I've noticed that this holds me back in life a lot. People close to me have been hurting me for years now, and I didn't even think that it is such a big problem that I cannot tolerate. I thought I can suffer through this. But the truth is that it is not possible. There is a wonderful quote I found:  So now I could work on my independence, but there is this resentment in me and hurt I can't let go of. They would get away with all the damage they caused me and everything they took from me. Well, I am angry.  PS: Please don't recommend a book on emotional mastery or something. I will read that somewhere in the future when I get older, etc. Right now, I'm just afraid of letting them go, because I feel damaged by them and because they are turning everything they did to me as rationalized self-defense or they are completely denying they harmed me so much.  Honestly, I am not sure even a million follars would fix this. But  it would help me go on with my life for sure.