I'm in tears right now writing this. It fully hit me. THIS IS IT. As I am writing this, this is it. My writing is it. My crying is it. It is right here right now. Unfolding as I write. NOW NOW NOW. When I wrote the words NOW, NOW, NOW that was it, but now it is these words. Words that can never be captured. Each letter is a millisecond too long. The camera can't capture it. This is it. There is no moment. No Now, just now, now, now, now, now, now, to infinity. Not even forever because I,m not in forever, I'm right now. I don't know about forever. I remember a minute ago but I don't know about what I will do in 3mins. It us only NOW, I can imagine what might happen in 3 min but I don't know what ill be doing in 3 min. There is only now and i just missed it because now is another now and that now just turned into this now. It is me, yes me. It is me writing this, I am confused. Is it the chair also I don't know wait, it is not me I don't know. All I know is it is here nit there. It is here. You will say, well if there's a me then thats not it. Bullshit i font care about semantics I don't know what words to use all I know is it is whats happening right now, right where I am sitting, I don't know how to say it but it is this. My cat just went outside but she isn't infront of me so I cannot say my cat is a part of this but I can say that it is live right now doing me. It is whats happening now. It is not you, it is me writing on this computer. IT is me imagining you. It is me imagining that you will read this. It is me imagining what you will say but its nit you right now. It is me writing this imagining what I will be saying and typing when I'm responding. It is doing this through me as me. I am conscious that it is doing this through me. Its like a live show. It is there too but not really because it is here. But if you look around you it is it. Whatever is happening around you now it is it. But I'm just imagining that so i don't know.  I will post now.