Don’t believe thought stories about awakening & chasing enlightenment. Love is The Truth and is always present, now.    (1) If when you talk about yourself and or your life, it’s “depression, anxiety, anger, self doubt, frustration, worry, boredom, jealousy, blame, resentment, overwhelment, insecurity, guilt, shame, fear, despair, disappointment, dissatisfaction”, etc. And (2) When you talk about enlightenment, it’s “real happiness”, “the answer to my problems”, “when I’ll be happy”, etc.   Your main belief at play is that there are two.  Number 1 has no truth to it at all, zero, and that’s why it feels terrible. Stop repeating that story, or you’ll continue creating suffering. Don’t analyze it, don’t figure it out, don’t give thoughts about it attention at all. It’s dilutive of feeling to continue focusing on what doesn’t feel good, while expecting to feel good.  Number 2 is the truth, which is you, and that’s why it feels wonderful. Stop repeating the story about it being some other thing in the future, or a thing to figure out, or a thing someone else could or does have... or you’ll continue creating suffering. Don’t think about it, don’t strategize about it - relax, feel the body, breathe from the stomach. Be present in seeing, hearing, breathing and feeling.    When you’re complaining that you feel terrible....it is that you are complaining, which feels terrible. The attitude of “I don’t feel good enough”, is why you don’t feel good enough. The perspective that “your life sucks” is why the experience of your life sucks. By the time you’re speaking such, you’ve already believed & repeated thoughts about yourself & life which are not objectively true, but seem true subjectively to “you”. Speaking it reinforces and recreates it. Meditation every morning is great for relaxation and allowing reactional living via attachment to thoughts & retelling the same story of unwanted, to dissipate.   Instead of believing the thought narratives about yourself, others, the past or future, remain present with feeling & breathe, and release emotion. Don’t believe any thought story about releasing emotion, it has nothing to do with thinking. Get out of the way so to speak, so the body can release. Don’t think & talk about how. Silence is most honest & clear. There’s nothing for “you” to do. There is only for “you” to do less - to stop talking about yourself & your life in ways that don’t feel good, and are not aligned with what you want.  When “you” do, or rather - when You no longer do...happiness & love is very obviously ever present. “It” always was - You always are. Yoga is very good for breath-work and the allowing of releasing emotion from the body. Neglecting the body as such, is suppressing emotion, and insures over activity of the mind in a million and one attempts of thinking, to feel better. Feeling can not be thought. Feeling is guidance about thought. Thought is for creating the life you actually want, and contributing to the general well being of this place. Don’t continue poking yourself in the eye with it, use it properly, in it’s proper place of creation creating.