The observer

@Member That was not an attitude. It's a statement of truth, beyond all thoughts and attitudes. To save you some time and trouble, be here with an open-mind, or you will be banned soon after wasting much of your time on pointless, yet fragile arguments.

I can't move a chair. But either way, relax. This attitude is not the healthiest one to have.

@Preetom I am ignorant, regardless of the equations.

Understanding emerges from reality. Reality is always larger than understanding, necessarily. How can a finite understanding ever capture an infinite reality? Make whatever you want out of this. Nihilism, solipsism, cynicism, Hinduism, Bahaism. It doesn't matter. You'll still be trapped in your mind wondering why there isn't an exit, until you exit.

Silly, pathetic humans. As if it's possible to understand nothing.

This is such a powerful video! I can't believe how accurately it describes me. Many of the things she said I've realised after my awakening last year, and been trying to implement and integrate them into my life. I know I still suck, but here is a good reminder that I could use more often. Downloaded the video for easy reach. And this Ananda is truly amazing!

@IAmTheHolySpirit Are you a bot? And how many of you are there here?

@Samsam I don't think anyone has answered your question yet. It's very simple though; Shadow Work / Emotional Healing.

Sometimes it is, not only pointless, but also unhealthy. Think of spirituality as medicine. Not everyone is a doctor, and even if they were, not everyone is good, and even if they were, not everyone is good enough. Good enough is the least requirement for trying to help others effectively. Otherwise, there would be more harm than good. If you're questioning your own self, that's something else, and it is fine, because it's a journey of discovery. But doing the questioning for others requires high levels of consciousness and skill. Without that, you might be having covid-19 and transmit it to others (Bad move to mention covid-19. I regret and denounce it lol).

I notice a trend in spiritual people who crave attention is that they often try to show the exact opposite to the world, and somehow to themselves. They tend to hide and repress their truth instead of leaning into it and doing it consciously. Every small act they do says on the exterior that they don't even care about attention, but for the keen observer, it's pretty clear what they're doing and why it's a lack of self-love. It's pretty much a shadow issue. They secretly crave being important, yet they act as if they don't even care. Subconsciously, they think if they act detached, the attention would be a lot bigger. They judge seeking attention, yet they want it the most. So, they seek to have it in a very twisted way, which they think would portray them as highly moral and detached. And while it does to a certain extent, but it keeps them stuck where they are, without fulfilling their need for attention and without succeeding in uncovering their shadows. The ego is one tricky beast. I believe Teal Swan has a video called: self-sacrifice is the most self-centred thing there is. I find it somewhat related to this topic.

It's interesting how when someone states their honest opinions, others jump in and try to change them. Like, really, what's the point? Using arguments, like projections and relativity of vibes, just to prove that someone's opinion is not right? You might as well apply your wisdom to yourself and stop trying to change others, and just let them be as they are, without your projections. It seems like many people are pissed off because others have different opinions. I didn't like Anna and I think she shouldn't teach, so what? Do you want me to like and approve of her? If yes, then you might want to look into why that is the case. If you are loving and accepting of everyone, that's great. But then why would you not accept me as I am? Why would you try to change me?

Last night I had multiple nightmares related to the disturbing videos I watched before bed. They were kinda lucid and I was able to control them to a certain extent. I still identify as a person and I still have fears. Weird. .. There used to be a time where I used to have clarity about everything. Not a single question without an answer. That was between November 2018 and July 2019, with a peak almost in the middle, i.e. during March and April. Right before that period, I was gradually growing into it. Right after the end, I grew gradually out of it. Nowadays, most of my life is more like confusion, with little windows of clarity here and there. My state of consciousness has changed drastically over the past two years. It went up and down. I've had insights both from above and below. A lot of them make moderate/little sense/relevance to me at the moment, even though I know they're true. Which makes me wonder. Isn't it hypocritical to talk about things that don't make sense to me? Also that makes me think that spirituality is probably not the best place for me anymore, which is what I realised a few weeks ago. Maybe I am overthinking. Maybe it's because I've become friends with the devil. However, there is one insight that remains absolutely true regardless of all states of consciousness; God is. It's true even when I am not conscious of it. This makes me think back and review the other realisations. Why don't they feel as solid as this one? Is it because they are relatively true depending on the circumstances they are downloaded in? Or is it because I haven't truly established myself in them? God is. There is no doubt about that. Both absolutely and relatively. Nowadays, I struggle to find the words. I don't know how to finish my thoughts. Sometimes, I don't know how to initiate them. Something that was effortless a few months ago now seems like much trouble. There is so much confusion with very little clarity. What happened? What crippled me down? Maybe a lack of authenticity. Maybe a calling to change lanes. Maybe a calling for silence. I can't figure it out. .. "I will wait.. Take a turn.. Sort it out.. And let it burn.. And empty out an empty drawer.. In my pockets, there's nothing more.."

I know a girl who's been in love with a guy for over 5 years and she can't get over him. I talked to her and tried all sorts of arguments but nothing worked. He's extremely manipulative and a show-off kind of guy, he works to keep her under his charm even though he isn't actually interested in her. He merely wants to win, that's his mindset. He told me that it's all about winning against egos. The biggest ego he wins against means that he is more successful. So, he's caught up in chasing girls and trying to get them to like him. Him and her are colleagues in the same group at college. I know them both because they're my friends. Anyway, the last time I talked to her, I discovered that she thinks that he's rich, while in fact he's not. I told her the truth, and I explained to her in details how it appears to be otherwise. And it was the bug that kinda broke the illusion for her. His ideal image is not so ideal anymore. That was like 6 months ago, and from that point until now, I have rarely heard from her about him. She used to always be desperate and tell me how much she loved him. Now she seems more detached. More info about her: she has self-esteem/confidence issues - she watches a lot of romance movies - she takes life seriously - and she lives in her own little bubble. Idk. Just thought this story might be relevant or of value here.

Just watched some disturbing short videos. I don't feel good now. I thought back on my reply here: And now I feel a bit relieved. Because even though extreme cruelty and pain exist, they're still quite rare. And even though it's hard to believe, but they are necessary. I don't know how or why. Or, maybe I know but I can't quite put it in words. But suffering is good. Life is good. There's nothing random about suffering. There is a divine plan at work, even though it doesn't seem like it. Something related to this Whatsapp story I've seen earlier yesterday: Weird thought: If you stand in the street and stare into a wall and smile, people will think that you're crazy at first, but then if you keep staring, some of them will start opening up to you, and magically people will start interpreting the wall into all sorts of meaningful stuff. That's how all illusion is created!

Why has God forsaken me? It hasn't. God is not a state. Do away with this ignorance. Do away with this attachment.

@WhatAWondefulWorld Insanity is the absence of a complex of relevant thoughts when needed, i.e. a failure of the mind to operate properly and seamlessly inside its environment. Relevant thoughts are the only reason that makes one "sane". The relevance is attributed to the status quo/environment, which is relative, of course. From the pov of an insane person, their insanity cannot be identified because there are no proper thoughts to identify it. But they might think others are insane because of some thoughts arising about others not matching the internal environment of the insane person. Sanity is simply consensus and the ability to exchange information and interact with others and environment. Who's insane and who's not? Like you said, it's all relative. However, I believe there is one form of insanity that is final and absolute. It is when a person completely loses their mind forever. But instead of perceiving that person from the outside, you would have to be that person experientially. The person disappears forever, and the body remains for some more time. It's a complete death of the ego with no going back. That, I would consider true insanity.

@James123 Okay.

Reading this sentence just opened my heart a little bit. Thank you.

So, I guess in a sense if someone is not integrated enough, life will rule them out automatically since they won't find much encouragement. And in this case, you originally were simply stating the obvious by somehow reading into the future.

@Keyhole Is integration a final state? Or is it a work in progress kind of thing?

@LastThursday Relax. I wasn't talking about you. I was saying that the spiritual ego is justifying Anna's manipulation by using a double standard, i.e. by allowing her to deceive and giving her the right to manipulate.

Sly spiritual ego. Calling out control as illusory, yet using it to manipulate others. Why the double standard? Why? People don't need a way into spirituality. Spirituality is the only way there is. And even if we assume that spirituality is the right path out of all, we cannot force it on others by marketing it in clever ways. I was a Muslim, and my portal to spirituality was through atheism, paradoxical as it sounds.

@LastThursday Don't trust a priest who wears his robe outside the church. And I would like to add that in this case a lot of women can't tell the difference.

Perhaps by dressing up specifically like that, even though she could have dressed up normally. Looks help hiding flaws, like make-up does. For example, if I see a beautiful woman wearing make-up, it's difficult for me to imagine that she might have a bad breath. Similarly, yet paradoxically, dressing up as a hippy and shooting a video out in nature makes it easier for her to gain the trust of the audience, as that portrays her in the ideal image of an enlightened woman who couldn't care less about looks and who is in tune with nature, which, if true, would be ironic since she'd be using manipulation while calling out the ego. Maybe she's authentic, maybe not. Who's to say? But her message could be a lot better. She clearly didn't bring anything new to the table. Everything she said sounded like recitation of wisdom she heard from here and there without direct experience. Even if she had direct experience, she didn't add much of her personal touch to it. That's easy. The real challenge is be able to create something new. So, misusing femininity in this case is in thinking that looks make up for mediocre quality content. Perhaps if a guy did a video like that, he would be perceived as a naive person and he wouldn't get much attention.

Because God created it. Deal with the fact above. What other choice do you have than surrendering? It is Love for the ones who surrender, because it's designed to kill the ego. Notice that cruelty makes less than 1% compared to God's Love and Mercy. It is the perfect amount for keeping life going because without it, there would be no life because the devil would have had destroyed it long ago. Also, keep in mind that inside the yin, there is yang. And inside the yang, there is yin. There's love in cruelty, and there's cruelty in love. These two little dots are necessary to keep the balance ☯️