I let my mind wander and I enjoyed it more than actual meditation

[opeli]

I fear I am developing a bad habit. So I've been trying meditation on and off for the past little while, but I just can't seem to get into it

So today I figured I'd give it another try. I got a few minutes into it and my mind wanted to wander more and more, so finally I thought fine, we'll take a short break and take off the leash. It was ecstasy. I felt like I was a kid again on a road trip just staring out the window, thinking about anything and everything as countless hours of farmland rolled by.

The odd thing is, I had some profound thoughts during this time, much like the kind people post about here. I continued this until the end of my meditation session and it was great.

Is this a bad habit? Are those profound thoughts a red herring, my id making an attempt to seduce me? I fear that if I go too far down this path it will become harder to do actual meditation. At the same time, I sometimes question if I'll ever really get into meditation because I often find it a chore :/. Letting thoughts pass and focusing on your body is tough for me

[HypnoticMagician]

You seem to be a true newbie regardless of how many posts belonging to you exist. This bizarre conclusion you came to is false and your reasoning is flawed. Bu it is normal for beginners like you. Just do not give up trying. Also do not insist on constantly using the same method either because the method you are using is silly or because you are not well prepared for that specific method.

[gettoefl]

meditation is better if it feels good ... one of my best meditations is to get in bed during the day and chill

[Guest EmptyVase]

@opeli

Sounds all good if you ask me.

[BipolarGrowth]

1 hour ago, opeli said:

I fear I am developing a bad habit. So I've been trying meditation on and off for the past little while, but I just can't seem to get into it

So today I figured I'd give it another try. I got a few minutes into it and my mind wanted to wander more and more, so finally I thought fine, we'll take a short break and take off the leash. It was ecstasy. I felt like I was a kid again on a road trip just staring out the window, thinking about anything and everything as countless hours of farmland rolled by.

The odd thing is, I had some profound thoughts during this time, much like the kind people post about here. I continued this until the end of my meditation session and it was great.

Is this a bad habit? Are those profound thoughts a red herring, my id making an attempt to seduce me? I fear that if I go too far down this path it will become harder to do actual meditation. At the same time, I sometimes question if I'll ever really get into meditation because I often find it a chore :/. Letting thoughts pass and focusing on your body is tough for me

If you don’t enjoy it in some way, you won’t do it enough for it to work on you. Let this go for a while, and in a couple weeks, try using a regular focus object such as your breath or a repeating sound in the room to pay attention to instead of the thoughts. You can also try guided and music meditations starting out. 

Edited October 20, 2021 by BipolarGrowth

[Fearless_Bum]

@opeli good! Let the mind go crazy, like sit down and melt into the chaos.

Let thought be free, trust it to work without You needing to do something about it. Eventually in its freedom, thought remembers its own innocence and rests as itself in itself (sounds confusing I know). 

The BIGGEST mistake people make is thinking that meditation is about forcing yourself into some state of sharp focus and calm. 

[Nahm]

@opeli

Why are you meditating in the first place?

[RickyFitts]

3 hours ago, Fearless_Bum said:

The BIGGEST mistake people make is thinking that meditation is about forcing yourself into some state of sharp focus and calm. 

Completely agree with this - I like Adyashanti's take on it: 'True meditation isn't about mastering a technique, it's about letting go of control'. He also gives the simple instruction in relation to meditation to 'allow everything to be as it is', which is the most effective approach for my money.

[opeli]

On 10/20/2021 at 3:16 PM, opeli said:

I fear I am developing a bad habit. So I've been trying meditation on and off for the past little while, but I just can't seem to get into it

So today I figured I'd give it another try. I got a few minutes into it and my mind wanted to wander more and more, so finally I thought fine, we'll take a short break and take off the leash. It was ecstasy. I felt like I was a kid again on a road trip just staring out the window, thinking about anything and everything as countless hours of farmland rolled by.

The odd thing is, I had some profound thoughts during this time, much like the kind people post about here. I continued this until the end of my meditation session and it was great.

Is this a bad habit? Are those profound thoughts a red herring, my id making an attempt to seduce me? I fear that if I go too far down this path it will become harder to do actual meditation. At the same time, I sometimes question if I'll ever really get into meditation because applinked I often find it a chore :/. Letting thoughts pass and focusing on your body is tough for me

Thanks everyone for the openions.

Edited October 22, 2021 by opeli
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