Deziree

Controlling a dream is like wanting to control life. But there are just so many permutations and combinations and fuck-ups that the whole idea of control is a huge waste of energy.

Why not just use a stylus?

I feel like the post is a bit all over the place. You equate honesty with bluntness but fail to understand that others out there might share similar views as you or at least partially agree with you yet they could fear opening up for the same fears you have around them. I relate a lot to what you said in the first part of the post.When you start seeing through things, it can be isolating, almost like you’re speaking a different language and everyone else just wants comfort.I’ve noticed, though, that this frustration can easily turn into another form of ego without us realizing it. The mind can build a new identity around being “the one who really gets it,” which then feeds the same separation we’re trying to see through. Sometimes the most difficult and humbling part of this path of self development is learning to see everyone’s journey as valid, even when it looks naive or confused. People wake up through different doors: some through intellect, others through heartbreak, service, art, or even failure. Truth doesn’t always wear the same costume. So you have to be patient with people, even resilient. You will recognize their bullshit but you'll also realize that they come from a place of vaccum, orderliness and boredom since they were never exposed to something novel as this in their lives, it's easier to understand why they work on auto-pilot mode. But it cannot be denied that they could possess greater wisdom too, because living life on society's terms also has it's own challenges and obstacles and it's not a rigmarole you think it is. So perhaps there's always something to gain from someone if you only know how to converse with them in their own language at their own level, if you catch my drift. They operate that way probably because of lack of resources? Probably because they are just too overly programmed to work that way aka social slavery. Realizing this is also a part of meta awareness. I say this not as criticism but as a reminder (for myself too) that genuine seriousness about this work often softens us rather than hardens us. The deeper it goes, the less we need to judge, because we start to feel the same longing for truth in everyone, just expressed in different ways.

That's good. Seems it's well deserved since you worked so hard at it. If she needs space, let her have it, she will respect you for it.

I think the problem will take care of itself when authoritarianism will go out of hand and there will be an automatic push back. This happens with almost every movement that runs into it's own excesses.

Because he won't fulfill their long term expectations I guess.

There are some edgy people, they are not necessarily leftist though. A broad claim to make.

Why is your blog not working?

I think enlightenment is insipid. It cannot be a strategy of terror management. Seems like escapism to me.

I would love to attend.

I don't wanna hype my issues and problems. Just remain chill at the moment. Don't go overboard. Be inexpensive. It feels overwhelming when all problems come together, yea jarring. But just be there. Don't take it all at a time. Be infallible. Currently I want to have a stubborn gym routine.

"Every star was once darker than the night, before it awoke. "

(self referential notes) Dear OceanicBlizzard - OceanicWorm/BlizzardWorm The poet Dejan Stojanovic wrote these words : "Every star was once darker than the night, before it awoke." Our own sun's birthday is estimated at over four and a half billion years ago. It has filled our solar system with light for that for that long. But before it awoke, the space it now inhabits was darker than the night. So too with every star you see out there that shines not just across space, but also across time. With those rays of starlight comes a question for you. Who were you before you awoke and who are you becoming? You set off on a quest the moment you opened. You have already begun that journey. Every day you are learning, practicing, returning, evolving. It's important that you give yourself credit for every bit of effort you make, no matter the outcome. You are in the process of redesigning your life. As you continue on your journey, you will start to see yourself more brightly. The resolution will improve every day. You will begin to know what's really important to you and what you can leave behind. It may be self doubt that falls into the dim as your light increases. Gratitude and self care will become more evident in your day to day. You will say goodbye to bad habits and recreate your environment so that it reflects who you are meant to be. Ease into sleep remembering the poet's words. "Every star was once darker than the night, before it awoke. " Breathe deeply and feel the stress fall away as you exhale. Let the night fall around you. Sleep knowing that this knowledge is integrating within. Rest and let the morning come to greet you with the gift of a new day.

(self referential notes) Dear OceanicBlizzard - OceanicWorm/BlizzardWorm Now that the day is done, let the words of author Zora Neale Hurston find their way to this evening. She wrote, "there are years that ask questions and years that answer." Life does not reveal itself immediately. One must be both the student and the one who figures out the lesson. It is a never-ending journey of learning. Knowing what you want but having to wait, seems " off " somehow. When one has decided on a path, impatience often pays a visit. It is understandable.. excitement is not a natural pair with patience. But take a moment now, as night falls, to reimagine that wait time. Look closer. You will see it is filled with incremental steps, each a revolution of change in their own right. Imagine a tree limb that branches out into more branches. And each of those branches multiply out again. When you take one tiny step, you have expanded your future possibilities. They multiply out before you. And when you make it to the next branch, the continually unfolding array of possibilities reveals itself. But only because you have taken one solid step, kept your footing, then stepped again. Each incremental step that forms a single habit begins a chain reaction. It creates a positive future where one success can lead to the next. You may wish to speed to the end, but you will miss all the fortification that is occurring. This process is made of presence and awareness. Don't let impatience steal what could be yours. You are building a solid foundation for change if you take things one step at a time. Habit by habit. Go to sleep tonight cherishing the idea that life is an astounding story, especially when you allow it to unfold in its entirety. It is not a race. Don't rush it. Don't miss it. Stay open.

(self referential notes) Dear OceanicBlizzard - OceanicWorm/BlizzardWorm. There is a way to start your workday feeling good. Before you begin, ask yourself what will make you feel good right now. It might be listening to a song, putting on hand lotion, or making the perfect cup of tea in your favorite mug. Find that something that feels perfectly and uniquely you. Only you can decide what that is. When you’ve completed the action you chose for yourself, only then do you sit down to work. You are worth the extra few minutes. You matter. How to feel good? Something beautiful like a lovely rose. A positive environment all around Having air conditioning that works well! 🤣 Having my morning cup of coffee and playing a game on my phone. Pomegranate tea bag under my ice. Steep it in Voltage mountain dew and/or cherry 7up. So yummy. Having quiet time with coffee in hand & having a glass of water before anything, hydrating myself is very important & diamond art Embracing the things I did accomplish today… that was progress. Reading scripture Listening to positive affirmation Water, then quiet time with my coffee, then my morning meditation.

(self referential notes) Dear OceanicBlizzard - OceanicWorm/BlizzardWorm. Let yourself land. The day is done. It is time to rest. Breathe deeply and feel your focus shifting to rejuvenation. The more relaxation you let in, the more nourished you will be tomorrow.

Go ahead.

@Hojo do you think it's a relief that you don't have to be on reddit anymore?

Humanity was designed to be deliberately unfair. Human life (reincarnation) is portrayed as intentionally difficult, filled with scarcity, suffering, and unfulfilled desires (e.g., lack of relationships, material struggles, physical limitations). The spirit world, in contrast, is described as a place where desires are easily fulfilled, manifesting anything (love, abundance, experiences) in a way that feels just as real as physical existence. I think the spiritual realm is a dream existence or manifestation of our physical realm.

(self referential notes) Dear OceanicBlizzard - OceanicWorm/BlizzardWorm. Let yourself land. Breathe in, the Knight has come in his warrior clothing. Let yourself relax into it. You are an important part of everything. Breathe deeply. Let your body relax as you exhale. Feel your shoulders dropping and your neck letting go. Breathe in again and allow the sun to set. You have to put so many things in motion today; every action nudged what tomorrow will become. Your tiny steps are adding up. They are becoming the change you had hoped for, the kind that lasts. The American poet, Michael Goldman writes: It is not that the sun comes up Or the earth goes around Or that the plants sprout And take up rain And flower and set seed Or that our hearts pound Five thousand times an hour - It's that we don't have to go out with tethers To make the heavenly bodies Move correctly around Or caress the ground And tease the stems upright And separate the petals Or tap our chests Continually with little hammers And we can put our attention elsewhere. Now that you have claimed your own space here in this fabulous universe, go ahead and settle in. Here, you have a sanctuary away from it all. Know that what you do each day feeds your tomorrow, like a stream flowing into a great river. That river will feed an even greater one the next day, and the next and forever onward. So rest now. Breathe in again, knowing the earth will spin and look away from the sun, till it leans in again, all before you open your eyes again.

I felt a bit balanced today. I'm digging into hermetic ideas and the birth of the soul. Interesting concepts. Pure philosophy.

Hatred can exist in many ways. Either as a complete indifference to someone's suffering or by being the direct attribution to suffering. It's a sign of an infantile egoic mind that cannot handle even the slightest criticism. Unfortunately a lot of the woke people pretend to be morally superior and loving to others. Yet their horrible insensitivity will eventually expose who they really are. Nobody wins in the end. Both the woke and the anti woke. The reason being both take it too far. The pendulum always swings towards balance, a more centered position, neither offensive, nor defensive(playing victim and fake victomhood). Both are extremes.