I cannot do this anymore.

[Person0]

Sorry and thank you everyone.

[Strangeloop]

What are you apoligizing for?

[Cathal]

yo man, it's totally your choice what  you want to do, but do you think ending it will really set you free?

this is it. life is it, you are going nowhere, this desperate need for relief and freedom will not be satisfied.

right now you're in hell, you know heaven is possible. you will not go anywhere, you will not find that freedom and love by just ending it, you just need more help, more work, more ease, take it easy. go do drugs if it helps, do anything. there is no right or wrong here, do whatever helps you. seriously.

but at the end of the day, you're just reading this. you've been creating all of this yourself, you're reading this in your mind. and so too all that trash is being imagined by YOU. 

You hold all of the weight to everything through your attachments but yes it can feel sometimes the weight is to much and we need to exit this life, you need to just ride this wave out and take it easy, reach out a little more.

Do a little more self-care, a little more of everything slowly step by step. After taking some small steps the next is a good therapist, someone you really can trust and explore with safely, and start purging all that weight out of you. 

You want a big explosion of freedom because it's unbearable, but if you just be with it a little longer you'll see it slowly very slowly begins to relieve itself and you'll have more energy to love yourself and it keeps building up.. it's just slow. And we're impatient as fuck.

But hey, it is your choice... I don't think it's wrong or right, it's just dumb, it's not going to give you what you want so why would you do it?

it's just you have been neglecting the stuff you need to workout, you might have had a bad deal in this life but that is no excuse not to work on it.

now your mind has become your enemy, it wants out. because you're not paying enought attention to it. that's all. take it easy man <3

 

 

[Johnny Galt]

 

Edited August 20, 2021 by Johnny Galt