Trapped between scattered ego and no-mind

[effortlesslumen]

My ego is fractured, desperately clinging on different pieces of itself , switching between high selfestteem and low self worth. I sometimes feel like a hollow shell trapped between ego archetypes and no-self while being the watcher of it all what shall i do? Does this make sense to anyone? If yes, can someone with a higher insight than mine give me some serious advice. Would be very thankfull for input.

[effortlesslumen]

Its hard to describe so the labels of the words might not fit in their entirety. Also Im 100 %certain that it isnt a mental issue. Cause it might sound like it.

Edited December 21, 2022 by effortlesslumen

[Godishere]

How old are you? Sounds like a pretty normal thing that most people go through in early 20s man. It takes a few years to figure out who you are and what makes you happy. 

I would recommend exercising daily. Running/lifting, eating well, getting good sleep. Taking care of your basic needs first. Spend some time in solitude going for long walks.

[Nilsi]

If you sometimes experience yourself as the "ego" and sometimes as the "no-self self," yet the you remains constant, then what are you really?

Edited December 21, 2022 by Nilsi

[effortlesslumen]

27 minutes ago, Nilsi said:

If you sometimes experience yourself as the "ego" and sometimes as the "no-self self," yet the you remains constant, then what are you really?

Sometimes an aware ego and sometimes an unaware one.

Edited December 21, 2022 by effortlesslumen

[effortlesslumen]

Thanks for the anwsers. I might created this pattern unwillingly but this post showed that im staying in it willingly. Maybe an unconscious fear of letting go of the self.

[Schizophonia]

What do you mean by "between ego archetypes and no-self" ?

[effortlesslumen]

17 hours ago, Schizophonia said:

What do you mean by "between ego archetypes and no-self" ?

I was completely wrong , the believe i had correlating to this was bigger than it actually is. I wanted to describe it as something between the ego and the no-mind, but even if there is such a thing, it is certainly not the problem im having. Thats why i wont be too hasty  posting something  the nex time.