Whitney Edwards

Everything’s just so backwards. Especially nowadays with influences like Andrew Tate. He’s not all bad, don’t get me wrong I’ve also learned from him. But the entire culture of stage orange nowadays is so shallow and empty ofcourse people are miserable, but then don’t take an honest look at themselves and do something and go for easy escapism.

Based off any guys I have known in my life, extremely few have had girlfriends or for the matter any success with women. Some of these guys told me that most dating coaches tend to inflate numbers just to brag so that they can get customers to buy their courses. Many of the dating player type guys have been busted for paying women just to be with them. You'll see people like Andrew Tate. It's a game of money. These are yacht girls. They're paid to be in parties with men to inflate their ego and it helps their business. models are generally paid for this job. That's how the industry works. Much of what you see if fake advertising to lure in men into buying these programs and it's a huge profit because men assume they will get girlfriends if they buy these products. In reality dating is hard if you aren't socialising well enough for both men and women. But it's simple if you don't have sky high standards, want to settle down with someone simple and socialise enough to get someone to like you. Of course marriage is another thing entirely. Relationship is hard work yet it's not impossible. By the way a higher body count is not really a cool thing, it gets tiring fast and leaves you spiritually depleted the mind begins to objectify people. Dating shouldn't have to be hard if you are just looking for a partner. It's only hard for men who want multiple women because that's tricky and at some point women also tend to sense that in men from a mile away.

You should read the book "six pillars of self esteem" by Nathaniel Branden. It will solve all your problems.

No. You have to feel all the time. You need self acceptance right from the get go. This needs building your self confidence. Then you won't feel bothered by how others treat you. It's not about the girls. It's about you.

You can't practice complete detachment from others. But the first thing you can do is not seek someone's validation. You don't need man or woman to make you feel accepted. Have you accepted your own self? That's the key question. If you truly have, then you wouldn't need to worry about what other girls think or how they respond to you. Just my 2 cents.

Me when I look at my husband.

Glow up 1 week challenge.

I liked this pre birthday glow up.

@Ishanga thank you for sharing.

1. Playing classical, jazz music early in the morning. 2. Positive affirmations 3. Upgrading your vocabulary 4. Work on your posture 5. Gratitude Journaling 6. Hydra facial 7. Bring your serums down your neck and hands 8. Ice rolling your face 9. Red light therapy devices 10. Exfoliate + body conditioning Treatment 11. Including body actives (retinol/AHA/BHA) 12. Putting Vaseline on your feet 13. Lash extensions/lift/tint/serum 14. Microblading/threading/waxing 15. Working on your teeth 16. Baby Botox/Facial Balancing 17. Nails 18. Dainty Jewelry 19. Beauty sleep 20. Collagen 21. Infusing your water 22. Personalize your glow up

Leo doesn't give a dick about it so let it be. What is it that you're spending your energy into? What is it that you are spending your time into? Do what you love. Do what you like. Then you won't feel guilty about spending your time. Spend it wisely. I want to keep a strict time table from now onwards. I want to follow it. I want to know that I'm doing my best from time to time. I want to have a beautiful makeup and grooming routine.

Wow. Perfect synchronicity.

Today I had fried eggs for lunch. #eating healthy.

I want more beauty hacks.

I want to follow beautiful skin care routines and beauty and Makeup routines so that I always look beautiful. I love it. Makeup also works as therapy for me.

Surrounding myself with all things feminine.

How to use extensions?

Do you know how to use it?

And they still won't change.

I'm now entering into the coldest darkest super isolated insulated phase of my life. I've never felt such hate and repulsion for the world as I do now. Growing up I was a very social person, I had a cute demeanor, people used to love me, people still love me, I was everyone's joy, the life of the party, the funny cute girl who spreads only and happiness. As time went by, things started to gradually change. I remember during my early days in school, how people would make fun of me, the bullying, how the guys would say sexual jokes or take whatever I did as sexual and use it as an opportunity to misbehave, I began to change, I stopped seeing men as emotional creatures capable of sensitivity, one guy spoke about how he loved killing animals, this is where my entire definition of men began to gradually change. I realized that I was in the wrong crowd. I was this super funny decent person sandwiched among sleazy perverted toxic men only wanting something sexual from me and not in a good way, I'd have described most of these men as abusers, the stuff they used to say was very repulsive. I began to act broody around them, feeling terribly lonely, isolating myself. I would keep to myself never talking to these guys because I found them to be very cold hearted and extremely harsh. I stopped joking with them. Because the stuff they would talk about was dark and serious. They had dark fantasies. Sociopathic fantasies. Some girls tried to be friendly with them to get their attention. But I wasn't going to be one of these girls. I didn't want any form of male attention and not at least from such men. I wasn't going to bend over backwards and compromise my integrity and principles to be with such men. It looked terribly awful and toxic to me. And here I am, feeling the same way once again(roll eyes) .feeling desperate, lonely, miserable, outcast, at odds with the world around me, not wanting to fit in with such a crowd, it's the same version of me again who finds this world depraved and chaotic, trying to find happiness within, wanting the whole drama to stop, looking around and seeing the same kind of toxic people, the kind of people who love drama and gore, the kind of people who lick each other's asses to get along, the kind of people who only want things in life but have no moral integrity,who can never match me, who look down on values of empathy, who are never go to be around or rub shoulders with, who like their own animalistic games and call others generic. Who have depraved intentions and Jealousy that they cannot control. Who play mind games and betray you at the drop of a dime. I just wanna distance myself from such people because I don't belong there.. I belong to a deep dark isolated insulated shell of my own. That I don't plan to ever come out of. I simply want to talk to those who can relate to me. I only want to talk to those who truly understand me and won't play games with me. Who are loyal and keep their word. Who understand my sensitivities and not take advantage of my vulnerabilities. Who I can be a truly loyal friend to and who I can always depend on. A companion. People who I will talk to from my insulated shell because they would deserve my time. They would win my affection. They wouldn't violate my boundaries.

I don't even know how to use an extension.

Yea it's not the end of the world.

I want to connect deeper with my Femininity. It just feels right. I want to explore intimacy. Explore everything. Everything that is beautiful in the feminine perspective.