Santiago Ram

Day 1 Today I did Kriya yoga, 2 hours of meditation and 4 hours of Trauma therapy. Things didn't go as planned today because the clairvoyant touched a difficult topic on Hurt. In the last hour of Therapy, which was breathing and feeling, I had an insight which changed my consciousness. I had a brief, but direct experience of Infinity. Try this exercise . I felt all my surroundings as pure empty space extending to Absolute Infinity. It lasted about 3 minutes but it was fucking incredible. Then I got distracted, but I did notice how incredibly Selfish I am and how all my lies and strategies and theory prevent me from seeing Infinity. I am very tired so that's all for today.

These are some places I have found to be high consciousness: 1. The NA Clinic 2. Nature 3. The tomb of St. Franciss of Assisi (or the tomb of a sage) 4. A town of artists 5. A place of aid to the poor or disabled What are the highest conscioussness places you have visited?

Yes, my other option is Travel. Work and travel the world alone for a while and contemplate.

I have not relapsed. For a year i'm living in a halflway house. Should I return just to do service? It takes a long time, like a year, to start having enlightenment experiences, but I cannot achieve hyper-sobriety in 'society'. Also, corruption and violence. But then again, inst that what society does at a MASSIVE scale? So, should I return and study there?

But I still would like to know multiple points of view.

Well, yes.

@Leo Gura This is a big decision. Should I return to the clinic for good and live there my whole life? Renounce to all worldly aspirations? I had massive enlightenment experiences there the two times I was there

@Leo Gura I don't want to brag, but I think I have solid spiritual genetics. Many relatives from both sides since my great grandfathers followed the spiritual path (Some were priests, Nuns, some went to India) and reported strong spiritual experiences. Again, I do not want to develop a spiritual ego and I am prone to that. But, that is not my point at all. What should I do to awaken and to not make the same mistakes my relatives have made?

@tuku747That makes sense. Thank you.

Well, has anyone had an awakening or insight into the nature of Blasphemy?

Addiction, perhaps? Stupidity?

Is it Lying? Denying the existence of God? Bullshitting yourself? Self-deception? Is it chasing prestige, money, sex, fame?

@Leo Gura I recall you once said it is: . But is there some deeper Truth to it? Why so many religions teach this?

I had a psychotic break from fear of blasphemy. It drove me nuts and I almost killed myself. I just don't understand it.

I also have a history of psychosis, specially from my mom's side. However it is unclear where the line between that and spiritual awakening is drawn. Many defend their psychosis including myself lol I will do a hardcore retreat this next week and will report my results.

@Leo Gura Thank you.

This advice might help anyone who has spiritual family to not make the same mistakes as them. My mom followed an Indian Guru since I was young.

@Leo Gura, I really don't write this out of Narcisism. I suffer from addiction and mental illness, but I have a strong spiritual potential. Should I follow the monastic path before leading a clinic? Should I work and do psychedelics? Should I do hardcore meditation retreats? Teach? I do not want to waste my life. Many of my family members have plateued to different degrees.

Everything is ONE. Connected, intelligent, beautiful. I want to explore my own Dream Fully

Meditation is fucking Amazing. I did some meditation this week and I had huge breakthroughs. Im not sure why I even left this practice.

Notice this forum is heavely biased against Christianity. Aside from Fundamentalism, which is stupid in every religion, Christianity has a lot to offer. Christ's story can be seen as a manual for God-realization. There can be State Turquoise Christianity as well.

But @Leo Gura, didn't you claim some time ago that psychedelics could rewire your brain for good?

Yeah, that sounds nicer

@Leo Gura What are some exercises I can do for realizing Infinite Intelligence?

What do you do when you're at a different developmental stage than your family? For example, being at Stage Green vs my mom at Stage Blue-Orange and my dad solid Orange. How do you get along?