How to cope with ego disillusion and maintain interactions with peers and society

[TruthSoldier]

As I continue this work, more and more parts of the ego drop away and leave behind a non reactive quiet space of inner stillness and bliss. The nuances of interaction with and between peers in society becomes increasingly clear. I notice the petty games and personalities others play, the subconscious survival driven behaviour that drives anxiety and arguments and bias, the expectations placed on my world view and behaviour, and my non reactivity confuses and irritates people. Sometimes I feel forced to laugh or react in standard ways just to play the game and fit in, then I notice within me that the choice for me to play that game is just another survival driven subtle fear based decision. I feel increasingly different and distant from the norms of society. I feel good. But I don't quite know how to navigate this and still maintain normality in my daily relationships and activities.

 

any advice or guidance here would be greatly appreciated.

[TruthSoldier]

Also forgot to mention as people notice changes in my personality they don't know what to make of it. My boss may think I am depressed or have things going on in my life as he sees i am less reactive, less emotional, less eccentric; more steady, Calm, content. Others see this too and constantly ask me i I am okay. I just feel peaceful. And I dont quite know how to make them feel or understand that, without sounding like a weirdo spouting things they cant understand. Any tips for dealing with this?

[Cathal]

whos worried about being a weirdo?

[tlowedajuicemayne]

@TruthSoldier IME Practice is not about becoming like stone. It is not about achieving stillness and remaining in it or becoming non-reactive or becoming distinguishable from any other human being. Good Practice is dynamic and responsive, it is not stiff and lifeless. If your practice is getting stiff and lifeless, then you may want to take a break and try not actively practicing for a while etc. See how your practice holds up when you aren't sitting. Thats what helped me atleast. Take some time and go enjoy the world, get back in touch with your body and your social skills. Enlightenment will be there for you when you're ready. Until then, take it easy

[TruthSoldier]

@tlowedajuicemayne thanks this is good advice I will try it.