Enlightenment part 2 + healing updates

[wellbranding]

So, roughly a month has passed since the previous update... Guess what, just 20 minutes ago I had this experience once more time. So as you know I was diagnosed with pericarditis after 2 Moderna covid vaccine shot ( I am 22 years old male, was very athletic before). During that time I learned about energy healing, bought a 500 dollars course, and did energy healing on myself ( as well as prescribed medicine + anti-inflammatory diet). Went to a doctor on Monday, we did a heart performance test, where I needed to cycle for a given time to see how my heart adapts to stress. The doctor concluded that I am healed and can continue exercising. I don't feel pain at all, so it seems that my acute pericarditis has been healed. I am still waiting for the MRI on December 11, which will conclude it finally. I am confident I am fully treated. Ok enough about that.

 

So today is the 4 days since I did not jerk off. As I mentioned in the first post the semen is very very important to me. So I watched porn, masturbated without ejaculations, and had an internal orgasm (basically an orgasm without ejaculation). After that about 2 hours later I started meditating. Basically, it took me 5-10 minutes to again experience direct consciousness. My physical ego presence disappeared, the fear returned, my heart started pounding to the point I thought I will definitely die this time. I was infinite consciousness for about a minute. During that time, the time stopped for sure. However, I could return, like willingly holding onto my body. After the experience passed, my apple watch showed 130 beats ( during that time, it was definitely 160-180 beats). Still, the feeling that I am everything persists. The energy in my head, also when I close my eyes it is very difficult to stay in the body. 

 

During this month, I read the Sadhguru book: "Enlightenment an inside story". He explicitly mentions in the book. This is the excerpt from the book:

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“Sadhguru: If you are not aware of this, I would say for 90% of the people, their moment of Enlightenment and the moment of leaving the body are the same. You will never see them again. Only a few people have the possibility of keeping the body even after Enlightenment, for a certain period of time. Otherwise, there may be only some time, maybe one or two hours, maybe four hours of extra time, that is all. Beyond that, they cannot keep it.

“Very few people retain their body because they know the tricks of the body, they know the mechanics of the body to hold on to it. Otherwise, the moment of realization and the moment of leaving the body is same. Generally it is only people who are on the path of Kriya Yoga who can hold on to the body because they understand the mechanics of the body. They know all the tricks of the body so they hold on to the body.”

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Excerpt From

Enlightenment an inside story

Sadhguru

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I never heard @Leo Gura address it. Why is that? Do you know about this?

 

So what did I decide? Since I am 22 years old, have my financials set, I don't want my physical body to stop functioning due to full enlightenment. I will do the kriya yoga for now fully and stop meditating or even coming close to that. I would definitely welcome any guidance from people who are fully enlightened or who experienced this. I may sound angry, I am not. Actually, I just understood how grateful should I be to come this far... Even writing this it is very difficult to not merge with infinite consciousness again. It seems if I wanted I could.

 

Edited November 19, 2021 by wellbranding

[Seraphim]

If Sadhguru says that most people die after self-realization then he must be talking about a level of enlightenment far beyond that which many non-duality teachers talk about. I don't know if you have noticed this but most spiritual paths begin with enlightening the mind and emotions, and the final stage is to enlighten the body. The rainbow-body in Buddhism, ascension in the new-age/channeling teachings, light-body in some yogic teachings, etc. Since you are on this type of path I think you should have the guidance of a teacher who really knows what he is doing, and yes Sadhguru's teachings are probably great, always follow your intuition.

I'm on this type of path too, to prepare us for it my teacher has made us go through several initiations and many spiritual transmissions etc, and he only selected people who he knows can handle it. He says that it is as close to dying as you can come without dying, and that sometimes it can feel like the heart is about to explode from all the energy, I have felt this myself, I was able to move the energy down into the dantian which made it better.

[mandyjw]

You already have no inner or outer. Nor does anyone else. No one is outside you.  Meditation is just the opportunity to focus on this wonder of no inner not outer, which isn't done but already is and is realized by dropping the thoughts that say there IS an inside or an outside. "I am the inside, the world is the outside." It's far more mundane and immediate than you imagine it to be and far more wonderful and unimaginable. 

Edited November 19, 2021 by mandyjw

[Consilience]

3 hours ago, mandyjw said:

It's far more mundane and immediate than you imagine it to be and far more wonderful and unimaginable. 

This.

Ego, no ego. Can we be directly conscious in the moment of total self fixation? 

Don’t really resonate with Sadguru’s description of Enlightenment. Sounds way too conditional, specific, exclusive. 

Really happy to hear the energy work and other modalities worked out and that you’re in a healthier state! Seriously huge ? 

Edited November 20, 2021 by Consilience

[wellbranding]

6 hours ago, Consilience said:

This.

Ego, no ego. Can we be directly conscious in the moment of total self fixation? 

Don’t really resonate with Sadguru’s description of Enlightenment. Sounds way too conditional, specific, exclusive. 

Really happy to hear the energy work and other modalities worked out and that you’re in a healthier state! Seriously huge ? 

Thank you! Yes heart inflammation was very challenging for me  I am not against vaccines per say, but after Sweden has banned moderna for young people, it is very clear that it is not suitable for young people. Or maybe it was just all part of the greater plan, which in return taught me about all energy work, which I might have not found otherwise. 

[wellbranding]

16 hours ago, Seraphim said:

If Sadhguru says that most people die after self-realization then he must be talking about a level of enlightenment far beyond that which many non-duality teachers talk about. I don't know if you have noticed this but most spiritual paths begin with enlightening the mind and emotions, and the final stage is to enlighten the body. The rainbow-body in Buddhism, ascension in the new-age/channeling teachings, light-body in some yogic teachings, etc. Since you are on this type of path I think you should have the guidance of a teacher who really knows what he is doing, and yes Sadhguru's teachings are probably great, always follow your intuition.

I'm on this type of path too, to prepare us for it my teacher has made us go through several initiations and many spiritual transmissions etc, and he only selected people who he knows can handle it. He says that it is as close to dying as you can come without dying, and that sometimes it can feel like the heart is about to explode from all the energy, I have felt this myself, I was able to move the energy down into the dantian which made it better.

wow thanks! Have you found your teacher online, or is it a live practice? 

[Seraphim]

5 hours ago, wellbranding said:

wow thanks! Have you found your teacher online, or is it a live practice? 

He is only known in the pranic-living communities, there are many great teachers there but they never become well-known, because few people can accept that pranic-living is possible. It's the same with the scientists who break through the frontiers and discover things that bridge science and spirituality, people aren't ready for it yet. However, your experience with merging with infinite consciousness seems intense and rare and I don't think many teachers would know how to guide you through it properly, I guess you will see how the kriya yoga feels and if it gives you the understanding of your body that Sadhguru said you need in order to keep your body. If it doesn't work then maybe you need a teacher who works with their intuition or psychic abilities to give information for you specifically, or someone who has experienced this and knows how to handle it. I bet Jivanmukti knows, Siddhanta yoga on youtube, I had a private session on skype with her a few years ago and she was very intuitive and told me things about myself that I needed to know.

 

Edited November 20, 2021 by Seraphim

[wellbranding]

3 minutes ago, Seraphim said:

He is only known in the pranic-living communities, there are many great teachers there but they never become well-known, because few people can accept that pranic-living is possible. It's the same with the scientists who break through the frontiers and discover things that bridge science and spirituality, people aren't ready for it yet. However, your experience with merging with infinite consciousness seems intense and rare and I don't think many teachers would know how to guide you through it properly, I guess you will see how the kriya yoga feels and if it gives you the understanding of your body that Sadhguru said you need in order to keep your body. If it doesn't work then maybe you need a teacher who works with their intuition or psychic abilities to give information for you specifically, or someone who has experienced this and knows how to handle it. I bet Jivanmukti knows, Siddhanta yoga on youtube, I had a private session on skype with her a few years ago and she was very intuitive and told me things about myself that I needed to know.

 

wow thank you! Will check them