Whitney Edwards

I suggest a meritocracy school that raises children in a way that they become healthy high conscious citizens and have enough "life knowledge" and "life resources" to not only lead a good life but also vote with a healthy non toxic mindset. Conscious people. Conscious government. Democracy doesn't work perfectly.

Yep. Don't be scared. It usually reduces with time. The brain learns to adjust to it. Mine is gone now completely.

@Sugarcoat normally sleep paralysis is a symptom of stress. I used to get them twice or thrice a year and it used to scare the fuck out of me. But sometimes I was amused by them, in how dramatic, real and colorful they were. I saw a correlation between stress, negative thoughts and sleep paralysis. The video says stress is responsible for it. I had one Astral projection experience last year. My Astral projection was similar to this.

The Corticosteroid effect was gone after three weeks and probably the symptoms returned back. @Michael569 are corticosteroids given for auto-immune problems?

Thats great. So I guess emotionally you are feeling good or moderate. Because most homeless people feel depressed. Then the only thing that you can do is to keep looking for something that suits you physically. Best luck on your journey.

You might have some inflammation issues. Also depends on the season when you usually visit family. Seasonal issues like hay fever for example.

Important post. Saturday. January 11. https://i.imgflip.com/9gbwqo.gif So I needed medication and since past three hours I was putting off going to the store to get it. I felt like it was dragging myself out of my comfort zone and I wanted to completely relax today. I haven't slept well either. Then next minute I said to myself - just go go go go go go go go go girl.... Just go. I had to get off my ass. It was extremely tough to do that. I felt it was impossible and I felt weak and limp. Then I finally got up with great difficulty. Then I just put on my shoes and went to the store. I got the meds. Then on the way coming back home, I got myself a body lotion as a quick reward for going to the store and not being lazy when I need to go get important things. That's how severe my depression is. I just don't feel motivated. The body lotion is a mini reward and I got it for a discount. I had to spend only 100 bucks instead of 300. It's a chocolatey cocoa butter lotion. I don't spend a lot. I spend very little. I try to save my money. I decided to spend a tiny amount today after many days just to reward myself to overcome my laziness and procrastination. Sometimes I feel guilty if I spend even a little amount of money. But did it and I don't feel guilty. I spent a tiny amount of money after many many days just to feel a little better and to encourage myself. Mollyna — Hey Whitney, you did a great job. You overcame your laziness today and did what was necessary for your health. Good job girl. A baby step in the positive direction.

Work in a local church. Ask the church for a job. Cleaning jobs, they are much easier to get. Cleaning jobs inside a building or a security job near a office. I'm extremely sorry for your hard situation. I'm not sure if welfare is available in your country. Please be strong. Nothing is wrong with failure. Even if you feel like you're failing, you're a great person battling through the lows of life and nothing matters. Only your life being safe matters. I hope and pray that you come out of this and do much better going ahead. Keep strong and going. It's okay to be tired. Keep going and keep handling this low phase with grace and courage. Blessings. Please be strong even if you feel tired. Have faith in yourself. The universe is always understanding you no matter what and you are always loved.

Watching Leo's new video he posted just 6 minutes ago. Lower perspectives are focused on confirmation biases.

OMG thanks. Watching.

Nice take on the on-going scandal. A different perspective that helped me understand manipulation.

I have decided that Mollyna looks like this. Mollyna is my elder imaginary fictional sister who inspires me to be my better version.

I always wanted a woman to inspire me - the inner child in me. I wanted that woman to bash me like an elder sister. Not like my real elder sister. But still. My real elder sister is a bit rude and sometimes condescending. So it's hard to have a conversation with her. Now I'm thinking of a gorgeous woman who can take all of my problems away and make me a strong woman of passion. Who will also integrate masculinity in me. After searching for some names, I came across this name - Mollyna. I like it. Mollyna is a very gorgeous beautiful woman who has ultimate grace and strength and who inspires me to be a better person. Mollyna is an imaginary woman. She is blessed with beauty, brains and brawn. What will Mollyna look like? In my mind, Mollyna looks like this. She is Brianna Hildebrand. Or maybe Mollyna looks like this. Taken from — https://www.glam.com/1161716/flattering-haircuts-for-women-in-their-30s/ Or like this. Or like this.

Handle a joke gracefully. Remember this thread everytime you feel triggered by language that's not cool. I couldn't do this for the life of me. How are some people so cool? I always lose my shit over little things. But this is a great lesson. Great men don't lose their cool or sweat the little stuff because they got bigger fish to fry. Leo gets trolled so much. Imagine if Leo lost his cool over every little thing. Would he be able to focus on his career? The Mini me in me has a lot of lessons to learn still.

I need to integrate masculinity in me. And for that I need the Alpha mindset. I have kept toxic people away from me as my sister advised me. I'm just upset that my family stopped therapy. I did a good job in the last two months keeping toxic people away.

I need more maturity in me. Looking at others making so much progress, I feel left out and left behind. Although I take baby steps towards my progress and I have done some good in the past year in controlling the effect of my trauma on me, it's still not enough. I think trauma impacts in a big way and it's effects are quire long lasting.

I can absolutely relate! It's so easy to get caught up in the constant stream of information. I've found that even small breaks can make a huge difference. Maybe try a digital detox weekend or even just an hour a day where you completely disconnect. Self-reflection is a journey, not a destination. Be kind to yourself as you navigate this process. Your post really resonated with me. I think we often seek external validation and answers instead of trusting our own inner wisdom. It's a powerful reminder to cultivate inner peace and find fulfillment within ourselves. Journaling or mindfulness practices could help you connect with your inner voice. Lot of reflection you know. Consistent journaling. This is a great starting point for self-improvement. I'd suggest starting with a simple daily practice like meditation or spending time in nature. Gradually reduce your information intake and see how it feels. You might be surprised by the insights that emerge when you quiet the external noise. I do this kind of contemplation myself. While discipline is valuable, it can also become a form of control. Explore ways to cultivate a more gentle approach to yourself. Instead of focusing on 'fixing' yourself, try embracing curiosity and experimentation. What if you allowed yourself to simply be, without judgment? Do that some days. I've struggled with similar issues, especially with the constant need to learn. I'm trying to be more mindful of how much information I consume and focus on applying what I already know. What specific concepts are you most drawn to? What does 'practicing' those concepts look like for you? Make that picture.

Happy Birthday! Whats your greatest life lesson through your journey so far?

You can use Nivea.

I'm grateful for this life despite its ups and downs. I feel great. Some days are nice and hopeful. Other days are depressing. Whatever happens happens. What's the point of thinking too much. I blame myself too much. But maybe I should begin bashing myself a bit. It's not okay how I do certain things. I especially problems with procrastination. I do that a lot.

Thank you for the response.

I feel a bit anxious about passport work.

First thing to remember that you deserve love all the way. Deep down I think you think/assume you don't deserve it. You are looking for external validation through gambling. This will be dangerous when you lose money. So it's a good thing you didn't win. God always has a way to help us without us realizing it. Practicing self-love is a journey, not a destination. It involves cultivating kindness, compassion, and acceptance towards yourself. Identify the negative thoughts and self-criticism you direct towards yourself. Write them down. Question the validity of these thoughts. Are they truly accurate or helpful? Most likely they're not. Treat yourself with the same kindness and understanding you would offer a friend. Acknowledge your struggles and offer yourself encouragement. Your struggles are completely okay. Don't think that you're losing. No matter what happens, stay strong. Eat nourishing foods, get enough sleep, and engage in regular physical activity. Make time for hobbies, interests, and activities that bring you joy and fulfillment. Practice mindfulness, meditation, deep breathing, or yoga to reduce stress and promote relaxation. Identify your limits, recognize what you can and cannot handle. Assertively communicate your needs and boundaries to others. Especially if they're taking too much of your time. Respect your own time and energy as well as money. Say no to things that drain you or don't align with your values. Develop positive statements about yourself that challenge negative self-beliefs.Repeat these affirmations daily to reinforce positive self-perception.Regularly reflect on and appreciate the good things in your life.Write down things you are grateful for each day. Even if it's a small thing you enjoy or achieve, celebrate it by being happy about it and liking yourself for it. Main thing is to like yourself for who you are. No matter whatever makes you feel disliking yourself, you are worthy of all the love in the world. Just like yourself no matter what. Make a commitment that you will drop addictions.

If I have to choose between friendship and time, I'll choose time. Friendship has its own place and it's beautiful and all. But it can be a distraction too. Sometimes friendships can get messy. Sometimes it's hard to be friends with someone and then break up with them. The kind of drama that I don't have time for. And I'm a bit like Leo. Fed up of humanity sometimes. I see all the bullshit, all the judgement. Lack of understanding of reality. People being selfish just like me, at least I own my selfishness, they don't. And the anger and frustration I feel. I'm not trying to be a good person and I don't want to. I just want to live from my heart. Did I ever miss friendships? From my school times, I had few friends. I don't remember very close friendships. Some friends acted like bullies. They would say bad and hurtful things to me. They were selfish too. They would only come to me if they needed something from me. Growing up a lot of people made friends only for money. If someone threw a party, they would be nice to them. I didn't have much money to spend in parties. So they wouldn't talk to me. I used to feel discriminated. Because they were extremely rich and they only wanted to be friends with other rich people. Now I realize that most of humanity is this way. There's no point in complaining. I came from a harsh environment. Now I used to be mad at some people on this forum as well for how they treated me. Not anymore. I perfectly understand where they are coming from. I felt demeaned, disappointed, depressed, insulted even. But those feelings are gone. I understand why they acted that way with me, I acted the same way with others. Everyone is entitled to their own views and thoughts and feelings. They also have some goals. And I probably would have interfered with their goals if I had been their friend. They are on a good path so I'm happy they are doing well in life. I don't have any grudges with them. All these things are childish. Maturity comes with following one's path and wishing everyone well.

I think my mom messed up my routine a bit. I don't know how to deal with her. She doesn't give me room or space to do my own stuff.. She will never ask for my permission and do her own thing. Then all my self development plans get messed up. Yesterday she did something against my will and now I'm suffering the consequences. I feel sick and ill. I don't know why she keeps breaking my boundaries.