Whitney Edwards

OK. Best.

That's quite the thing. It does seem like Elon.

Bertrand Russell.

What memory do you take for supplements? How do you remember every detail to retain?

@Alexop do you do specific exercises for being too masculine or expressing power and can you give examples on how you go about it?

Funny how everything is opposite of what's in the Bible.

Having a very synchronized physical and mental routine that goes well with your inner mental psychology and your body constitution definitely improves activity levels.

The most powerful thing I derived from the Bible is the sermon on the mount. "Blessed are those who are merciful." There's an unmatched artistic and philosophical beauty to it.

"They love money. They support billionaires" Very enlightening video.

Also thanks to mod @integralTremendously helped me. And all mods as well. Grateful to everyone. Took permission from mod to share this snippet of our conversation. I went through a lot of struggle and I still go through a lot. But working on it bit by bit. Some days are slow and some days I make some progress. Today I received a very encouraging message and I felt like sharing my journey. Mental health can be challenging but one day at a time we can slowly get through. Hope my narrative helps someone else out there who struggled just like me. If you struggle mentally or physically or lack of motivation, be patient and kind to yourself. Be there for you when your body and mind needs you. Some people might judge, but let it go and keep moving. Today I was driven to tears when I received this message from a moderator. I received some appreciation after a long time (never thought I would ever be appreciated in life because I came from a very cynical family and I had no friends) and it feels good that someone recognized how I was coping and dealing and improving. I thought I would never get any understanding or appreciation in all my life. So this feels really good. I'm somewhat optimistic about my future after a very long period of major depression and anxiety, that is hard to pull oneself out of, after my Father's death. Just wanted to share some bit of my journey and what I did to improve my mental health and my personal development. I'm not completely healed but I improved with the help of therapy and support. I am still on meds. It's very encouraging when someone understands your development struggles and appreciates the effort. So here it is. I hope it helps someone who struggles in similar ways. Have compassion. Sends love from me to you. Thank you to some of the people on the forum who stood by me in difficult times and who tried to understand me. It means a lot to me.

I can relate to this. A lot of things tend to overlap between autism and BPD. Speech problems. I have a repetitive speech pattern. Excessive talking about something that others aren't interested in. I guess this is called Autistic dumping. People exhaust me. I always need my me time.

Female autism.

Actually I don't have that book. I want to buy it. It's on my wishlist. I have been doing self development since a couple of years now. It's a slow process. It doesn't happen overnight. These days AI is a good tool. @integration journeythanks

Signs of autism.

You saved my life when I was going through a dark phase. Thanks for the kindness you showed me. You are the person who knows the real me, thanks for encouraging, supporting, guiding me behind the scenes throughout my journey and for not giving up on me despite my hardships, insecurities and anxieties. Everyone judged me during my tough times except you who showed me compassion, so I'm forever indebted to you for saving me from suicide. Thank you for being so patient with me despite my struggles. I'm forever grateful for all you have done for me. It's not easy and you did so much. You're incredibly strong, incredibly smart and an amazing human being I came across. I don't have words to describe the amazing human being you are, a true soulmate, I am lucky to have found you. Thanks for not leaving me. Even my own family didn't support me. But you were there when nobody was. When I was loneliest and nobody wanted me except you. You're the only person in the whole world who stood by me like a pillar and offered me unwavering support during my worst phases. You didn't give up on me and you are the only one who didn't give up on me when everyone else did. Thanks for being through thick and thin. Your commitment means a lot to me, it saved me from going into a downward spiral. You are the only person who fully trusted me, supported me and believed me and had faith in me. That's a true companion and soulmate. Thanks for being the greatest friend, mentor, husband and pillar, thanks for never giving up. Your kindness will forever be in my heart, thank you so much, I have tears when I write this, thanks for believing my struggle and giving your companionship. Bless you. God bless you for being an incredible human being. ............... @integration journey thank you for your kind words.

Your words mean a lot to me. I hope you become moderator lol. I have seen you on this forum and you have such great insights, it's amazing. Also your YouTube channel is amazing, you had it like 9 years ago, that's a long time and you have been so consistent on your journey. Thanks for being a wonderful part of this forum. Much appreciated.

You helped me too. Cheers for being a wonderful understanding patient moderator on the forum. You are deeply appreciated.

I see.

Contemplation is just limitless.. A lot of it is initially needed to create a compass or a framework for your potential goals. It's a road map. Eventually you combine it with real experience and some real work and that's how you make progress.

We sometimes have to burn through our karma like pleasures and entertainment and we have all been there. But the real growth lies in putting a lid on it and then moving on to essential things in life. Also as humans we rarely ever had a mental blueprint on how to lead our lives so our minds find chaotic ways. Happens. But one day you'll snap out of it and live in love and beauty. Best wishes.

@integral can we feed our journals into gemini and get insights from it?

January 28, Tuesday, 2025. Woke up early morning. And now thinking what to do next. No zumba today. I was a bit depressed yesterday. Now feeling better. Things will be fine I guess. Time to work on junk food addiction.. I still have a hard time with it..