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my brain is not letting me consume information be it about making friends or dating its not interested now may be it will change in the future i think its saying you already know enough apply it

i should just focus on practical things cause there are a bunch of books out that i want to read but i procrastinate on them

listening to audio books making me sleep pce i'm going to stop that for now thinking on focusing on my purpose and figuring that out

i think studying and learning will become easy for me in the future i guess we will see with less resistance or none

the things i know are from movies and tv i saw come like from outsourced cows are respected not touched older people almost not wearing cloths and into mystical serious about marriage yoga bajaj exaggerate movie scenes like action scenes that would make no sense

main fear is safety and people using my insecurities against me or being alone

processing that there are predator and prey in life meaning my victim mentality lead me to people taking advantage of me that reality works in a way that if you show or complain neutral people who are fine on their own and can take care of themselves will leave you alone and avoid you but people who have a predator mindset and using others to succeed will use you for whatever need that they want.

depends do you see a future with her having a family children and great children, great family? or do you see an argument between you two about how she should act or that she is not respecting you and her not willing to work with you on this marriage to make it great? which one of these do you see?

do we suffer death cause we have been told or are expected something from other people? or that we have to achieve something? or that we think we are special? or does our suffering end when we realize that we or i don't matter?

@Leo Gura is pickup easier after enlightenment? all that mental thoughts disappearing

thanks for the feedback i will try with a coach

is there any way i can teach myself to be able to defend myself without taking classes?

thank you

@Manusia https://www.actualized.org/insights