Blackhawk

Bad trip on LSD

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29 minutes ago, Blackhawk said:

In my opinion psychedelics are just poison. Direct path to delusion and insanity, imo. This opinion comes from my own experience.

The trip with 2cb was very bad too.

It's because of you people that all this happened, and now you are trying to convince me to take more psychedelics..

No more.

Things are more clear to me now. I now know better which side I'm on.

i see you didn't said a word about the core of what i said. instead you reacted on the word 'psychedelics'. clearly don't ever touch them again. your problem is your belief system. you believe that there is something out there to make you happy, name it as you like. there isn't. every time you will get disappointed. 

don't present your narrow perspective as absolute truth. 

learn to take responsibility for your actions. you create your reality. don't blame others.

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@Blackhawk ok sorry to tell you but you seem immature for your age the more I read your comments. Blaming this forum for your bad experience is one hint for this. Overreacting like losing your Job (police dont know anything about lsd) is another. You will keep your Job for sure, no one loses his Truck driver Job because of a medical emergency. It even not happened at your Job. I am not from your country but still feel you just dramatize

130 micro is a good starter dose. Why you still fucked up must be found in yourself and not in this forum. You just seem too immature for psychedelics 

 

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Guys please stop with your projections, how you react to psychedelics is nothing you can control and some people react way stronger than you guys do so stfu.

@Salvijus

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19 hours ago, Blackhawk said:

How would you know whether the experience was delusion or not? I can't see how you could know.

And my trip had other stuff which clearly were delusional.

So I'm pretty sure that my trip didn't show the truth.

Its very simple. Right now you are aware. Anything outside of aware, is delusion. Shapes colors, smells, sensations they are all delusions because they come and go. What never goes? Awareness. You can't even say sleep is a loss of awareness because you are aware you went to sleep, which you can only do if you are still aware. 

Once you realize that you are awareness, then you realize you cannot die, and nothing can actually harm you. Once you realize that....then you can experience any trip and not be bothered by it. But you cannot conceptualize this, you need to KNOW this from the depths of your being.

That is what God Realization is, that your being, your awareness is all that is there. Psychedelics help you reach it by getting you to drop attachments, mainly to your identity such as to the body, sight, hearing, smelling, feeling, none of that is you, its an expression of you, but not you. You are just awareness, the background of all sensations. 

Its that simple. 


The same strength, the same level of desire it takes to change your life, is the same strength, the same level of desire it takes to end your life. Notice you are headed towards one or the other. - Razard86

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28 minutes ago, Michael Jackson said:

Guys please stop with your projections, how you react to psychedelics is nothing you can control and some people react way stronger than you guys do so stfu.

@Salvijus

@OBEler @stefm5

You are always in control, even when you think you are not. I left out some stuff that happened when I had God realization. What I discovered is any lack of control is an illusion. If you surrender to what is, you will always be in control. Our inability to be in control comes from resistance. 

I'm not saying it is easy to do, because it is divergent from our natural conditioning. But if we look at any situation we have ever had, resistance to what is always lies at the heart the center of it. 

No offense by the way I predicted this would probably happen because to take psychedelics safely you cannot be someone who desires to be in control. Psychedelics main thing is they take you for a trip, of which you have little control but the secret is they actually reveal how reality works if you pay close attention, and I mean REALLY close attention.

Don't get lost in the visuals or the sensations. Pay attention to how your thoughts, beliefs, emotions and resistance influence the trip. It will reveal to you that your "life" works the exact same way. So if you are depressed and your depression lies on control, a psychedelic will scare the shit out of you especially if you are searching for the truth. If you just want to have fun and feel love it will give you that.

A psychedelic is the ultimate mirror, it only gives your reflection. Now with all that said.... I think we need to encourage micro dosing first if people wanna try it. We shouldn't encourage EGO DEATH so much. Because honestly...nothing is scarier than Ultimate Truth for the EGO lol.

 


The same strength, the same level of desire it takes to change your life, is the same strength, the same level of desire it takes to end your life. Notice you are headed towards one or the other. - Razard86

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3 hours ago, ZenAlex said:

You do realise that psychotic symptoms can make it so hallucinations/delusions become indistinguishable from reality right?

Yes, but which point are you making? He described an experience which I've had hundreds of times while completely sober and perfectly functional. Am I just psychotic? 😂


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1 hour ago, Michael Jackson said:

Guys please stop with your projections, how you react to psychedelics is nothing you can control and some people react way stronger than you guys do so stfu.

@Salvijus

@OBEler @stefm5

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9 hours ago, Razard86 said:

You are always in control, even when you think you are not. I left out some stuff that happened when I had God realization. What I discovered is any lack of control is an illusion. If you surrender to what is, you will always be in control. Our inability to be in control comes from resistance. 

I'm not saying it is easy to do, because it is divergent from our natural conditioning. But if we look at any situation we have ever had, resistance to what is always lies at the heart the center of it. 

I know that absolutely speaking you are God, which means that everything absolute perfection, beauty, completeness and your own creation but it's not appropriate to apply absolute logic to relative phanomenon.

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I'll say what needs to be said.

This guy needs therapy, not 'Truth'.

@Blackhawk Sorry to hear what you went through.

Your initial posts in this thread mention two things:

  • Can't have a tripsitter because I don't know anyone
  • I have "naturally bad nerves"

Not knowing anyone is a sign of depression and bad nerves means you have anxiety.

Not the exact recipe for a good 'set' before this trip - I'm surprised how many people missed that and just encouraged you to go into it, while there's clear signs that your mental health is not in order and you don't have a good support system.

Don't blame the community though - you did this together. No one can convince you that a dose of LSD will fix you if you don't convince yourself first.

When you've had some time to take a breath and recover - please look into healing, especially therapy forms that address childhood trauma, rather than spirituality and 'Truth', because that seems to be just not what you need right now.


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@flowboy People have always told me that I need therapy..  I have tried that, it didn't help.

I don't have any childhood trauma.

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19 minutes ago, Salvijus said:

@Blackhawk u need grace, i bet u haven't tried that yet.

🙄

So, how does that work?

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58 minutes ago, Blackhawk said:

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So, how does that work?

Life is a matrix of things influencing each other in mililon different ways. Some forces are negative and can impact in a very negative way. Simply entering certain spaces can make a person depressed for no reason. 

Similary there are forces that can influence your life in a very positive way. Just try to be in nature or on the beach and swim, u'll see all the negatively will get washed away and u will feel fresh and amazing.

Forces that are not of nature but of enlightened masters is called grace. Receiving the grace of an enlightened master can make your life blossom like rainbows in the stars. 

This not lala land talk, I seriously invite u to experience what is grace for yourself and how drastically it can change your life. U just need to find a spiritual master u find some affinity with and allow yourself some leap of faith and trust that im not full of bullshit. 😀 

Inner engineering program by sadhguru is probably the most realistic and accessible option that i can think of (tho not the only one) to experience what im talking about. It would blow your mind away that u didn't know smth like this existed and how easy it is to be happy.

I hope u don't dismiss this as total bs and allow some open mindedness for these words to sink in.

🙏

 

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@Salvijus I have done Sadhgurus inner engineering program. It didn't help.

I don't know how to "receive grace" from someone else.

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22 minutes ago, Blackhawk said:

@Salvijus I have done Sadhgurus inner engineering program. It didn't help.

I don't know how to "receive grace" from someone else.

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Hey Blackhawk, you said you dont have any childhood trauma, this is highly wrong. 

Everyone experiences childhood trauma, at least your birth brings trauma to any human. 

It could be that you simply blocked the memory of traumas which happened to you. 

You could be mental unstable from the beginning. Analyse why. Depression maybe? 

 

 

 

 

 

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54 minutes ago, Blackhawk said:

I don't know how to "receive grace" from someone else.

Same way u receive the positive warm life giving energies from the Sun while sunbathing. U don't have to do anything but it helps if u leave the house to lie on the beach. Lying on the beach would be equivalent to attending isha program and receiving transmittions.

I have a feeling u only did online video lessons not the real thing yet. 

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1 hour ago, Salvijus said:

@Blackhawk really? Shambhavi mahamudra kriya u got initiated?

I don't know what that is.

And I'm not gonna do Kriya yoga, I have tried that too, didn't help.

1 hour ago, OBEler said:

@Blackhawk @Blackhawk @Michael Jackson @Razard86@Razard86 - - bug

Hey Blackhawk, you said you dont have any childhood trauma, this is highly wrong. 

Everyone experiences childhood trauma, at least your birth brings trauma to any human. 

It could be that you simply blocked the memory of traumas which happened to you. 

You could be mental unstable from the beginning. Analyse why. Depression maybe? 

Sigh.. okay.

50 minutes ago, Salvijus said:

Same way u receive the positive warm life giving energies from the Sun while sunbathing. U don't have to do anything but it helps if u leave the house to lie on the beach. Lying on the beach would be equivalent to attending isha program and receiving transmittions.

I have a feeling u only did online video lessons not the real thing yet. 

Yes I did online video lessons.

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17 minutes ago, Blackhawk said:

Yes I did online video lessons

Duuude, you're missing out on so much. You're one step away from an oasis of happyness. U should finish your inner engineering program by completing the shambhavi mahamudra kriya practice. 

The end of sorrow is so close. Don't delay your freedom friend. I stand 100% when i say that happyness is real and easy to get to. And you're really close to it.

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@Salvijus is Shambhavi mahamudra online initiation also powerful? When do you see changes?

 

I will do this program by sadghuru one day

@BlackhawkYou just sound total depressed. You really need help

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