This was my first time ever taking a psychedelic.
I took 2g of magic mushrooms
And here is my experience
After taking it, the first 20 minutes felt like nothing but nauseous.
Then I started to hear vibrations
And it got louder and louder
In my head
And I start to see things moving
I looked at my pillow and the pattern on it is moving like water
This affect intensified in I don't know how long
Time started to slow down for me
I look at myself in the mirror and my face was moving and morphing
I look at my paintings and they are all morphing
I started to question how
And start to ask my self
I closed my eyes and pattern started to come up
Fractals
I am going in and out at the same time
Big and small at the same time
There are infinite things happening all at once
I just keep on going and things just keep on changing
Sounds too
It was overwhelming
Since it is infinite
Like infinite things happening at once
Full of colors
It was beautiful
It's like rabbit hole
You can go on forever
I lost track of time
It felt like forever
I started to feel fear
Fear that I will get lost in this forever
So I opened my eyes
Feeling like I am not in my body and lost
It feels like I took a nap for infinite time
I looked at the clock on my phone
Only 10 mins past
I felt disbelieve
I want it to stop
I was afraid
I didn't want to go back to the loop
But my head was too heavy and I felt really tried
So I closed my eyes
And went through another infinite rabbit hole
I woke up, feeling fear and disbelieve
I got up from my bed and moved up stares
I talked to my dog
And I don’t know how but next thing I know is that I'm on my bed
The time between this was so short to me that I forgot it
I started to question reality
Don't know which one is real or fake
And just as I think about that
I got into another rabbit hole
My concept of self just keep on expending
Infinitely
I woke up again
Only 5 min past
I want this to end
But I realized that this reality might not be real
And I can no longer identify which one is
I started to question if I exist
And went into another rabbit hole
This time I truly let myself go
I no longer hold the concept of self
And I just kept on going down the rabbit hole
And to the point where I felt so infinite that I become time
I opened my eyes
Only 10 minutes past
Didn't want to go back to the rabbit hole
I turned on my phone and started texting my friend
And telling him I am time
And then I instantly went down another rabbit hole
It was only a minute in real life
But I felt like I went through infinity
I felt like I experienced everything in this universe
That I am one with all things
I realize that everything is a lie
And started laughing uncontrollably
I couldn't stop laughing for hours
I was crying at the same time
I was constantly going into the rabbit hole and out
I became everything and time itself
It was so blissful because I realized that everything is just a joke
A brilliant joke that we fooled ourselves with
I am everything
And I lied to my self
To believe that I'm not
Inspiration strikes
I wrote down everything that comes to my mind
And felt extremely happy
And funny
I find everything
Everything!
The good
The bad
All the polarities
Funny as fuck
Because I made all of them
And how fucking brilliant I am
The marvel of creation and existence
I was one with all things
I realized that this life of ours is just a lie
A lie to entertain ourselves
I felt like I was everything
I realized the reason for our existence
And laugh because it all makes sense
It is so simple and stupid that I can't stop laughing
It felt so beautiful and brilliant and complete
That I was crying and laughing
I just kept on writing down the things I felt and experienced
I was high
After I finished, I wanted to experience more
I took a shower
Probably the best shower of my life
I can't stop laughing the whole time
That feeling where I am one with the water
I was the temperature
The touch
The sound
The Smell
The light
Everything
And I got out
This whole time
Time was not right for me
I don’t know how long it was
Because I became time
I went back to my bed and the effect started to go off
I was still in it tho
So I kept on writing and laughing and singing
I was so happy
And truly become aware that I am all things
I did not have that before
I knew it, but I was not aware
Now I am
I took an orange and know that I am it
So I ate it
It was the best orange I have ever eaten
I was high just by eating it
I was so happy
But time started to go back to normal
After 6 hours it is completely gone
But now I have no doubt
I am time and infinity.
I also wrote this poem during the time.
I am the greatest evil.
I took some psychedelic mushrooms today and I wrote this poem.
The poem of everything:
A wise man once said nothing because he knew no matter what he says he is saying it to himself.
He is the sound itself
He is the time
He is everything
He is you
If you are god, you want to be so indescribably beautiful that nobody can fucking describe how beautiful you are that you become everybody.
All arguments are meaningless because you are arguing to yourself.
Is all a joke.
A giant brilliant joke.
Like everything I’m afraid of is me.
You realize just how hard you are trying to fool yourself.
Like time is everything and everything is time.
Time is asking itself what time is
This is so stupid that it is smart.
This is so bad that it is good.
This is so evil that it is holy
This is so beautiful that it is ugly
This is so true that it is a false
This is so brilliant that it is dumb
This is so funny that it is sad
This is so good that it is bad
This is so me that it is others
This is so crazy that it is sane
This is so big that it is small
This is so high that it is low
This is so perfect that it is imperfect
This is so impossible that it is possible
This is so normal that it is a miracle
This is so fun that it is boring
This is so hot that it becomes cold
This is so down that it becomes up
This is so light that it becomes dark
This is so good that it makes you suffer
This is so touching that it makes you cry
This is so life that it becomes who you are
This is so meaningless that it becomes meaningful
This is so great that it becomes evil
This is so much love that it becomes hate
This is so much pain that it becomes the pleasure
This is so hard that it is easy
This is so fast that it becomes slow
This is so great that you want to die
This LIE!!!
All of it!!!
Is so fucking beautiful!!!
Like I am every infinity of a second.
The fact that people pertaining to be like they don’t know each other makes them know each other.
Like you want to make everybody know this is the you.
We are each infinite individuals.
Let’s keep going
This lie called life
Let’s keep going
This lie called time
Let’s keep going
This lie called self
Let’s keep going
This lie call love
Let’s keep playing
This game of lie
At first, you are questioning who you are, then you are questioning who is questioning who you are, then you are questioning who is questioning you questioning who you are.....
To become everything is to become infinity, to become infinity is to become one.
I am the art that is trying to make the art to art themselves.
I am the lie that’s trying to lie to them self so they all think it is true.
Everybody else is just me pretending to be someone else.
We are so enlightened that we unenlightened ourselves.
Like how you wrote this poem just now.