@Leo Gura It concerns me that you seem to not fully understand the impact that your videos can have. I have had experiences like yours even naturally. I had a long period of time in my life where I couldn't look someone in the eyes without feeling like I was going to fall into them. I have also been able to merge with others. I also have had a near death experience and taken lsd and mushrooms where I was able to see that God was simultaneously being created by and constantly creating the individual. Hard to express but it was like cells in a body constantly dying and regenerating.  This was one of my first lsd trips. Even with all of these experiences I feel that the bible and Jesus's teachings have a better understanding of what is going on here. To claim to understand God fully in my opinion is delusion and arrogance. I think you are in dangerous territory my friend. I have experienced actual evil and have felt my heart turn completely cold and had to call out to God I am telling you there is something outside of us and its our hearts that connect us to that love and to God.   I understand what you are saying in your videos but telling teenagers that someone they deeply love isn't "real" is very very dangerous and it honestly infuriates me. I think you need to understand the impact your videos can have. Just because from an ultimate sense this life is just a blip does not mean it doesn't have meaning for the individual. Loving your wife is real, loving your children is real, and its why we are here! God did not create all of this just to bypass it or lessen the experience of it and the beauty of it.  You are missing a key component of being here and potentially RUINING the lives of others.  We did not come here in order to become one again with God. We came here to be the beautiful beings that we are. We came here to experience life not to become ego-less. You need to take responsibility for the stuff you are putting out there because I am telling you, you are missing half of the equation and potentially causing major harm to many people.