Dying

[nuwu]

It’s the end for my physical avatar. I’m too retarded to survive in this realm.

Have severe heart palpitations, shortness of breath, tremors, fainting, … And it suddenly got much worse. Not found anything in blood test yet. I have suspicions for Lyme

Any idea of compounds I could be able to take in this instant allowing the thing pretending to be me feeling better (other than 5-MEO-DMT)? Minerals, vitamins, chelating agents, … It’s nighttime and last time I went to emergency room it didn’t help much but I don’t know. Is death the same as dissolving in infinity or I should kamikaze my consciousness with psychedelics

Anyway the void something something nothing nothing love 

Edited March 22 by nuwu

[nuwu]

I’m seriously not feeling well right now. I don’t want to say what’s going to happen to me explicitly to avoid negativity but…

Please say something

I’m sorry @KH2 @Osaid

Edited March 22 by nuwu

[Osaid]

I'm not really sure what you're going through, but maybe some simple easy-to-digest source of energy could help, like simple carbs and electrolytes. Nutritionally, they should both aid in energy levels and cardiovascular activity. If anything, the carbs could lower your cortisol levels if you feel overly stressed and anxious. You'd be surprised how well something as simple as consuming carbs could work for your mood and energy. So, something like juice, milk, or nut milks. Sip it slowly and carefully if you feel like it.

Hang in there. I know how it feels to seemingly be at the mercy of your physical health. Maybe listen to some nature ambience as well to calm yourself.

Edited March 22 by Osaid

[nuwu]

@Osaid Thank you for responding. My digestive health is horrible and I’m struggling hard to get adequate caloric intake (~ 1200 cal/d lately). Every times I eat anything I feel horrible. Now I feel numb and with no energy whatsoever. I can’t even hold my phone straight in the bed. I’m suffocating and forgetting to breath. I have long-term insomnia (valerian and melatonin makes me feel like dying which is too stressful). I feel cold. I can’t think straight. I’m hopeless.

Thank you again. If I’m not funposting tomorrow I’m dead.

Edited March 22 by nuwu

[Osaid]

36 minutes ago, nuwu said:

Every times I eat anything I feel horrible. Now I feel numb and with no energy whatsoever.

I see. I bet a lot of of your "feeling bad" is lack of nutrition, probably electrolyte imbalances and what not.

I don't know if you've tried before, but if I were you, I would still take my advice. Get milk or juice or something, but drink it very very slowly and keep watch of how it makes you feel when you do it. It will be much easier on your body to digest when you take tiny sips and when you're also taking it slowly at your own pace. Coconut water, fruit juice, or nut milk would be ideal. That's what I would personally try. These things are the easiest for your body to digest quickly.

If anything, you could at least have some kind of lemon water with low-sodium salt or normal salt (low-sodium is ideal cause it has more electrolytes) so that you can have something to sip on from time to time. I doubt that should be too difficult for your body to handle.

Also, tell a doctor or something if you haven't already, about the fact that you can't digest things and get nutrients. This seems like a pretty multi-faceted problem, so it would be nice to corner certain aspects of it down with a doctor or something and then go from there.

36 minutes ago, nuwu said:

Thank you again. If I’m not funposting tomorrow I’m dead.

If you stop funposting I might as well be dead, too. Hang in there, we need you.

Edited March 22 by Osaid

[thepixelmonk]

wtf noooo feel better nuwu~

[nuwu]

Still alive

@Osaid I was desperate and tried eating eggs. I'm not sure why, or if it's just a coincidence, but I actually feel having more energy, after months of disintegration. I've been eating plant-based for years but I'm aware there are some limitations (albeit weird because I already tried the obvious protein supplements. is there such things as too low cholesterol? I should try sources of collagen, I've heard it helps the heart and repairing damages from inflammations). I'm still experiencing chest pains but I don't feel unsafe now. I also tried coconut water and lemon juice but I can't digest nut milk because of oxalates. Doctors always told me these issues are caused by anxiety. And I always let my fears grow until the problems are too massive to be recovered from.

18 hours ago, Osaid said:

we need you

Thank you.

@thepixelmonk Thank you.

Edited March 22 by nuwu

[Osaid]

1 hour ago, nuwu said:

I was desperate and tried eating eggs. I'm not sure why, or if it's just a coincidence, but I actually feel having more energy, after months of disintegration.

I've also noticed an energy boost when eating eggs. It makes sense since it's so nutritious.

1 hour ago, nuwu said:

I can't digest nut milk because of oxalates

Oh damn, I didn't know nuts were a source of oxalates since I eat them so much without any digestion issues. When it comes to stuff like spinach, oxalates are much more noticeable for me.

1 hour ago, nuwu said:

I've been eating plant-based for years but I'm aware there are some limitations (albeit weird because I already tried the obvious protein supplements. is there such things as too low cholesterol?

It's probably not macros like protein that you need, but micro-nutrients that are hard to get in vegan diets, like zinc or choline. Animal nutrients tend to be more bioavailable too.

Cholesterol is essential for cell and hormone function, so it is possible to be low in it since there is a certain amount of it that your body always has to maintain, but usually your body tries to produce enough of it internally.

If you want something that is fatty and nutritious, kind of like eggs, I would recommend avocadoes. It's vegan, and it also has a bunch of potassium, which is an important electrolyte.

1 hour ago, nuwu said:

Still alive

Nice!

[Yimpa]

<3

[nuwu]

@Osaid

I feel terrible and unsafe again. I'm not sure if eggs helps unless from cholesterol, energy, or some non-reductionist substances. I've already tried zinc and choline supplements. I don't know if the issue comes from macro, micro-nutrients, or both. But I feel helpless, cornered by Hexheimer and severe chronic illness. I'm stupid for not pushing more medicine practitioners to help me, but I'm stuck in fears, perpetual depression and extreme negligence about survival. I was bitten by a tick >1 year ago with skin rash, and got prescribed one month of Doxycylcine, which I assume should've been enough. I'm worried.

I'm very sensitive to oxalates so there are lots of plants I'm not able to digest.

@Yimpa

Thank you nothingness. I love you too.

[Gadasaa]

@nuwu have you had Covid? 

[Osaid]

On 3/24/2023 at 11:42 AM, nuwu said:

@Osaid

I feel terrible and unsafe again. I'm not sure if eggs helps unless from cholesterol, energy, or some non-reductionist substances. I've already tried zinc and choline supplements. I don't know if the issue comes from macro, micro-nutrients, or both. But I feel helpless, cornered by Hexheimer and severe chronic illness. I'm stupid for not pushing more medicine practitioners to help me, but I'm stuck in fears, perpetual depression and extreme negligence about survival. I was bitten by a tick >1 year ago with skin rash, and got prescribed one month of Doxycylcine, which I assume should've been enough. I'm worried.

I'm very sensitive to oxalates so there are lots of plants I'm not able to digest.

Weird, I somehow missed your notification.

So zinc and choline didn't really do anything, that's good that you tried it out so now you know it's not the culprit.

I looked into it, and it seems avocadoes do have oxalates (19mg per one avocado), so disregard my previous suggestion. Maybe you absorbed eggs really well because it has no oxalates or any anti-nutrients, as is often found in vegetables.

If I were you, I would drink milk/coconut water for electrolytes, and then eat eggs for nutrients. Some low-oxalate vegetables you can try are cucumber (4mg oxalates per 1 medium cucumber) and cauliflower (half cup cooked has 2.7mg oxalates). Cauliflower is pretty nutritious. You can sprinkle salt and lemon on the cucumbers for a really refreshing and electrolyte-rich snack. Fruits are good as well. That's close to the best you can do nutrition-wise, without overloading your body. I don't know if you're able to handle milk or not, up to you. Electrolytes are essential for proper energy levels and cardiovascular function which is why I highlight it so much, they can make a big difference. Also, intuitively pay attention to how all these foods make you feel, your body is smart and has its own intelligence. It will crave certain things and reject certain things.

Get info from your doctor and see what they find, and then also research yourself what they find, and then work on fixing it.

Edited March 29 by Osaid