I've reached an equilibrium with Dissociatives. I've done much of the theoretical groundwork through binging actualized.org videos and emotional awareness and then used them to dissolve and equalize otherwise rigid subconscious karmic attitudes and operate from a clear frame of mind again. Now with all these barriers down, I am tempted to increase my overall awareness and explore the morphing experiential, sensual and metaphysical nature of raw consciousness again and expand my frame of mind. I'd like some suggestions, practices you found to be deeply meaningful in your experience, pointers to philosophical self-understanding, emotional mastery, physical exercises, yogic scriptures, breath techniques. And also I'd like for you to tell me about the most scary trips and nightmares you know of, for me to process, face, experience and make peace with before and as a preparation for the trip to push my limits now and then experientially integrate them. In fact, can you list me significant milestones from your journeys for me to contemplate, pointers to focus on, and ego-defense mechanisms to learn about? Can you list me sensations to focus on when tripping and ideas, perspectives and paradigms to integrate?   Why do I wanna trip / use psychedelics? To accelerate, expand and intensify my perception and dissolve boundaries, to expand the understanding of what I am and am capable of experiencing, to explore the nature of reality that would otherwise take very long. Now, if instead you know other practices without the need for psychedelics that can do that, then I welcome these whole-heartedly. It's just that travelling the world or interacting with the external environment, while being a great horizontal expansion, doesn't go into the depth and detail of my experience, which is what I really seek, to intensify present experience and uncover unaware biases.