Mongu9719

@Leo I would really like to know your opinion on the Machine Elves because many of their messages overlap with yours, or are almost verbatim what you have explained. For example in this video he states that the Machine Elves showed him that “love and conciousness are fundamental to the universe and are inextricably connected” and they also showed him that “this universe was created for conciousness to know itself.” Another creator by the name 434 has a video on machine elves and love and they told him that “you must be deeply connected to moments of love and that humans are here on earth to overcome fear and be connected to God/love. These moments include sex and psychedelics. Children are naturally connected to this state.” In another video by him explaining God they tell him that “religions have all been trying to express that God is this river of conciousness which flows through all of creation and that you are it/part of it.” In a video by the creator TripWhip he explains that the Machine Elves are “woven into the very fabric of reality and made from pure conciousness and truth.” They also seem to be deeply tied to humanity because they explain that they “control” us like video-game characters and that they can experience life through us. Apparently they are fascinated by the taste of candy and are very child-like in nature. These messages are exactly what you described in your videos on self-love, god, religion, conciousness, and reality. This video https://youtu.be/57bt7o6eCus describes the process to integrate with a Machine Elves, literally become it, and gain access to all its knowledge. He also explains that the “Buddha has his own domain in DMT hyperspace and is the only human he knows of to accomplish this .” In this video by Sadhguru he explains that there are a rare number of “yogis that (whenever necessary) are capable of recreating their own bodies (as it was then) at any point in time because they preserve an essence of themselves. The Buddha was one of them. These people are known as Nirmanakayas.” There is definitely a connection here. I have also watched multiple videos where they literally rewire people’s brains and heal their depression or pour themselves into their wounds to heal them. I am really interested to hear what your experience on NN DMT is like and ultimately what your analysis of the machine elves are since many on this path will encounter them at some point.

@Amandine I can do ashtanga vinyasa yoga. It just requires body movements and breath coordination. The problem is that my mind is extremely traumatised from my childhood, and it’s impossible for me to sit down and meditate without my brain freaking out. Sometimes the anger just comes out and I start breaking things. It’s really frustrating because I know how much easier it would be without ptsd and all these supressed emotions.

I have faced a lot of criticism from friends and family. I was at one of my friends houses discussing enlightenment and he kicked me out because he is very rational and didn’t accept what I was saying. He is a neuroscience major and refused to believe that the mind is capable of achieving such states. My girlfriend said that I have changed since 1 year ago and I am a completely different person now whom she doesn’t recognise. I don’t know how to reconcile this. I can’t fall asleep again, but I also have trouble relating to people now. The only like minded person I’ve found is my yoga teacher who had gone through a similar experience where his friends stopped talking to him after he began his spiritual path and escaped the American culture of excess and hedonism. I’m wondering where I can find like minded people and how I can deal with this.

My yoga teacher gave me dhoka or pure tobacco in powdered form without any aduleterant. I snorted it up my nose and I felt my mind relax completely. I could mediate quite effectively. Another technique I did was Sanjana yoga which is based on kundalini yoga. The teacher showed me a way to calm my mind by clearing my chakras. It involves placing my hand on neck, chest, and also rotating my hand over my head in a clockwise fashion while reciting things in my head. It worked like a charm. Something I recently tried is astral projection methods on a micro dose of lsd. It’s extremely powerful but controlled. Also DMT machine elf integration which I recently learned about. Really fascinating. Here’s a video on it https://youtu.be/57bt7o6eCus.

@Nahm ”I’ve never actually faced any criticism from friends & family. We just missed, in the heat of a moment, that where each of us is at on our path, is precisely where we “should” be...it is what is...maybe we expected otherwise, and maybe we kinda of ‘paid the price’ for that misunderstanding”. i feel anger. I feel that I have been criticised unfairly by my narcissistic parents. ”Maybe I’m taking where someone else is at, and where people I know are at, and where I’m at...and expecting things to be other than they are, as if there was a “right way”, a “right teaching”, a “correct objective view”, etc. This leaves me feeling some kind of worry, as if I need to figure out which is the “right”, or “rational way”, or “correct way”. Yes I definitely feel my mind trying to moralise things. I feel pressure to follow Leo’s teachings. “I don’t want to suffer like the people I keep coming across in my life. It is a fate worse than death to be ordinary and live a consumeristic lifestyle. For me it is the definition of hell. determination. All the people around me I see are blind to the ways they hurt themselves. “I don’t want to talk about over thinking, nor self referential thinking. I don’t like when people talk about that”. i overthink a lot myself. So I guess the emotion I feel is denial. I want to stop overthinking but I feel like my mind is stuck in a permanent state of overthinking. It is a mechanism to cope with my problems. “I notice sometimes I am so moved & inspired, that I end up frustrated when others don’t accept my understanding”. I don’t feel frustrated by it. But I do feel dejected for a brief moment. I accept that they won’t understand because the understanding only occurred for me because of a few lucky circumstances and the right mindset. ”I sometimes notice that I see people through a lens of sameness, but also sometimes through a lens of labeling them, or pigeonholing them, or, differences”. yes, I often get a sense of superiority when I look at people around me. I see them as the same, caught in the matrix of daily human life, even though I was there not long ago. ”My understanding of why stage blue is often offended by stage green, is really clear. I enjoy the feeling of harmony I experience with my understanding of spiral dynamics. I’m so glad I took the time to better understand myself and others, and how we are all connected”. yes. I feel a sense of relief that I discovered spiral dynamics. I have a sense of clarity that I’ve never experienced before and it is beautiful. It gives me structure as well because I have an end goal of moving up the spiral . ”Occasionally, I expect people to change to be like me, but then I remember we’re all the same, and we choose different thoughts, and I have a hearty relieving laugh about it all”. i don’t recognise people as the same. I tend to put them down in my mind. It’s something I need to work on. Fundamentally I know we are all the same, but I often forget. ”No one will ever be able to relate to awakening, who has not yet awakened”. i haven’t awakened, so I can’t really say how I feel about this. But I think I would tend to agree. ”I relish in putting how I feel, before anything I think or say. The effortlessness of life has been revealed to me, and it is pure joy”. i am still dominated by my mind but over the past year I have really let go of expressing things in ideas and often frame things in terms of emotions, yet because of past trauma, I have not fully opened up yet. ”If I had the last brownie on earth, and couldn’t share it with anyone - I’d eat it, and enjoy the heck out of it, with a big smile on my face”. I would feel guilty and feel sad that the other person could not share it with me. I woud give them the whole thing.

@Nahm it’s true that I don’t fully understand everything Leo is saying, but I guess my concern is that somewhere along this path I might lose it. One bad trip and it’s over for me. Leo speaks from a place where he has already gone through everything but in my mind he is a pioneer and his ideas will not be accepted for a long time or well understood. Because you could say this is uncharted territory, there are inherent risks, and so many ways to delude yourself. Now I’m looking into RASA and reiki. I’m going to be forking over a lot of money and time for this. Ultimately it’s up to me to learn the traps, but it makes me question how many on the forum are brainwashed by Leo vs how many are actually Being open-minded. I see so many posts on the forum filled with dogmatic ideas and even Leo’s vocabulary. I guess Leo forewarned this happening . I’m just scared of becoming like those people because I know how easily my mind gets influenced. They use the same phrases and words that he does and dismiss those with countering views. I have also observed that quite a few people on this forum are pretty mature and actually doing their own research independently. I think disagreeing with Leo is a good thing. I am learning from many different sources now, trying to counter any effects of brainwashing I may have accidentally had while watching the videos.

@Nahm I feel like I’m constantly doubting myself. Why if Leo is wrong? What if all of this is in my head? What if im going to lose my mind? Everything i learned shattered my world and expectations in a positive way, but I always second guess myself. My yoga teacher told me that when did 5meo that there was another guy with him that completely lost his mind. He also told me that I’m highschool he had a friend who did acid and had to be put on lithium for the rest of his life and was never the same again. Yet even after hearing all of this, I am still drawn to the actualised.org. It makes me wonder if I’m actually brainwashed, and I’m just convincing myself that I’m not. Leo did gain my trust, but all the comments underneath his awakening video say that he’s completely lost it. My mind is filled with doubt but at the same time I don’t plan on quitting anytime soon. I do feel isolated and I’m trying to find people irl that understand it. I may do an Isha yoga program to meet like minded individuals cause I can’t seem to find people like that in the Matrix.

@Nahm well she said that I was brainwashed by Leo and that what I said doesn’t make any sense. My friend told me that I was delusional and got mad when I said that India was in stage blue of the spiral. He claims that India is at stage green and the model is stupid. We were also talking about the movie interstellar and he told me that the scene where Anne Hathaway talks about love as fundamental to the universe and not merely a human concept was the stupidest thing ever. I also talked about enlightenment and he started talking really aggressively stating that Marilyn Manson claims he was enlightened but he was a mass murderer. He also showed me this clip from Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. He said that Timothy Leary sold psychedelics to people promising enlightenment but it was a disaster. He then proceeded to shake my hand, look at me like I was insane and kicked me out of the house.

Sorry I was trying to write a different post. But I accidentally edited this one.

Yeah I will delete the other account. I don’t want 2 accounts anyway lol.

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