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@fridjonk The thing is, if I had the will to do so, I'd save them for the summer and trip the fuck out in a forest or on a mountain. I LOOOVE nature. As of right now in Norway where I live there's wet snow and the weather switches from rainy, snowy, icy in one day multiple times. I might get a tent and go somewhere. Perhaps I'll loan my grandfather's cabin, I've tripped on shrooms there before. However, I get access to psychedelics perhaps 5-6 times a year, maybe more, so chances are I'll do a trip next weekend in a planned location. I will make sure to do a whole tab this time. I do have quetiapine on hand in case I have to kill the trip. What are your thoughts on trip-killers? I feel like the bad trip I had when I met my grandfather is the most ''important'' trip I have ever had. The only thing that didn't make me suffer/panic was to stop thinking. Can anybody relate?

@Shadowraix @fridjonk Thank you so much for your interest in giving me solid advice. I would NEVER do 800µg at this time with no tolerance. The only reason I'd take 800µg right now is because I am suspicious that the tabs are not as strong as my dealer told me, plus my tolerance. The largest dose I have done is 200µg, although me and my friend thought it might've been 300µg as the trip was extreme! I believe the tabs I am currently posessing are not 400µg as told. I did half a tab and did NOT get the expected effects of that dose. I don't know if it's because of the setting, set, wrong dose or something else I am not aware of. I will probably wait until next weekend as I want to save the acid for several occasions, but I am also extremely eager to do it this saturday night. Peace my bros!

@fridjonk Love the comforting words! Thank you!

Oh, and I totally forgot to mention that both the trips died almost completely down after about 5 hours after consumption. I could see colourful patterns if I really concentrated on seeing them.

@fridjonk No, absolutely not. That is what I am aiming for in the future, but I am a bit unclear on how to proceed. As of now all my trips (2c-b, mushrooms, LSD) have been PURELY recreational. I am easily distracted by the beautiful visions and too excited to trip. All my past experiences have been with friends fucking around on them. The trip I had the 27th of April, the one before the 27th of August me and a friend were talking about non-duality, but it was all pure speculation and playing with cool, flashy ideas. From my understanding setting intentions before the trip is the way to go. Getting in the mindset of what I want to explore. For instance, my tobacco addiction. I would like to know more about why I am using Swedish Snus. From my understanding of what I have read on the forum and from Leo's addiction video all addictions stems from me being scared of being all by myself with nothing to do, to fill the ''void'' inside of me. I would really appreciate a link to where I can find out more how to use psychedelics for personal development or better yet, realize Truth. I have watched Leo's video ''How to use psychedelics for personal development'' a couple of times and I will rewatch it now, but I would still appreciate feedback. I should also mention that I have been messing with at least 20 different substances that I can remember for the last three years. In chronological order: Hash/weed(2013, daily smoking from about summer of 2016 to present time, however I am trying to quit), 2c-b, oxycodone, MDMA, cocaine, amphetamines, meth (powder, paste, not crystals, never smoked), mushrooms, MDA, tramadol(2017), after this I cannot remember the order of the pills, but diazepam, alprazolam, clonazepam, methylphenidate, zolpidem, LSD, quetiapine, nitrazepam... This is what I can remember on the top of my head. I believe there are a couple more though. I am currently trying to quit weed after getting busted with mushrooms, LSD and half a kilo of hash in Norway. I haven't been living a sober and lawful life for the last three years. I am seeking help from a psychologist. I was first interested in Leo's content back in 2014 after searching for the definition of Enlightenment, where his first enlightenment video showed up. Watched his videos while playing videogames and sometimes strictly watching the video while paying close attention. I am not fulfilled by the way I have been living and I have a bad attitude towards my life at the moment, something I am trying to work through. I am CERTAIN that I am using the acid for escape while masquerading it as some form of self-improvement. I do however feel I am authentically interested in the topics Leo posts, however I am not willing to put down the work. A bit of a ramble, but thank you for reading if you made it this far. I surely appreciate it

This is EXACTLY how I feel.

Watched it on 150µg LSD. Cannot remember much, but very entertaining for that matter.