You played with my heart ?

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 You hurt me. And it still hurts.

You lied to me.

It's no joke 

You played with my heart.

You didn't love me. It was all a show.

 

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You lied to me so that I will stay with you.

You tried to convince me that you are the best man in the world.

You tried to win me only to hurt me 

Go away.

 

[Preety_India]

You played with my heart.

 

 

Never do again what you did to me.

 

Never break someone's heart the way you did mine.

 

[Preety_India]

You are liar

 You are fake

 

[Preety_India]

True attraction means wanting and acceptance. These forces come together. Perfectly.

 

He should really want you.

 

Wanting is loving.

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Sometimes i wonder if love between two people is the most egoic thing disguised as something beautiful or holy.

Maybe that's why it doesn't last.

 

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Then what is truly beautiful and loving ?

I think the ability to love someone as well as the whole universe.

A person who is truly deeply loving and not just a conventional lover who is good in bed and otherwise.

 

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I mean think like this ..

A person who is trying to  attract you can also attract others as well.

What is stopping him ?

 

 

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Love makes you feel fulfilled just like chocolate.

Love is good only when it benefits you otherwise it's just game.

Love that doesn't benefit is like an expired gym membership.

 

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I just don't want to be a part of anything anymore.

I'm tired.

I feel like I watching waves appear and disappear in an endless sea.

 

Wealth, looks, money, status, cars, relationships, everything feels like a joke.

A long list of things to keep pushing your life towards.

Can't we do better with our time ?

 

[Preety_India]

Anything that gives a false sense of security in life should be dropped.

 

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I don't realise that even relationships are a part of the long list of things that I already hate.

 

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You don't have to justify anything in life

 

 

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You be you.

 

 

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I'm imagining different scenarios in which a guy expresses his love to me

• A drunk guy asks me out (think of a big open place ) 
• A guy acts very generous and think of old school chivalry. Big shot guy. 
• a guy woos me in the middle of a forest
• A guy offers to teach me dance but fools me into thinking that all my old bonds don't exist anymore.(would this be good ) 
• A guy sings a beautiful song for me
• .a guy that has been approved by my family
• Only the guy who wants to marry me and strictly shows interest 
• The last imagination was a dirty thing - like a guy who is too desperate to fuck me all day every day. Just doesn't let me go
• Or a bald guy who wants me too badly. Very Manipulative. 

 

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I think I need to get some rest 

 

[Preety_India]

So I took a nice nap 9 hours ago and I'm feeling fresh right now.

This feeling is so good. Like the smell of morning flowers.

 

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I'm thinking about all the good things.

 

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I need to start focusing on good things

 

 

[Preety_India]

I  can't live without the love of a man.

 

I feel like I need a man to love me.

 

Till then I'll always be sad.