I'd had a rough couple years. In the beginning of the year I'd made many progresses.  Since about end of April.  My progress reverted. I've never felt so much like a failure & stuck in my life.   I can't believe I let myself down again.  I need help  can someone help me ?

POLITICS & the state of the world sucked me into a downward spiral.  I began wanting to change things in the world to make a difference & the election became an impetus for me to share my voice on issues of wars & terror around the world.  

I began reading a lot of Noam Chomsky books & Howard Zinn etc.   I think it derailed me --- dreaming of a better world..  Vs. coming to grips and accepting we're stuck in this one..  

I think I made a lot of mistakes..  I didn't look out for myself.  I felt like a martyr to a cause.   I didn't support any of the candidates per se.  I just wanted to raise awareness. 

I lost myself in the deep darkness of the conspiracy etc.   it's not where my vibration was months ago.  

I'm lost -- i need help.