As I lay awake at 3:14 pm, I cannot sleep for I am not tired. Three years of inquiry, lead to a spontaneous 40% awakening that scared the shit out of me, and I promised to never do it again, yet my mind is the definition of curiosity killed the cat (ego). This has happened a few times at night now, deeper each time, assuming it is because my brain relaxes when I am trying to fall asleep, but instead of sleeping…. BOOM. Detachment from the body. Freaky as hell. But what comes next is indeed VERY present. All of the bodily stress: stress in the face, sinuses, back, shoulders, muscles, and (craziest of all), the BRAIN just disappears. It is as if I have been flexing my brain ever since the end of childhood and could not find a way to stop, until now. To actually be able to UNFLEX you brain is the calmest feeling, and all of those pesky background noise thoughts just disappear, and you can focus so much more greatly in the present moment. I am not tired because of how relaxed my brain is. I’m seeing things the way I did as a kid again. Stress is PHYSICALLY not allowed in this state. Maybe I will go further, we shall see. I have to surrender more first, sometimes I am afraid to let go.