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Preety_India

My journey to freedom

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I'm slowly plotting my journey to freedom.

This will be the last part of my life .

 

This is what I always wanted 

There is no place in this world for peace loving people 

This world is made of Authoritarians, suckers, pedophiles, profiteers, psychopaths, manipulators, evil geniuses, wealth and ego worshippers, power hoggers, capitalists, controllers, evil, just evil.

 

 


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May those who suffer find peace 

May those who feel abused find peace

May those who feel trapped find peace and freedom

May those who feel abandoned find peace

May those who feel preyed find peace

May those who feel helpless find a way

 

 

May God be with those that need him the most

 

 

 

 


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A letter to myself

Dear Preety,

Preety, isn't this what you wanted all your life? Right since you were a child, you wanted freedom from this family. Because you felt trapped. You used to sit in a corner and cry for hours not wanting to go back home. Family was torture. Family = torture. You never felt ok. You didn't want your dad to suffer. It was your greatest pain. Your heart would sink everytime you entered that door into your house. It was the same thing everyday. The yellings, beatings and the constant feeling of nervousness and anxiety. The constant feeling of tension. The feeling of uncertainty. EVERYTHING about it was crazy. Everyday in your life was a day of craziness. Everyone in school was happy and had a normal life except you. Nobody understood how you felt. 

 

But the day has finally come. Your wish will come true. You're on thia journey now. You're coming to the last chapter of your life.

Either you DO OR DIE 

Preety, it's time to end this forever. It's too much to take. You have to plot your escape. You took it for so long because you got used to it. Be strong and fight it. It is possible..

You'll be out of this torture chamber one day 

 

Take the first step, the first flight to freedom.

Your flight to independence.

 

 

 

Deep in the night, your screams are heard by God..he cares.

They say, if you knock on his door, he will open. If you ask, he will give. 

Keep knocking on his door. He will lead you through the door to a path to freedom

Then life is over on this cruel planet and we can rejoice in heaven with our loving brethren.

 

 

Amen

 

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Start doing tasks.

Just classify these tasks as A, B, C, and D.  

Start planning carefully 

 

 

 


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Task A would be to move some furniture.

 

Task B would be filling up.

 

Task C would be to move the Big rectangular thing. See if it fits

 

 

 

 

 

 


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At least one furniture is shifted 

I'm too exhausted. 

I had to move it all by my own in the middle of the night here.

I have to do this when she is not watching because she will come and hit me 

 

So I have to do everything slowly .

 

This is my journey to freedom from abuse from her 

 

 

One day I will succeed and get out of her trap 

 

 

 

 


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Now I'm moving the second furniture

 

 

 


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I'm sweating and I'm too exhausted. My heart rate is very high at the moment.

 

The fear that she will come beat me and disable me is very haunting.

 

 


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Keep the stuff in all the cupboards and lock them 

 

 


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I'll pray to God for good luck and freedom.

 


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See if you can open that cupboard 

 


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Yes I can open the cupboard.

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