Hello my friends,dont know what to say about the stage of my life im 39 im fat living with my mom Had some programming skills gotta transform this into cash and Live alone for good The initial intention was to become a monk but no monastery was avaliable here em Brazil  now i have 2 lovely cats,they are my life,love them with strenght  I dont have strong erections anymore dont know how its gonna to be if getting a gf Dont feel like going to gym I was diagnosed with Cid f20.0 Paranoid schizophrenia    Im am confused about life, about goals  Im Just BORED with aall ths stuff ive had experimented in life,everybody is rushing,no one gives a fuck..,everything is Hard to get,woman demands lots of conversation i dont have the skills,i like meditating but there is no time for that in my life since my parents are buzzing my.head to make cash and bbe independent,and then it has my cats...the love of my life Ive scheduled a psychologist session next week,until there please give me some insights some advices...   Thanks