik Swami.
On 11/07/2023 at 9:22 AM, Buck Edwards said:Ganga Aarti.
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On 11/07/2023 at 9:25 AM, Buck Edwards said:Om Namah shivaya.
On 11/07/2023 at 9:26 AM, Buck Edwards said:Mahadev Aarti
On 11/07/2023 at 7:56 PM, Buck Edwards said:Who were rishis.
Rishis were souls of high order, human beings of high consciousness who could harness information from the cosmic energy and consciousness around and provide it to normal human beings.
On 11/07/2023 at 11:10 PM, Buck Edwards said:Kaal Bhairav ashtami Hindu Calendar
I missed the January and July.
The next in the first week August. I must not forget that one.
Next date is August 8.
Also Kaala Bhairav Jayanti
On 11/07/2023 at 11:14 PM, Buck Edwards said:Amarnath Yatra already began..
The tough traveling.
On 11/07/2023 at 11:25 PM, Buck Edwards said:Vaishno Devi Yatra Jammu
Jai Mata Di. Bhairo Nath. Hanuman Ji. Bhairo Baba. Maa Kali. Maa Vaishno. Maa Saraswati.
On 11/07/2023 at 11:28 PM, Buck Edwards said:Holiest Hindu Teerths or 7 Holy Dhams.
Ayodhya, Mathura, Maya (Haridwar), Kasi (Varanasi), Kanchi (Kanchipuram), Avantika (Ujjain) and Dvaravati (Dwarka).
On 11/07/2023 at 11:33 PM, Buck Edwards said:Pandharpur Wari Yatra
Pandharpur Wari ... In the months of June and July, every year, Varkaris or pilgrims of the god Vithoba from all over Maharashtra take up a 18 to 20 days ...
Shree Jagannath Rath Yatra Puri
The Jagannath temple is of utmost importance to the Hindu devotees as it is one of the Char-Dham Pilgrimages.
Puri Rath Yatra
The Puri Rath Yatra is celebrated since it is believed that Lord Krishna returns home during Janmashtami, that falls in months of June or July every year.
Shri Kashi Vishwanath Yatra.
Kashi Vishwanath Yatra ... Kashi Yatra is a pilgrimage with the purpose of performing Vedic rites for ancestors.
Baba Baidyanath Dham
Located at Deoghar in the state of Jharkhand, Baba Baidyanath Dham is one of the famous pilgrimage centres in India for Hindus.
Kashi Yatra
Kashi Yatra is a pilgrimage with the purpose of performing Vedic rites for our ancestors. This yatra is meant to be done on foot,
Varanasi Yatra
Tirtha Yatra is a part of Hindu culture wherein a devotee undertake journey to a famous pilgrim site.
Dwarka Yatra.
The four Dhams are Badrinath, Dwarka, Jagannath and Rameswaram. ... It is believed that every Hindu should visit the Char Dhams during one's lifetime.
Kedarnath Dham Yatra
Kedarnath Dham Yatra ... Located in the district of Rudraprayag in Devbhoomi Uttarakhand, this ancient and holiest of all temples of Lord Shiva in Kedarnath
On 11/07/2023 at 11:41 PM, Buck Edwards said:Badrinath Devasthan Yatra
Char Dham Yatra · Badrinath is located in the North Indian state of Uttarakhand, in Garhwal hills on the banks of the Alaknanda River.
Kanwar Yatra ... This annual pilgrimage is for devotees of Lord Shiva. Thousands of saffron-clad pilgrims collect water from river Ganga at Haridwar, Gangotri ..
Deoghar Yatra
means abode of the Gods and Goddesses, It is also known as Baidyanath Dham or Baba Dham situated on the eastern side of Jharkhand
Rest are Amarnath Yatra and VaishnoDevi Yatra and Kailash mansarovar Yatra which are already covered above.
On 11/07/2023 at 11:48 PM, Buck Edwards said:Location of 12 jyotirlings.
Jyotirlings are shrines of Shiva located at 12 sacred places..
12 Jyotirlinga images with name and place:
Somnath – Gir Somnath In Gujarat
Nageshwar – Daarukavanam In Gujarat
Bhimashankar – Pune In Maharashtra
Trimbakeshwar – Nashik In Maharashtra
Grishneshwar – Aurangabad In Maharashtra
Vaidyanath – Deoghar In Jharkhand
Mahakaleshwar – Ujjain In Madhya Pradesh
Omkareshwar – Khandwa In Madhya Pradesh
Kashi Vishwanath – Varanasi In Uttar Pradesh
Kedarnath – Kedarnath In Uttarakhand
Rameshwaram – Rameswaram Island In Tamil Nadu
Mallikarjuna – Srisailam In Andhra Pradesh
Jyotirlings are shivlings
On 12/07/2023 at 0:07 AM, Buck Edwards said:
On 12/07/2023 at 0:26 AM, Buck Edwards said:Oops. I kinda messed up and I think the images aren't clear. Anyway here is a clear image.
Location of 12 jyotirlings or shivlings.
On 12/07/2023 at 7:45 AM, Buck Edwards said:
Shivlings.
On 12/07/2023 at 8:03 AM, Buck Edwards said:Jai Kedarnath
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On 11/07/2023 at 6:55 AM, Buck Edwards said:This is beautiful.
On 11/07/2023 at 6:56 AM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful
On 11/07/2023 at 6:57 AM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful Aarti.
On 11/07/2023 at 6:58 AM, Buck Edwards said:Shiv Tandav Strotam. Banares Aarti
On 11/07/2023 at 7:13 AM, Buck Edwards said:Kailash Mansarovar Yatra Dham and sound of Om
On 11/07/2023 at 7:15 AM, Buck Edwards said:My father was born on Mahashivratri. Om Namah shivaya. Just beautiful.
On 11/07/2023 at 7:17 AM, Buck Edwards said:Holy rivers section.
Dham Yatra. Popular yatras
On 11/07/2023 at 7:28 AM, Buck Edwards said:Jagannath Rath Yatra 2023. Jagannath Puri.
Jagannath Rath Yatra aerial view.
On 11/07/2023 at 7:30 AM, Buck Edwards said:Walking with a million devotees. Rath Yatra. Jagannath, Puri.
Maha Yatra.
On 11/07/2023 at 7:41 AM, Buck Edwards said:3 mysteries of Kailash Mansarovar
On 11/07/2023 at 7:46 AM, Buck Edwards said:Kailash mansarovar Yatra. Panch Kailash Yatra. Adi Kailash. Om Parabat / Parvat
I call it the mountain of hope.
On 11/07/2023 at 7:47 AM, Buck Edwards said:Lings..
On 11/07/2023 at 7:50 AM, Buck Edwards said:Sadhguru at Kailash mansarovar.
On 11/07/2023 at 7:54 AM, Buck Edwards said:Mount Kailash
On 11/07/2023 at 7:56 AM, Buck Edwards said:Mystery of Mount Kailash
On 11/07/2023 at 7:57 AM, Buck Edwards said:Mount Kailash secrets.
On 11/07/2023 at 7:59 AM, Buck Edwards said:Mount Kailash secrets. Discussion
On 11/07/2023 at 8:00 AM, Buck Edwards said:Kailash Parbat discussion.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:05 AM, Buck Edwards said:Kailash Yatra. Awesome.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:07 AM, Buck Edwards said:You won't need Chinese Visa to visit Kailash Mansarovar. Thank God.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:17 AM, Buck Edwards said:Om Namah shivaya. Beautiful.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:20 AM, Buck Edwards said:Shiv Bhakti.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:22 AM, Buck Edwards said:Gangotri Gomukh.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:29 AM, Buck Edwards said:Wow Sadhguru dancing at Kailash.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:31 AM, Buck Edwards said:Traveling to Kailash is expensive. A bare minimum of $4000 plus extra. Now that the Chinese government has raised the travel revenues.
I certainly can't afford that.
On 11/07/2023 at 9:01 AM, Buck Edwards said:Right now I can only dream of going to Mansarovar with my financial problems.
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On 11/07/2023 at 6:55 AM, Buck Edwards said:This is beautiful.
On 11/07/2023 at 6:56 AM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful
On 11/07/2023 at 6:57 AM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful Aarti.
On 11/07/2023 at 6:58 AM, Buck Edwards said:Shiv Tandav Strotam. Banares Aarti
On 11/07/2023 at 7:13 AM, Buck Edwards said:Kailash Mansarovar Yatra Dham and sound of Om
On 11/07/2023 at 7:15 AM, Buck Edwards said:My father was born on Mahashivratri. Om Namah shivaya. Just beautiful.
On 11/07/2023 at 7:17 AM, Buck Edwards said:Holy rivers section.
Dham Yatra. Popular yatras
On 11/07/2023 at 7:28 AM, Buck Edwards said:Jagannath Rath Yatra 2023. Jagannath Puri.
Jagannath Rath Yatra aerial view.
On 11/07/2023 at 7:30 AM, Buck Edwards said:Walking with a million devotees. Rath Yatra. Jagannath, Puri.
Maha Yatra.
On 11/07/2023 at 7:41 AM, Buck Edwards said:3 mysteries of Kailash Mansarovar
On 11/07/2023 at 7:46 AM, Buck Edwards said:Kailash mansarovar Yatra. Panch Kailash Yatra. Adi Kailash. Om Parabat / Parvat
I call it the mountain of hope.
On 11/07/2023 at 7:47 AM, Buck Edwards said:Lings..
On 11/07/2023 at 7:50 AM, Buck Edwards said:Sadhguru at Kailash mansarovar.
On 11/07/2023 at 7:54 AM, Buck Edwards said:Mount Kailash
On 11/07/2023 at 7:56 AM, Buck Edwards said:Mystery of Mount Kailash
On 11/07/2023 at 7:57 AM, Buck Edwards said:Mount Kailash secrets.
On 11/07/2023 at 7:59 AM, Buck Edwards said:Mount Kailash secrets. Discussion
On 11/07/2023 at 8:00 AM, Buck Edwards said:Kailash Parbat discussion.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:05 AM, Buck Edwards said:Kailash Yatra. Awesome.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:07 AM, Buck Edwards said:You won't need Chinese Visa to visit Kailash Mansarovar. Thank God.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:17 AM, Buck Edwards said:Om Namah shivaya. Beautiful.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:20 AM, Buck Edwards said:Shiv Bhakti.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:22 AM, Buck Edwards said:Gangotri Gomukh.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:29 AM, Buck Edwards said:Wow Sadhguru dancing at Kailash.
On 11/07/2023 at 8:31 AM, Buck Edwards said:Traveling to Kailash is expensive. A bare minimum of $4000 plus extra. Now that the Chinese government has raised the travel revenues.
I certainly can't afford that.
On 11/07/2023 at 9:01 AM, Buck Edwards said:Right now I can only dream of going to Mansarovar with my financial problems.
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On 10/07/2023 at 4:20 PM, Buck Edwards said:Jaikal Mahakal Shambhu
On 10/07/2023 at 4:22 PM, Buck Edwards said:Hare Ram hare Krishna
On 10/07/2023 at 4:24 PM, Buck Edwards said:Adi anant Shiva. Beautiful.
Shiva strotam. Rudraksh.
Shiv shiv shiv. Beautiful.
On 10/07/2023 at 4:48 PM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful
On 10/07/2023 at 4:52 PM, Buck Edwards said:Aigiri Nandini.
Om Namah Bhagavate Rudraya.
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On 10/07/2023 at 4:59 PM, Buck Edwards said:Some powerful bhajan tracks.
Om Shiv Shambhu Shambho
Bham Bhole Rudraya
On 11/07/2023 at 2:57 AM, Buck Edwards said:Lot of agni.
1050
On 11/07/2023 at 3:11 AM, Buck Edwards said:Nandi the holy bull.
On 11/07/2023 at 3:21 AM, Buck Edwards said:Lord Nandi gayatri mantra. The sacred bull.
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On 11/07/2023 at 3:26 AM, Buck Edwards said:Aghori mantra
On 11/07/2023 at 3:27 AM, Buck Edwards said:Maha Shivaratri
Om Shivoham.
Om.
Bhairava Rudraya
Maha Rudraya
Kaala Rudraya
Kalpanta Rudraya
Veera Rudraya
Rudra Rudraya
Ghora Rudraya
Aghora Rudraya
Maarthanda Rudraya
Anda Rudraya
Brahmanda Rudraya
Chanda Rudraya
Prachanda Rudraya
Thanda Rudraya
Soora Rudraya
Veera Rudraya
Bhava Rudraya
Bheema Rudraya
Athala Rudraya
Vithala Rudraya
Suthala Rudraya
Mahathala Rudraya
Rasathala Rudraya
Talatala Rudraya
Pathala Rudraya
Namo NamahaHe begged his father for a name and was granted “Rudra”, from the the word rud, meaning to weep or howl. Because of his tremendous powers as the storm god, “Rudra” is often translated as “the howler.” He was sometimes called “Shiva”, an adjective meaning “kind” as a euphemism
On 11/07/2023 at 4:55 AM, Buck Edwards said:Brahmavid Brahmaiva Bhavati
One who knows Brahman becomes Brahman himself. The saying Brahmavid Brahmaiva Bhavati means this. In other words, unless one rises to the stature of Brahman, he will not understand Brahman. Similarly, through truth alone can one comprehend truth. One cannot understand truth through untrue methods.
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On 11/07/2023 at 5:30 AM, Buck Edwards said:Om - salutation
Bhairava Rudraya
The more fearsome
Maha RudrayaMaha means big
Kaala RudrayaThe one who starts or controls time.
Here Shiva can be called Kaala Bhairava
Kalpanta RudrayaThe one who ends time. Shiva is the destructor of time
Veera RudrayaThe one who is brave. Shiva
Rudra RudrayaThe one who is fearsome. Shiva as Rudra.
Ghora RudrayaThe one who is terrible. Shiva.
Aghora RudrayaThe one who is beyond terrible. That is Aghori. Shiva is an Aghori.
Maarthanda RudrayaThe one who is victorious. Shiva
Anda RudrayaThe one who controls the cosmos. Shiva
Brahmanda RudrayaThe one who controls the universe. Shiva
Chanda RudrayaThe one who is benevolent. Shiva.
Prachanda RudrayaThe one who is mighty and terrifying. Shiva.
Thanda RudrayaThe one who is cool. Shiva
Soora Rudraya
Veera Rudraya
Bhava Rudraya
Bheema Rudraya
Athala Rudraya
Vithala Rudraya
Suthala Rudraya
Mahathala Rudraya
Rasathala Rudraya
Talatala Rudraya
Pathala Rudraya
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On 10/07/2023 at 4:20 PM, Buck Edwards said:Jaikal Mahakal Shambhu
On 10/07/2023 at 4:22 PM, Buck Edwards said:Hare Ram hare Krishna
On 10/07/2023 at 4:24 PM, Buck Edwards said:Adi anant Shiva. Beautiful.
Shiva strotam. Rudraksh.
Shiv shiv shiv. Beautiful.
On 10/07/2023 at 4:48 PM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful
On 10/07/2023 at 4:52 PM, Buck Edwards said:Aigiri Nandini.
Om Namah Bhagavate Rudraya.
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On 10/07/2023 at 4:59 PM, Buck Edwards said:Some powerful bhajan tracks.
Om Shiv Shambhu Shambho
Bham Bhole Rudraya
On 11/07/2023 at 2:57 AM, Buck Edwards said:Lot of agni.
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On 11/07/2023 at 3:11 AM, Buck Edwards said:Nandi the holy bull.
On 11/07/2023 at 3:21 AM, Buck Edwards said:Lord Nandi gayatri mantra. The sacred bull.
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On 11/07/2023 at 3:26 AM, Buck Edwards said:Aghori mantra
On 11/07/2023 at 3:27 AM, Buck Edwards said:Maha Shivaratri
Om Shivoham.
Om.
Bhairava Rudraya
Maha Rudraya
Kaala Rudraya
Kalpanta Rudraya
Veera Rudraya
Rudra Rudraya
Ghora Rudraya
Aghora Rudraya
Maarthanda Rudraya
Anda Rudraya
Brahmanda Rudraya
Chanda Rudraya
Prachanda Rudraya
Thanda Rudraya
Soora Rudraya
Veera Rudraya
Bhava Rudraya
Bheema Rudraya
Athala Rudraya
Vithala Rudraya
Suthala Rudraya
Mahathala Rudraya
Rasathala Rudraya
Talatala Rudraya
Pathala Rudraya
Namo NamahaHe begged his father for a name and was granted “Rudra”, from the the word rud, meaning to weep or howl. Because of his tremendous powers as the storm god, “Rudra” is often translated as “the howler.” He was sometimes called “Shiva”, an adjective meaning “kind” as a euphemism
On 11/07/2023 at 4:55 AM, Buck Edwards said:Brahmavid Brahmaiva Bhavati
One who knows Brahman becomes Brahman himself. The saying Brahmavid Brahmaiva Bhavati means this. In other words, unless one rises to the stature of Brahman, he will not understand Brahman. Similarly, through truth alone can one comprehend truth. One cannot understand truth through untrue methods.
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On 11/07/2023 at 5:30 AM, Buck Edwards said:Om - salutation
Bhairava Rudraya
The more fearsome
Maha RudrayaMaha means big
Kaala RudrayaThe one who starts or controls time.
Here Shiva can be called Kaala Bhairava
Kalpanta RudrayaThe one who ends time. Shiva is the destructor of time
Veera RudrayaThe one who is brave. Shiva
Rudra RudrayaThe one who is fearsome. Shiva as Rudra.
Ghora RudrayaThe one who is terrible. Shiva.
Aghora RudrayaThe one who is beyond terrible. That is Aghori. Shiva is an Aghori.
Maarthanda RudrayaThe one who is victorious. Shiva
Anda RudrayaThe one who controls the cosmos. Shiva
Brahmanda RudrayaThe one who controls the universe. Shiva
Chanda RudrayaThe one who is benevolent. Shiva.
Prachanda RudrayaThe one who is mighty and terrifying. Shiva.
Thanda RudrayaThe one who is cool. Shiva
Soora Rudraya
Veera Rudraya
Bhava Rudraya
Bheema Rudraya
Athala Rudraya
Vithala Rudraya
Suthala Rudraya
Mahathala Rudraya
Rasathala Rudraya
Talatala Rudraya
Pathala Rudraya
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On 10/07/2023 at 3:27 AM, Buck Edwards said:Nag Stuti.
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On 10/07/2023 at 3:33 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 10/07/2023 at 3:38 AM, Buck Edwards said:Ganpati Bappa Moraya.
Om Gan Ganapataye Namo Namah
Shree Siddhivinayak Namo Namah
Ashtavinayak Namo Namah
Ganpati Bappa Morya
Meaning of the chant
Om: Om is the sound that represents the birth of the universe and the connection between all living beings.
Gam: Gam is the sound of the root chakra and it is thought to awaken energy at the base of the spine.
Ganapataye: Another name for Ganesh, the deity who removes obstacles
Namaha: A salutation, similar to namaste.
Benefits of the mantra
This mantra is used by devotees to offer their prayers to Lord Ganesha. Chanting this mantra is said to remove obstacles from your root chakra, which ensures stability in your life, and make your life more peaceful. If you chant with dedication and determination, it shows your will to move past problems in your life and create a strong sense of self. It is believed that this mantra will also help you focus and bring clarity in your thoughts and life. Chanting the mantra before you take on a new challenge can also prove fruitful, as it has the potential to pave a path for your success.
History of the chant
This mantra is related to Lord Ganesha who is considered as the God of knowledge and wisdom. The son of Lord Shiva and Goddess Parvati, Ganesha is said to have the body of a human and the head of an elephant. His favorite companion is a rat. Ganesha’s trunk symbolizes his ability to overcome any obstacles in front of him and the rat is a symbol of someone who can enter even the narrowest of places to remove all hurdles. Ganesha is also known as a compassionate and kind God, who protects his disciples and bestows gifts upon them. This mantra is a call to Lord Ganesha to remove obstacles in our path and give us the strength to achieve our goals.
Ideally, it is recommended to chant this mantra 108 times every morning. This can purify your mind, body, and soul. You will slowly start seeing improvements in your goals. There are no strict rules one needs to comply with while chanting this mantra. You must bathe before reciting this. You must chant for 40 days. To experience the full effect of this mantra, you need to be sitting in a quiet place all by yourself when you are chanting.
On 10/07/2023 at 3:41 AM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful. Gajanana.
On 10/07/2023 at 3:42 AM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful Ganesh Chaturthi.
On 10/07/2023 at 3:50 AM, Buck Edwards said:My favorite. Shree Mahakal Mahakaleshwar Chants and Ujjain Mahakal Aarti Chants. Mahakal Maharaj
Ujjain Aarti.
Here they used the pancharti
This is so beautiful.
Bhasma Aarti.
On 10/07/2023 at 3:55 AM, Buck Edwards said:Om Jai Jagdish Hare. With lyrics.
On 10/07/2023 at 4:00 AM, Buck Edwards said:Om Namah shivaya Har Har bole Namah Shivaya
Gangadharay shiv Gangadharay. Har Har bole Namah Shivaya
On 10/07/2023 at 4:02 AM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful
On 10/07/2023 at 4:10 AM, Buck Edwards said:Better versions. The first one is classic. The second is a bit emotional version of the same.
Krishna Bhakti.
On 10/07/2023 at 4:18 AM, Buck Edwards said:I did not understand this. But ok.
On 10/07/2023 at 4:20 AM, Buck Edwards said:Shri hari Strotam. Vishnu Strotam.
Shiva strotam
On 10/07/2023 at 4:29 AM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful Bhakti.
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Om Namah shivaya bhajan Bhakti.
Hare Krishna beautiful emotional bhajan.
On 10/07/2023 at 8:38 AM, Buck Edwards said:Ugram Viram Maha Vishnu.
On 10/07/2023 at 8:40 AM, Buck Edwards said:Sacred chant of lord Balaji.
On 10/07/2023 at 8:42 AM, Buck Edwards said:Sanatan Dharma mantra.
On 10/07/2023 at 9:04 AM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful kirtan.
On 10/07/2023 at 9:05 AM, Buck Edwards said:Shree Vishnu.
On 10/07/2023 at 4:13 PM, Buck Edwards said:In my achar vichar, everything appeared beautiful for some time. Everything will be ok
On 10/07/2023 at 4:17 PM, Buck Edwards said:This is good. Shree Vishnu Dhyanam
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On 09/07/2023 at 6:29 AM, Buck Edwards said:Be brave
On 09/07/2023 at 8:45 AM, Buck Edwards said:Lord Ganesh saved my life today. I was going through a financial situation that was ugly.
I was safely out of it. Thanks God.
On 09/07/2023 at 8:46 AM, Buck Edwards said:I'm praying again to Ganpati for financial health. I'll need it for the next few months.
On 09/07/2023 at 3:16 PM, Buck Edwards said:Just sit still and admire the beauty of nature.
On 09/07/2023 at 3:45 PM, Buck Edwards said:I've ordered some more items.
On 09/07/2023 at 3:53 PM, Buck Edwards said:I bought a bunch of consecration items again.
Bought a copper Kalash.
On 09/07/2023 at 4:04 PM, Buck Edwards said:Hare ram hare ram, ram ram hare hare hare Krishna hare Krishna Krishna Krishna hare hare
That's the singing I'm used to.
On 09/07/2023 at 4:11 PM, Buck Edwards said:More pieces of this intense mantra. Ganesh Aarti.
On 09/07/2023 at 5:45 PM, Buck Edwards said:These ones are way too intense to my ears and too fast. They give me goosebumps almost. But these are not that great for listening, too intense.
On 09/07/2023 at 6:51 PM, Buck Edwards said:I found some bearable ones.
This is the original. Jai Dev Jai Dev.
On 09/07/2023 at 6:56 PM, Buck Edwards said:I like the traditional Aartis better.
On 09/07/2023 at 6:59 PM, Buck Edwards said:Just love this. Hare Ram. Hare Krishna. Beautiful
On 09/07/2023 at 7:06 PM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful. Hare Ram. Jai Shree Ram. Jai Sanatan Dharma. Jai Vishnu. Jai Bholenath. Jai Shivshakti.
On 10/07/2023 at 3:01 AM, Buck Edwards said:Govind hare (hari) gopal. Gopal Krishna.
On 10/07/2023 at 3:13 AM, Buck Edwards said:This is a masterpiece. Brought tears to my eyes. It's so heart touching. Cosmic, entered my ears and then reverberated in my brain. Beautiful Aarti to Gopal that is Krishna.
Hare ram hare Krishna. Govind Hari.
On 10/07/2023 at 3:16 AM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful Aarti
Shree Krishna Govind Hare Murari Hey Nath Narayan Vasudeva
Shri Krishna Govinda Hare Murari He Nath Narayan Vasudeva.
On 10/07/2023 at 3:24 AM, Buck Edwards said:Another beautiful mahamantra on lord Krishna. Hare Ram hare ram Rama ram ram hare hare
On 10/07/2023 at 3:25 AM, Buck Edwards said:My favorite lord Krishna mantra.
On 10/07/2023 at 3:26 AM, Buck Edwards said:Beautiful.
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On 06/07/2023 at 6:50 PM, Buck Edwards said:Yogeshwar isha consecration.
On 06/07/2023 at 9:30 PM, Buck Edwards said:19
On 07/07/2023 at 1:51 AM, Buck Edwards said:Make peace with yourself and let it go.
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On 07/07/2023 at 2:23 AM, Buck Edwards said:I'll be leaving. You are free. Completely free.
On 07/07/2023 at 2:29 AM, Buck Edwards said:Forgive me one last time and let go. I'll never be a part of your life again.
You truly are free. I never meant to cause any problems.
I swear on my blood I promise to never cause any trouble to you again.
I never meant to in the first place.
On 07/07/2023 at 2:33 AM, Buck Edwards said:Give me one last chance and let go. I really won't bother you.
On 07/07/2023 at 2:40 AM, Buck Edwards said:Some people imagine in their minds that I'm out to create trouble for them. When I have no such intentions. I cannot explain nor can I have any closure on the confusion I feel and it's all just a vapid case of miscommunication.
But I finally got the answers I had been looking for. I came to know the truth between me and them.
So for their sanity, I must sacrifice my own goodwill and walk away. I only wanted peace. But I realize that peace cannot be found as long as I exist.
My existence itself is trouble.
Peace will only prevail if I stop existing.
Namaste.
On 07/07/2023 at 4:28 AM, Buck Edwards said:I ordered kumkum from Sadhguru's website. And I want to order the consecrated snake copper ring as well.
On 07/07/2023 at 4:34 AM, Buck Edwards said:Sadhguru has been a huge part of my healing journey.
Thank you Sadhguru.
On 07/07/2023 at 6:59 AM, Buck Edwards said:I'm focusing on consecration.
On 07/07/2023 at 10:32 AM, Buck Edwards said:I ordered a nag perfume. And some consecration items.
On 07/07/2023 at 10:33 AM, Buck Edwards said:I also ordered Chandan Tikka, Chandan incense and dhoop.
On 07/07/2023 at 2:25 PM, Buck Edwards said:I got the incense sticks in nice hues like peacock blue green (I'll call this the cobra color nag ), burgundy maroon, silvery, and browns.
On 07/07/2023 at 3:09 PM, Buck Edwards said:Consecration items I ordered.
Dhoop
The Chandan tikka
And kumkum
On 07/07/2023 at 3:30 PM, Buck Edwards said:Got a Sri Sri ravi shankar cultivate calm magazine from Amazon.
Nag perfume green color. More like peacock blue.
Dhoop
Put the kumkum in a paper cup. It looks bright cherry red.
9 inch long Chandan sticks. Spilled some kumkum on it.
On 07/07/2023 at 3:37 PM, Buck Edwards said:Yogeshwara Linga
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Got another nag.
On 08/07/2023 at 3:00 AM, Buck Edwards said:Waiting for nag panchami. 240
On 08/07/2023 at 6:52 AM, Buck Edwards said:What's the final goal anyway -
enhance physical, mental, and emotional well-being in today’s world.
Right.
I want to do breathwork, meditation asanas and Chanting..
On 08/07/2023 at 1:35 PM, Buck Edwards said:I need to be making panchamrut.
On 08/07/2023 at 1:38 PM, Buck Edwards said:How to make panchamrut recipe -
On 08/07/2023 at 1:48 PM, Buck Edwards said:So this is the definition I found on the web.. It's variously spelled. This is how it looks in the picture below.
Meaning of panchamrut - a traditional ayurvedic mixture of foods made with sugar, honey, curd, ghee and cows milk. it is typically made for hindu pooja particularly for abhisheka of hindu god idols and served as prasadam. generally, it is made with 5 ingredients as pancha means five in sanskrit, but there are regional variations to the above 5 ingredients
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On 08/07/2023 at 2:25 PM, Buck Edwards said:It's raining heavily and I'm thirsty like a frog. I just don't get it.
I just wanna hop in water. My whole body wants to be wet in the rains in moonlight on a full moon day/night.
I just don't get my unusual body.
I just wanna dance naked in the rains under moonlight.
On 08/07/2023 at 2:34 PM, Buck Edwards said:Copper havan kund
A havan is a fire required for hindu pooja puja Aarti.
The vessel in which this fire smoke (bhasma) is created is called a kund. Or havan kund.
On 08/07/2023 at 2:40 PM, Buck Edwards said:It seems copper items are consecrated. Like Sadhguru said.
I'm looking up copper items on Amazon.
On 08/07/2023 at 5:21 PM, Buck Edwards said:Consecration items.
On 09/07/2023 at 2:03 AM, Buck Edwards said:Big havan kund
On 09/07/2023 at 2:04 AM, Buck Edwards said:Small copper havan kund
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On 09/07/2023 at 2:06 AM, Buck Edwards said:This is called panchpatra Pali. A copper cup with a spoon that is used to distribute panchamrut at hindu temples.
The spoon is decorated and is called udharini.
On 09/07/2023 at 2:07 AM, Buck Edwards said:Udharini or spoon.
On 09/07/2023 at 2:24 AM, Buck Edwards said:Sometimes the spoon has snake designs and it's called Achmani spoon.
On 09/07/2023 at 2:34 AM, Buck Edwards said:This contains the panchpatra Pali along with a larger copper vessel known as Lota or Kalash. Along with a small utensil used as a holy lamp and it's called niranjan or diya.
The plate used for these items is called pooja thali or Taman plate
On 09/07/2023 at 2:44 AM, Buck Edwards said:This is a holy consecrated item used in Hindu and Jain temples that has the capacity to hold multiple lamps and mostly seen during Aarti pooja puja ceremonies in various videos and pictures.
It's called pancharti.
On 09/07/2023 at 2:59 AM, Buck Edwards said:Just browsed YouTube and got these to understand how pancharti is used in pooja or Aarti.
Aarti is devotion.
And the thali or Taman plate used in Ganpati /Lord Ganesh Aarti here.
On 09/07/2023 at 3:07 AM, Buck Edwards said:Niranjan or diya. It's a lamp used in Hindu festivals.
Below is a copper Lota or Kalash (pitcher) used to store consecrated water, holy water or milk etc.
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On 04/07/2023 at 9:01 PM, Buck Edwards said:I love you man. I miss you.
On 05/07/2023 at 2:07 AM, Buck Edwards said:Everything is beautiful
On 05/07/2023 at 1:51 PM, Buck Edwards said:On 05/07/2023 at 2:19 PM, Buck Edwards said:On 05/07/2023 at 6:05 PM, Buck Edwards said:Naag Panchami. On August 2.
On 05/07/2023 at 6:06 PM, Buck Edwards said:Significance of snakes in mysticism.
On 06/07/2023 at 3:21 AM, Buck Edwards said:I feel relaxed listening to Sadhguru. What a guy.
I contacted my sister yesterday. Nice. Everything is fine.
On 06/07/2023 at 6:01 AM, Buck Edwards said:I'll walk away.
On 15/07/2023 at 6:56 AM, Buck Edwards said:That was the story of my life.
I'll write this for Leo to read. He gives excellent advice.
@Leo Gura
I've recently been with someone and it resulted into conflict and discord and we separated. Ever since I've been feeling empty and finding it tough to get over it.
I'll At some point, it felt as though I was being used. Their needs weren't fulfilled and they tried to be subtle about it.
I didn't want to be their .... I don't know what to call that.... Like an underdog. Pushover
I looked up online. This is what I found.
someone who soaks up the negativity and intense emotions of other people at their own expense and is usually a high-empathy person. Here are some signs that you are one of them. 1. You feel like you are taking up way more emotional labor than they are doing for.
I thought the exact same thing. I was taking up way more emotional labor than what they were willing to invest.
I wanted love from the person I separated from. Not sympathy. That was the main crux of the situation.
When they were overly sympathetic, it became condescending and patronizing. I was tired and I gave up. They weren't matching my needs.
My needs were always on the back burner.
I want to get back to my work and quickly get over it. I don't think I want to be invested anymore. What is the most efficient way to replace human bonds with something that can be satisfying. Any activity that can take my mind off and feel less empty.
Curious and thanks for stopping by.
On 15/07/2023 at 7:00 AM, Buck Edwards said:Out of every thing in my life, this by far is the hardest. It's not being rejected at the get go. I'm usually likable. But I usually get dumped after loss of interest. It's not much different than being rejected outrightly. Yet abandonment and rejection has been my greatest battle. Not getting the validation from the opposite sex. Not getting sex period. Not having romance. I find a lot of people desirable but nothing sticks for long. It gets boring after a while.
The problem is not not finding someone. But finding someone who seems perfect at first and then being rejected by this "perfect person."
It hurts like a million knives cutting through skin. Not even having that whiff, that slice of hope of finding someone romantically compatible and then it working out to some stable degree to a level where I'm content with how things panned out eventually and not feeling bitter anymore. Just knowing my youth is sorted out romantically. Maybe I'm too desperate and needy for human connection.
I'm not asking much. Just one successful relationship is all it will take for me to feel that awesomeness, that wholesomeness I keep craving for, (maybe validation I don't know), but that one thing where it would feel like true sustainable love that lasts at least for a year or two.
I know asking for a lifetime relationship is a bit too much. Nobody does that. But a year would be awesome. A year with a person I really desire to be with. All it takes. Humanity.
I would not even complain if they dumped me for good. At least I got some validation.
Rejection is awful, period.
Why can't we have nice things?
I know I sound like a baby whining for candy.
What perspective helps?
Malaga Enlightement
sounds like you're placing your mental state, your faith, to someone and you're feel like doubting, it's ok, just sit with it, and go on with da journey.
Malaga Enlightement
Not sure if it's true in your case, but I think the mind-frame you described tends to lead one toward being a beggar or an opportunist. You either end up begging for scraps of relationships, little bits of validation here and there, just the leftovers they can give you without having to commit to anything, trying never to ask for too much lest it all be over. Or, you end up an opportunist waiting and looking for weakness, for a chance or opportunity that your target has their guard down and is vulnerable and easy to access. Getting someone on the rebound is a clear example of this, or being the "mistress" for someone who's unhappy with their current relationship.
These two modalities are ways you can seek relationships that require more desperation than confidence. You're never really clear about your needs or goals with yourself or the other person, because you're desperately afraid they'll find out too much and dump you.
Malaga Enlightement.
This is false. I know, you hear your friends say 'I dated this person for a year' and 'I dated this person for two years'. But, let me tell you - you're not missing much.
The reality of most relationships is that they are very transactional. And, they do not, in fact, feel 'awesome' and 'wholesome'. One or both parties has to manipulate the other to get what they want. That's the way most of dating works. And, the advice that most people give of 'focus on yourself' and 'develop yourself first' is to not fall into these patterns. Because they've been there, done that and are telling you that it is literally not worth it.
Now, why do unconscious people just 'happen' to date for years? Because they're repeating patterns that worked for them at home. And, they have some privileges in their upbringing. This does not make them wiser relative to relationships.
Why is this the reality of most dating? Because most people are narcissistic who only care about themselves and what they can get from others. That's how most couples fight, in fact. It's pretty pedestrian and unsexy.
So, what should you do? You should think back to having rejected someone in your life. It has happened before. And think back to why you did that. It was probably because they were low-quality in some ways and because you have standards and they didn't make the cut. This should give you some insight into your ideal relationship. So, the next step is to visualize that and to get ready for that.
And, one final point - this is not going to happen with anyone. You will have to form a dating-strategy to vet people so that you find someone compatible. This is the point that the people saying 'focus on yourself' are trying to make. Because then, you figure out the kind of life you want and what type of partner would fit into that.
Malaga Enlightement.
Make yourself more interesting and fun to be around than anybody you know.
Your relationship with yourself is the only one you'll always have, so you better make it work
Malaga Enlightement.
I'd continue mediating and contemplating, if you can. If you have healthy ways to recover and hobbies I'd do that too. If you're feeling very strong negative emotions take it easy, and go easy on yourself.
Malaga Enlightement.
Embracing your quirks and curiosities, and making them apart of your life shamelessly, regardless of what people think. Things you look forward to do with yourself when you have time. One simple rule: If you love it, do it. If you don't love it, don't do it.
Things that bring you joy, even if they are irregular and people have never heard of them. For example I came across some YouTube videos years ago about ecospheres, I was interested so I made it a hobby that morning. Now I have multiple jars and tanks of swamp water in my apartment , with little critters swimming around inside for years.
When you're doing things you enjoy, it will be REALLY hard for your brain to be thinking about stressful things like discord and emptiness.
So let's brainstorm. Name 3 things you like you could realistically do in the next few days.
I guarantee if you put aside just 1 hour a day for those things your mood would drastically improve.
Malaga Enlightement.
At some point, it felt as though I was being used. Their needs weren't fulfilled and they tried to be subtle about it.
I didn't want to be their .... I don't know what to call that.... Like an underdog. Pushover.
I looked up online -
someone who soaks up the negativity and intense emotions of other people at their own expense and is usually a high-empathy person. Here are some signs that you are one of them. 1. You feel like you are taking up way more emotional labor than they are doing for.
I thought the exact same thing. I was taking up way more emotional labor than what they were willing to invest.
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Coming to the list of of 3 things I could in the next few days -
1) reading books. Although it's been long since I read the last time.
2) just sitting and meditating. Lotus position.
3) sitting in the forest early morning hours and soaking in the wet fog.
4) collecting bottle caps and coffee mugs. I sounds weird I used to do that as a kid.
Malaga Enlightement.
Drawing, chess, and gaming. For emotional processing mostly drawing, for me if it's negative I use charcoals and shades of greys, plus willow charcoal. Coloring books can also help, as well as journaling.
Also, since you've broken up, and are processing the emotions, I'd suggest take it slow until you've settled back in yourself, because what can happen is that a person rushes to date the next girl, and the person might get the new girlfriend, but if the person hasn't settled down and is suppressing the hurt feelings, typically the new GF is like the new emotional crutch, distracting from the negative feelings of the prior breakup, which can later undermine the new relationship. It's similar to if you've owned a pet, years go by, the pet is cute and you're feed and taken care of this pet, then the pet dies at some point, the person grieves, but hasn't fully resolved those feelings and will seek out another pet to have as an emotional crutch. It's this vicious codependency that can develop if you're not careful.
Malaga Enlightenment
They always do. There's no way around that. It will sting like a bitch for at least a few weeks. Then it goes way.
A breakup is literally just a chemical reaction.
Malaga Enlightenment
What does this mean? What were the positives of being with them?
Malaga Enlightenment
ng it tough to get over it.
A possibility: you're resisting feeling the emotions deeply. Feel them with little blockage and the current will pass through with ease. This is you letting go. Okay, the emotions will pass FASTER this way, great.
Right now you're in fear. Slap yourself awake. Remember who you are deep down. Exhume that inner strength. That will translate into anger which can translate into productive action. From there you step into courage and are ready to move into a more virtuous loop with yourself and others. Build clarity or remember your purpose and stay on that pursuit.
Malaga Enlightenment
There you go, you don't even have to do all of them in one day.
You have 5 there I see, put one for each day of the upcoming week and chill for the rest of today. EZ PZ!
Malaga Enlightenment
Never invest in anyone that you don't see in real life. Your reaction seems excessive. And learn the art of detachment from others and things. Make yourself dependent on nothing but yourself, it is all you need in life.
Malaga Enlightenment
Let me share my understanding,
You're feeling empty because you're not getting your old habitual stimulation,
Solution no 1: You need to switch it to some other stimulus, switching needs some effort, you can follow a 45 day challenge for that, It really works for me every time when I want to keep doing something new I follow that, and people are surprised at me that how I have suddenly changed.
Solution no 2: That's even more profound but a bit hard to follow, observing the pain, meditation and contemplation
If you stop getting any habitual stimulation you will feel the same emptiness
-Eating delicious food
-Shopping
-Traveling
-Hanging out
- Clothing
-Using Whatsapp
-Gossip
There is no difference between your partner and these things all are attachments.
Malaga Enlightenment
I mean online dating or even online friendships are very fragile and underwhelming. Most relationships in real life are shallow and stupid, so what do you think about those online?
Malaga Enlightenment
On 15/07/2023 at 8:14 AM, Buck Edwards said:Now this journal is just going to be a long long list of just contemplations and just contemplations..
With some typos for sure.
I thought about thought stories and do nothing meditation.
Calm your mind first and then.....
Your prana life is an infinite force.
You've that wisdom within you Malaga. You only have to find it. Find it now.
You want peace. You'll get peace. Peace, love and the universe is all that is left at the end of the day.
Let the storm of ego die down.
after the storm of ego has passed(purification),, which I would consider as purification.
Ego death is not an easy thing by any means. But I'll try to work on it.
Today I stumbled upon beautiful music for meditation practice and that really made me happy. It's great for healing Chakras I think. I'll share it later.
Calm your mind first and then.....
I think there should also exist certain principles of spirituality.
I sometimes feel sleepy during meditation. And I need to find a way around it.
Now this journal is just going to be a long long list of just contemplations and just contemplations..
I'm seriously pursuing psychedelics especially hawaiian baby woodrose. That's awesome for my body and mind. I did feel nauseous but that's bearable so far. I mixed it with lemon juice and orange juice.
On 15/07/2023 at 8:18 AM, Buck Edwards said:Smbali..
I know I did well. Two words appeared to me during contemplations.
Malaga and Smbali.
Clock reset
23 hours - 8. Left - 10.
Reclock - happens in 2 hours.
12.am
I slept off but I'm okay with the nature of things.
I just don't want to pressure myself. It can be anything literally. These days the focus has to be me and finally returning to myself.
On 15/07/2023 at 8:19 AM, Buck Edwards said:Lmao God gave me permission to follow him. What more do I want?
It's time for my samadhi too.
I'm just a bit confused.
I have to constantly remind myself about kundalini awakening.
Yea that's where my main focus is
Yesterday I was reading about Ramana Maharshi.
I felt the light.
Everything is defined by hard work and concentration. Almost everything.
And what's the antidote to hate?
The answer is indifference and concentration. Just doing what you're good at and praying your survival. You can survive even in the midst of all the sourness and obstacles life brings to you.
But still life is damn hard and I want peace
Just the face of Sadhguru and I feel calm already..
Potent Sadhguru effects.
On 15/07/2023 at 3:54 PM, Buck Edwards said:I wanted to explore Aghori. It's not all bad. But I doubt I will ever meet them on my way to Kedarnath.
I'm too scared to meet them.
But I might learn something.
I think I mentioned Aghori baba in spiritual scholars list.
I think I was too.scared to include Aghori on the list of spiritual scholars because they carry a questionable reputation. But they exist in my private scholars list. Maybe in the future I will gain something from them. I have practiced occult before but only for good things. And I like the idea of mysticism.
The Aghori are mainly about death. I find that transition fascinating.
On 15/07/2023 at 3:56 PM, Buck Edwards said:I wanted to elaborate on a new thing I'm working on. And I call it intrinsic change. Intrinsic change meaning change from within. Not a superficial change where you simply use a temporary solution to fix your worries, but simply changing the fundamental way you think and perceive everything around you and let this change influence your course of action and decision.
There's nothing that needs to be known, seen or heard.
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On 16/08/2024 at 8:37 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 16/08/2024 at 8:41 AM, Buck Edwards said:Morning activation music.
On 16/08/2024 at 9:58 AM, Buck Edwards said:Heart Chakra energy block removal.
On 16/08/2024 at 0:34 PM, Buck Edwards said:This video has really influenced me in the direction of Kundalini awakening.
On 16/08/2024 at 4:56 PM, Buck Edwards said:This helped me understand Linga.
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Woke up this morning and no nightmares. Yoohoo.
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So I partially completed my book.
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I have a lot of work to do today.
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On 22/05/2024 at 10:47 AM, Buck Edwards said:High Functioning autism.
On 23/05/2024 at 5:10 PM, Buck Edwards said:I took a mental test and these are the results.
On 25/05/2024 at 8:22 AM, Buck Edwards said:I should read 3 poems a day.
On 11/06/2024 at 6:09 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 12/06/2024 at 7:48 AM, Buck Edwards said:There is victory in failure too. The only way to be is through forgiveness.
On 12/06/2024 at 1:43 PM, Buck Edwards said:At the end of the day what remains true is yourself.
On 13/06/2024 at 8:33 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 25/06/2024 at 3:52 PM, Buck Edwards said:I think I should focus more on self inquiry.
On 25/06/2024 at 4:43 PM, Buck Edwards said:Graphic content warning.
This is how I felt while in the mental hospital. I just couldn't stop myself and my ptsd was full blown panic mode. It was just the worst experience being claustrophobic trapped in a tiny room with a small window and thrown in there like a jail. People can be cruel to mentally ill.
On 27/06/2024 at 6:32 PM, Buck Edwards said:And I was thinking about having a structured day. Just to get that flow. Maybe I should switch to something else. I recently started playing a game. And I don't know why I feel like that game will satisfy my urges to feel full. Just this kind of emptiness that I need to fill. Maybe another coping strategy. But it's not giving me the satisfaction I'm desperately looking for. Let's see how it turns out. Still a struggle.
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On 20/05/2024 at 11:22 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 20/05/2024 at 11:23 AM, Buck Edwards said:Sensory therapy definitely works for me.
On 20/05/2024 at 11:29 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 20/05/2024 at 11:33 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 20/05/2024 at 11:35 AM, Buck Edwards said:I was diagnosed with autism. I now understand a lot of my behavior.
On 20/05/2024 at 0:09 PM, Buck Edwards said:Which 3 activities are important to you?
- organization
- writing important information
- using an app
Sunglasses and hoodies to block sunlight and light related sensory overload.
Get into a routine to reduce overloads.
Practice mindfulness. Centering and grounding practices.
These are really nice. I need to be in a cocoon to feel better. Just focus.
Stimming can help.
Stimming can help people cope with emotions, reduce anxiety, calm the individual, stimulate the senses, cope with sensory overload, express frustration, or relieve physical discomfort. It is common among people on the autism spectrum.
I often tend to touch my hair or tap my fingers as a part of stimming.
Daily hack -
Identify activities that bring you joy and prioritise them.
Incorporate small joyful rituals into your day.
This one is better.
This video makes me happy.
Happiness hacks
1. Do something good for someone. Volunteer.
2. Exercise. Endorphins.
3. Spend time in nature.
4. Tap into your inner child.
5. Meditation.
6. Gratitude
This made me laugh so hard. Instantly.
This is a really informative video on the true essence of joy.
On 20/05/2024 at 4:01 PM, Buck Edwards said:Select one question out of a pack of 10 questions.
Will some of the high consciousness rub on me?
She is happiness herself.
Skip to end of comments for actionable task and one sentence summation. // OR... read on for detailed summation of the slooooooowly spoken soft monotone talk interspersed with pauses when she smiles like a Chesire Cat and closes her eyes. Perhaps listen to it with the Youtube speed cranked up to maximum. HA!
Can skim read... and then can do the meditation at end and save yourself time.
Question 1: Are you having a good day? Or are you having a bad day?
Question 2: If you are having a good day, then why? If you are having a bad day, then why?
Question 3: Tomorrow would you rather have a good day or a bad day? What about day after tomorrow, would you rather have a good day or a bad day?
We want to have a good day and everyday. We have a good day when we are happy. We want to be happy everyday. Whether or not we have good day or a bad day depends on how we answer the second question. Her teacher says that much of the time our minds are like "a balloon in the wind blow here and there by external circumstances". When things are going well and going our way, then we feel happy. If things go wrong or have to be with people we dislike or something doesn't go our way, then our happy feeling disappears. If our reasons for being happy are a list of external conditions of people and circumstances that we can't control everyday, then our happiness will be in the hands of others and whim of our circumstances. Our happiness will be very unstable and elusive.Firstly, if you really wish to have a good day everyday, then you need to stop outsourcing our happiness or our unhappiness on the people and circumstances. We need to stop attributing our happiness to what is happening externally and stop blaming others for our unhappiness. Secondly, know that "Happiness and unhappiness are states of mind and therefore there real causes cannot be found outside the mind". If we have a peaceful state of mind, then we will be happy regardless of people or circumstances. If we are not peaceful, then we will find it impossible to be happy. It is not what is happening that is making us happy or unhappy, but how we are responding to those things that determines whether we are happy or unhappy. Our state of mind is what determines whether we are happy or unhappy.
So... how do we cultivate this stable peace of mind that we can rely upon regardless of circumstances. Her answer is using meditation, which is she defines as the mental action of concentrating on a peaceful positive state of mind. This can be done in formal practice sessions or can be cultivated to be done throughout our daily life all the time. Be determined to bring the mental peace from meditation into your day to benefit yourself and others.
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Basic summation: Our state of mind is what determines whether we are happy or unhappy.Actionable:
11:48 She does a "let's try it" - meditation on breathing with peaceful positive state of mind and walks you through a 3 minutes session of meditation.======================================
Summary
1. Need to stop outsourcing our happiness.
2. Actively cultivate a source of peace and happiness from inside.
3. Happiness and unhappiness are both states of mind, therefore, their real cause can't be found outside the mind.
It is not what happens to us but how we react to it that creates happiness and unhappiness.On 21/05/2024 at 1:18 PM, Buck Edwards said:With autism you need to focus on a couple of areas -
- Self improvement
- Communication
- Motivation
- Focus
- Self reflection and self awareness
- Energy levels
- Productivity
- Foundations
On 21/05/2024 at 5:19 PM, Buck Edwards said:Executive functions -
- Memory
- Focus
- Motivation
- Energy levels
- Productivity
- Time management
- Allocation
- Coordination and organization
- Management and optimization
- Communication
- Articulation
On 22/05/2024 at 8:25 AM, Buck Edwards said:The twelve executive functioning skills -
self-restraint,
working memory,
emotion control,
focus,
task initiation,
planning/prioritization,
organization,
time management,
defining and achieving goals,
flexibility,
observation,
and stress tolerance.
On 22/05/2024 at 8:47 AM, Buck Edwards said:Reiki healing for autism..
On 22/05/2024 at 10:00 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 22/05/2024 at 10:02 AM, Buck Edwards said:Body areas to focus on in routines.
- Neck
- Shoulders
- Posture
- Lower back
- Hips
- Hamstrings
- Quadriceps
On 22/05/2024 at 10:06 AM, Buck Edwards said:General health concerns that affect routines
- Arthritis
- Chronic pain
- Dizziness
- Fibromyalgia
- Heart condition
- Herniated disc
- High blood pressure
- Injury
- Osteoporosis
- Pregnancy
- Sciatica
- Surgery
- Vertigo
On 22/05/2024 at 10:09 AM, Buck Edwards said:Specific areas of caution
- Feet
- Ankles
- Toes
- Calves
- Shins
- Knees
- Quadriceps
- Hamstrings
- Groin
- Hips
- Pelvis
- Abdomen
- Buttocks
- Fingers
- Hands
- Wrists
- Forearms
- Elbows
- Biceps
- Triceps
- Chest
- Lower back
- Upper Back
- Spine
- Shoulders
- Neck
On 22/05/2024 at 10:14 AM, Buck Edwards said:These are my main goals from routines for autism. Moderate physical exercise for autism. The goals are following -
- Improve flexibility and movement
- Improve health and longevity
- Reduce pain and prevent Injury
- Reduce stress and anxiety
- Improve athletic performance
- Improve circulation and blood flow
- Accelerate muscle recovery
- Improve balance and coordination
- Strengthen core
- Improve Posture
- Improve sleep quality
On 22/05/2024 at 10:22 AM, Buck Edwards said:I found work at a nearby factory.
On 22/05/2024 at 10:25 AM, Buck Edwards said:I need to start saving some money.
On 22/05/2024 at 10:41 AM, Buck Edwards said:My psychiatrist has placed me on a new drug for autism. Won't reveal the name.
On 22/05/2024 at 10:44 AM, Buck Edwards said:Autism symptoms in adults can vary widely in range and severity, but some common characteristics include:
Social difficulties
Difficulty initiating and maintaining social interactions, understanding others' points of view, and making friends
Communication difficulties
Difficulty with verbal reasoning, problem solving, and high-level language skills
Repetitive behaviors
Tendency to engage in routine or repetitive behaviors, and difficulty multitasking
Intense interests
Special interests or obsessions, and fixation on a particular idea or subject
Executive function
Difficulty with complex planning and thinking, and needing support to set long-term goals
Emotional sensitivity
Difficulty regulating emotions, and often having intense emotional reactions
Nonverbal communication
Difficulty interpreting facial expressions, body language, or social cues, and using unique phrases and descriptive words
Other characteristics
Preference for routines and schedules, and lack of awareness of time and space
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On 20/05/2024 at 11:22 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 20/05/2024 at 11:23 AM, Buck Edwards said:Sensory therapy definitely works for me.
On 20/05/2024 at 11:29 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 20/05/2024 at 11:33 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 20/05/2024 at 11:35 AM, Buck Edwards said:I was diagnosed with autism. I now understand a lot of my behavior.
On 20/05/2024 at 0:09 PM, Buck Edwards said:Which 3 activities are important to you?
- organization
- writing important information
- using an app
Sunglasses and hoodies to block sunlight and light related sensory overload.
Get into a routine to reduce overloads.
Practice mindfulness. Centering and grounding practices.
These are really nice. I need to be in a cocoon to feel better. Just focus.
Stimming can help.
Stimming can help people cope with emotions, reduce anxiety, calm the individual, stimulate the senses, cope with sensory overload, express frustration, or relieve physical discomfort. It is common among people on the autism spectrum.
I often tend to touch my hair or tap my fingers as a part of stimming.
Daily hack -
Identify activities that bring you joy and prioritise them.
Incorporate small joyful rituals into your day.
This one is better.
This video makes me happy.
Happiness hacks
1. Do something good for someone. Volunteer.
2. Exercise. Endorphins.
3. Spend time in nature.
4. Tap into your inner child.
5. Meditation.
6. Gratitude
This made me laugh so hard. Instantly.
This is a really informative video on the true essence of joy.
On 20/05/2024 at 4:01 PM, Buck Edwards said:Select one question out of a pack of 10 questions.
Will some of the high consciousness rub on me?
She is happiness herself.
Skip to end of comments for actionable task and one sentence summation. // OR... read on for detailed summation of the slooooooowly spoken soft monotone talk interspersed with pauses when she smiles like a Chesire Cat and closes her eyes. Perhaps listen to it with the Youtube speed cranked up to maximum. HA!
Can skim read... and then can do the meditation at end and save yourself time.
Question 1: Are you having a good day? Or are you having a bad day?
Question 2: If you are having a good day, then why? If you are having a bad day, then why?
Question 3: Tomorrow would you rather have a good day or a bad day? What about day after tomorrow, would you rather have a good day or a bad day?
We want to have a good day and everyday. We have a good day when we are happy. We want to be happy everyday. Whether or not we have good day or a bad day depends on how we answer the second question. Her teacher says that much of the time our minds are like "a balloon in the wind blow here and there by external circumstances". When things are going well and going our way, then we feel happy. If things go wrong or have to be with people we dislike or something doesn't go our way, then our happy feeling disappears. If our reasons for being happy are a list of external conditions of people and circumstances that we can't control everyday, then our happiness will be in the hands of others and whim of our circumstances. Our happiness will be very unstable and elusive.Firstly, if you really wish to have a good day everyday, then you need to stop outsourcing our happiness or our unhappiness on the people and circumstances. We need to stop attributing our happiness to what is happening externally and stop blaming others for our unhappiness. Secondly, know that "Happiness and unhappiness are states of mind and therefore there real causes cannot be found outside the mind". If we have a peaceful state of mind, then we will be happy regardless of people or circumstances. If we are not peaceful, then we will find it impossible to be happy. It is not what is happening that is making us happy or unhappy, but how we are responding to those things that determines whether we are happy or unhappy. Our state of mind is what determines whether we are happy or unhappy.
So... how do we cultivate this stable peace of mind that we can rely upon regardless of circumstances. Her answer is using meditation, which is she defines as the mental action of concentrating on a peaceful positive state of mind. This can be done in formal practice sessions or can be cultivated to be done throughout our daily life all the time. Be determined to bring the mental peace from meditation into your day to benefit yourself and others.
======================================
Basic summation: Our state of mind is what determines whether we are happy or unhappy.Actionable:
11:48 She does a "let's try it" - meditation on breathing with peaceful positive state of mind and walks you through a 3 minutes session of meditation.======================================
Summary
1. Need to stop outsourcing our happiness.
2. Actively cultivate a source of peace and happiness from inside.
3. Happiness and unhappiness are both states of mind, therefore, their real cause can't be found outside the mind.
It is not what happens to us but how we react to it that creates happiness and unhappiness.On 21/05/2024 at 1:18 PM, Buck Edwards said:With autism you need to focus on a couple of areas -
- Self improvement
- Communication
- Motivation
- Focus
- Self reflection and self awareness
- Energy levels
- Productivity
- Foundations
On 21/05/2024 at 5:19 PM, Buck Edwards said:Executive functions -
- Memory
- Focus
- Motivation
- Energy levels
- Productivity
- Time management
- Allocation
- Coordination and organization
- Management and optimization
- Communication
- Articulation
On 22/05/2024 at 8:25 AM, Buck Edwards said:The twelve executive functioning skills -
self-restraint,
working memory,
emotion control,
focus,
task initiation,
planning/prioritization,
organization,
time management,
defining and achieving goals,
flexibility,
observation,
and stress tolerance.
On 22/05/2024 at 8:47 AM, Buck Edwards said:Reiki healing for autism..
On 22/05/2024 at 10:00 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 22/05/2024 at 10:02 AM, Buck Edwards said:Body areas to focus on in routines.
- Neck
- Shoulders
- Posture
- Lower back
- Hips
- Hamstrings
- Quadriceps
On 22/05/2024 at 10:06 AM, Buck Edwards said:General health concerns that affect routines
- Arthritis
- Chronic pain
- Dizziness
- Fibromyalgia
- Heart condition
- Herniated disc
- High blood pressure
- Injury
- Osteoporosis
- Pregnancy
- Sciatica
- Surgery
- Vertigo
On 22/05/2024 at 10:09 AM, Buck Edwards said:Specific areas of caution
- Feet
- Ankles
- Toes
- Calves
- Shins
- Knees
- Quadriceps
- Hamstrings
- Groin
- Hips
- Pelvis
- Abdomen
- Buttocks
- Fingers
- Hands
- Wrists
- Forearms
- Elbows
- Biceps
- Triceps
- Chest
- Lower back
- Upper Back
- Spine
- Shoulders
- Neck
On 22/05/2024 at 10:14 AM, Buck Edwards said:These are my main goals from routines for autism. Moderate physical exercise for autism. The goals are following -
- Improve flexibility and movement
- Improve health and longevity
- Reduce pain and prevent Injury
- Reduce stress and anxiety
- Improve athletic performance
- Improve circulation and blood flow
- Accelerate muscle recovery
- Improve balance and coordination
- Strengthen core
- Improve Posture
- Improve sleep quality
On 22/05/2024 at 10:22 AM, Buck Edwards said:I found work at a nearby factory.
On 22/05/2024 at 10:25 AM, Buck Edwards said:I need to start saving some money.
On 22/05/2024 at 10:41 AM, Buck Edwards said:My psychiatrist has placed me on a new drug for autism. Won't reveal the name.
On 22/05/2024 at 10:44 AM, Buck Edwards said:Autism symptoms in adults can vary widely in range and severity, but some common characteristics include:
Social difficulties
Difficulty initiating and maintaining social interactions, understanding others' points of view, and making friends
Communication difficulties
Difficulty with verbal reasoning, problem solving, and high-level language skills
Repetitive behaviors
Tendency to engage in routine or repetitive behaviors, and difficulty multitasking
Intense interests
Special interests or obsessions, and fixation on a particular idea or subject
Executive function
Difficulty with complex planning and thinking, and needing support to set long-term goals
Emotional sensitivity
Difficulty regulating emotions, and often having intense emotional reactions
Nonverbal communication
Difficulty interpreting facial expressions, body language, or social cues, and using unique phrases and descriptive words
Other characteristics
Preference for routines and schedules, and lack of awareness of time and space
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On 15/07/2023 at 9:21 PM, Buck Edwards said:Recovering from autism naturally
On 16/07/2023 at 4:26 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 16/07/2023 at 4:33 AM, Buck Edwards said:On 16/07/2023 at 4:45 AM, Buck Edwards said: -
On 25/06/2023 at 5:34 AM, Buck Edwards said:Last time it was Malaga this time it's Olaga. I don't know. These random coincidences..
On 25/06/2023 at 5:36 AM, Buck Edwards said:Pure exhaustion is killing me right now.
This post is 666th post. Lmao. Congratulations for hitting that.
On 25/06/2023 at 5:53 AM, Buck Edwards said:I should call this soul Kedarnath. They are peaceful like Kedarnath.
They are my road to Kedarnath.
My mountain of hope. My temple of holiness where I'm ultimately in peace with Shiva. Har Har Mahadev.
Finally Sanatan Dharma to rescue my plight. Om Namah Shiva.
I'm so exhausted right now that I would need a 3 day break from this mayhem.
On 27/06/2023 at 1:30 PM, Buck Edwards said:I'm exploring sanatan dharma.
On 27/06/2023 at 10:04 PM, Buck Edwards said:My ultimate destination.
Kedarnath, badrinath and kailash.
On 28/06/2023 at 8:51 PM, Buck Edwards said:Had a happy day.
I want to do more.
On 29/06/2023 at 6:42 AM, Buck Edwards said:I need to have cold showers.
On 29/06/2023 at 7:22 PM, Buck Edwards said:I think I drank something unusual right now.
Maybe expired juice.
On 29/06/2023 at 7:30 PM, Buck Edwards said:A lot of my time is spent in absorbing.
On 01/07/2023 at 0:17 AM, Buck Edwards said:Why did I forget things?
On 01/07/2023 at 5:34 AM, Buck Edwards said:Sometimes I just go nuts.
Everything feels bizzare and I become withdrawn into my own shell.
On 01/07/2023 at 10:39 AM, Buck Edwards said:I've been feeling a bit anxious lately and I usually become fine after a few hours.
I'm thinking about adding a therapy and a yoga session to my morning routine too.
Keep my morning jam packed with routines.
This will help.
Regarding the forgetting things. Yep I have been off track lately. But I had my reasons since June 25.
Im recovering spectacularly.
I need just a tiny bit of a push up and I'll be good to go.
Aghori Maha sadhu hello thank you. You saved my life.
On 02/07/2023 at 3:04 PM, Buck Edwards said:I have to be considerate Aghori Maha sadhu.
On 03/07/2023 at 10:50 AM, Buck Edwards said:I am sick of being judged.
On 03/07/2023 at 2:47 PM, Buck Edwards said:I slept well. Still not feeling fit.
On 03/07/2023 at 9:03 PM, Buck Edwards said:I'm the devotee of Shankar.
On 03/07/2023 at 9:04 PM, Buck Edwards said:I'm the devotee of Shiva.
On 03/07/2023 at 9:06 PM, Buck Edwards said:Shiva is like hard glass. Just unbreakable. Shiva is a drink.
On 03/07/2023 at 9:25 PM, Buck Edwards said:Shiva is my name, Shiva is my dharma, Shiva is my pride, Shiva is my soul. Shiva let me come to you in devotion. Let me seek you. You are the lord my god.
On 03/07/2023 at 9:26 PM, Buck Edwards said:I can't live without Shiva anymore.
On 03/07/2023 at 9:36 PM, Buck Edwards said:I am addicted to Shiva now.
On 03/07/2023 at 11:58 PM, Buck Edwards said:A lot of spiritual bypassing
Stubbornness
Rounding off
Egotism
Preaching
Zero embodiment
Stuck in their own ego
Nihilistic
Druggie
Neuro divergent
Pretentiousness
On 04/07/2023 at 3:16 AM, Buck Edwards said:At least I learned that in a dysfunctional mental state you end up making dysfunctional decisions or end up inviting dysfunctional people into your life.
On 04/07/2023 at 3:19 AM, Buck Edwards said:I fell for a Neuro divergent Druggie. Guess.
On 04/07/2023 at 3:24 AM, Buck Edwards said:I'm not a Neuro typical either myself.
What will I know?
On 04/07/2023 at 3:28 AM, Buck Edwards said:I don't judge anything as good or bad anymore. It's hard to do anyway.
That's why I'm more interested in occult now.
I just don't judge it.
I want to know how it could be used for good things to shape my life.
On 04/07/2023 at 3:41 AM, Buck Edwards said:Last night I went out naked to get a glimpse of the moon on the occasion of guru purnima.
And... No moon. Just nothing.
Quite upsetting. I was expecting a full moon.
Anyway.
On 04/07/2023 at 3:44 AM, Buck Edwards said:By the way it was too cold and breezy. I immediately and my naked body was freezing. I immediately rushed home.
On 04/07/2023 at 3:46 AM, Buck Edwards said:On the occasion of the 4th of July, now everyone is gonna have a holiday. I wonder when my sis comes back. Desperate for my family reunion
On 04/07/2023 at 6:15 AM, Buck Edwards said:I am not that knowledgeable. It doesn't make me a bad person.
On 04/07/2023 at 2:06 PM, Buck Edwards said:
On 04/07/2023 at 5:44 PM, Buck Edwards said:If you really care about me, then you need to do these things for me -
- Pretend that everything is normal
- Keep your presence around me without being triggered
- Act like everything is going fine in your life, so I don't have to worry excessively.
- Always be around so I'm not depressed.
That's all I ask of you. Only then I'm going to heal.
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On 11/10/2023 at 6:12 PM, Buck Edwards said:My 9 heroes
Rupert Spira
Sadhguru
Jiddu Krishnamurti
Ramana Maharshi
Eckhart Tolle
Yogananda
Peter Ralston
Gauranga Das
Matthieu Ricard
On 12/10/2023 at 5:47 AM, Buck Edwards said:I wasn't good enough. I let my family down.
On 12/10/2023 at 8:02 AM, Buck Edwards said:Mood fighting.
On 13/10/2023 at 1:29 PM, Buck Edwards said:What are my current goals?
On 15/10/2023 at 5:44 PM, Buck Edwards said:On 15/10/2023 at 6:16 PM, Buck Edwards said:On 15/10/2023 at 6:17 PM, Buck Edwards said:Adya is retiring. And Adya is my next favorite.
On 15/10/2023 at 6:23 PM, Buck Edwards said:Music is the biggest healer. Music is the reason I feel I am here. I feel like music is everywhere. Even the droplets of rain feel like music to me. As soon as I wake up, I need my bhajan and spiritual music. When I am getting ready, I need Peppy music. When I am driving, I need my drive-time playlist. Music is everything.
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