You must let the beauty of consciousness penetrate you. If you are not overjoyed with your own consciousness then it's not awakening. The highest consciousness is so delighted in itself it is in endless joy. God needs nothing outside itself to be endlessly happy and satisfied. If you feel incomplete or something is bugging you -- if lack of other is bugging you -- that just means a serious lack of consciousness. So you ain't done with the work. Awakening is the realization of Absolute Perfection. Nothing at all is wrong or missing. A hallmark of full awakening is zero fear. You are too conscious to fear anything.