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@Breakingthewall I appreciate your input. I can relate!

@Moksha I love that! What you said gave me goosebumps in its profundity. Too much time seeking takes away from enjoying the simplicity of the ride in all its splendor. Thank you ?

@Moksha Thank you for your reply! I understand that you are me and I am you and that everthing is consciousness. That god has shattered itself into trillions of pieces, to play a duality fueled jigsaw puzzle of putting itself back together again for experience, amusement, whatever it may be. I think the most uncomfortable thing is knowing that but not feeling that knowing in all it’s depth on a consistent basis. It’s the tease of getting a sneak preview that drives our hunger to continue on I suppose?!

Since we are infinite I assume there are infinite levels of awakening. I have experienced several awakenings in my life. The first time about 20 years ago I had an experience on psychedelics, visually similar to the infinite conciosness GIF Leo posted in his blog recently that I will attach below. I felt the most intense peace and wholeness; a part of everything, and all knowing sense about everthing in existence . I have always hoped to get back to that place. A decade ago I experienced another awakening through consistent mantra chanting. It did not produce such visuals but did strengthen my awareness, psychic energy, and was followed by an array of mystical experience and synchronicity. I also completely changed my life path in regards to life purpose and began studying psychology. My third awakening occurred last year, a couple months into the pandemic. It was like a sudden whole body knowing occurred that every possibility is occurring at the same time and that every person is existing within their own dimension in a sense, commingling with other dimensions, mistaking others as their own. I do not claim this to be truth but it was an interesting insight. I wonder if my initial awakening was a moment of experiencing godhead and how many more awakenings It will take to get back there?