Because these are hard things to integrate and hard things to fake. It's hard to fake not being in control of your actions, of viewing yourself from a 3rd person perspective, of your body moving of its own accord. And it's hard to accept not being in control, of not making choices, of not having a life or a future you can decide or want. When there is actually no you and you've seen through identification and it's for real and not some fairytale you're telling yourself, there is no you that can want anything. There is nothing you can do, nothing that can ever be done. You can only be what is eternally present. The words "God", "Love" and "Truth" are glamour words that belie the fact of the Dark Night of the Soul. That you must die for you to be reborn as who you truly are. And that thing has no personal agenda. It does not care about your personal wishes or wants. It is not these things. It is everything. If you have not ran up against the wall of the sheer reality of annihilation of the personal self, forever, for all of eternity. No you, no actions, nothing. Then you are not yet at what is truly True, what is truly Love, what is truly God. Because you are still in the way, projecting shadows on the wall of the cave. To relentlessly go against the light, requires giving up the shadow existence, exiting the comfortable seclusion of the cave and becoming one with the Sun.