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@Roy Feel you, man! And am happy for you!

This is all kinda new to me, and it feels like I should get it out of my system.. but I'm sure it's not a long-term thing. Just a phase.

It's relevant for me to experience this now. But overall; I'm actually a guy that longs to give his heart (and dick) to one girl, only.

Everything at its time.

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Also... another juicy info...

Remember D? My ex?

She texted me earlier. All hell breaks loose.

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She's basically just poking me a bit. Testing the waters.

Little foxy...

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@ivankiss I am so glad J abandoned you! You have to understand me. I have never had a guy, with whom I had profound talks and profound fucks, And if he also had had a good character.. And let´s say were handsome.. hahahaha... It´s not possible!

I were happy with just profound talks and good character. But even this is not avalable.

And then you.. You have a girl who is handsome, kind, sensitive, whith whom you can talk and fuck for hours. And you say, it ´s a period of my life where I just want to fuck around. I´ll have a relationship later. As if you can have someone like this any time you want. It´s just unfair. 

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@Hulia Haha! You finally opened up! That's awesome, thanks. I feel you.

Thing is, as I said, J is just not the right girl for me. I'm looking for much, much more than just good sex and long talks in a relationship.

I'm kinda glad it's over, too. If it is. I was focusing only on the positives here, but there were also negatives. She's too vanilla, not enough character, confidence, passion and will for life, ambition, vision, depth, courage, etc. She could not follow my steps, for sure. A girl like that quickly becomes boring. Not to sound too harsh or anything, but that's how I feel.

J has a big, kind heart. Is hardworking. Gentle, humble and generous. Great listener. But she lacks personality, big time. She does not stand for anything, really.

 

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@ivankiss Well maybe you reunine later with your ex. As far as I inderstood, she didn´t lack personality and was not boring. Good luck!

25 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

Haha! You finally opened up! That's awesome, thanks. I feel you.

What is there to open up? I think what I told is nothing new and many would relate to it. Usual stuff.

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@Hulia You opened up about never meeting a guy that's handsome and can talk to you and fuck you good. That's new to me. 

I see now why you were so protective of J.

And also; triggered.

My ex, however... Has too much personality haha. She's too wild and untamed. She's the definition of a hot mess.

Definitely not getting back with her. Not even for just sex.

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1 minute ago, ivankiss said:

You opened up about never meeting a guy that's handsome and can talk to you and fuck you good. That's new to me. 

Who did?

Well I had a friend, who had a BF with whom she had great talks and great fucks. It was already a lot! But if you ask me, he was an asshole, though intelligent yeah - a physicist with Dr. degree. But not my type of intelligence.

5 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

My ex, however... Has too much personality haha. She's too wild and untamed. She's the definition of a hot mess.

Definitely not getting back with her. Not even for just sex.

You don´t know what you want

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@ivankiss And btw it´s not that I feel for J. Rather on the contrary. You are more lucky to have her than vice versa. I am triggered, that you don´t appreciate it. 

You will end up with somebody like your ex and cry here how traumatized you are after having mengled with a personality of vision and passion. 

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@Hulia xD I like you.

There's is truth in some of what you're saying. But you are speaking to an old pattern within me. Not to me, as a whole.

I am well aware of my 'weaknessess'. And I am being careful not to fall in a trap.

Your assumptions are outrageous though haha. There are millions of other, young, beautiful, fun, smart girls out there. If I was to miss out on anything, it would be by settling for J. Or worse; going back to my ex.

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10 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

There are millions of other, young, beautiful, fun, smart girls out there.

:( I cannot say the same about men. 

Let´s hope I will reincarnate as a man next life and have fullfilled love-life with millions of other, young, beautiful, fun, smart girls out there. :)

 

It´s interesting how different the perceptions are. My friend told me, she was enchanted by that physicist the moment he entered the room, when she first saw him. I was so intrigued about the guy. But for me the opposite thing happened. Well to be precise it was me entering his appartment, since it was raining outside, I left some dirty traces in the corridor. And he has become outrageous, my friend hastily wiping my wicked traces. I was so perpexed - what is so enchanting about the guy? Next time I entered his appartment I brought the false rolls for fondue evening, not the type he prefered. He needed an hour or so to recover and start to take part at convo more or less relaxed ? I swore to avoid the guy as much as possible, probably he too. Since we have never had met again. But my friend was totally mad about the guy.

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@Hulia Well, girls usually fall for the wrong things in a guy. At least those are my observations.

It's no question they all end up being disappointed. It's because what they're mesmerized by, is not real.

Everyone is actually just looking for real. Knowing it or not. There is nothing sexier than real. Nothing more fun. Nothing more magnetic. Yet it can easily fly over one's head.

Also, on a side-note;

You should not be rooting for me to get into a relationship, because, more likely than not, I'd stop writing in this diary then.

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An epic song comes to mind. Absolutely love this one.

I'd like to dedicate it to she who shall not me named. 

You were my sun, you were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance, made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no

You don't have to say, what you did
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance
With you and me
There'll never be
Don't it make you sad about it?

You told me you love me
Why did you leave me all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me on the phone
Girl, I refuse
You must have me confused with some other guy
The bridges were burned
Now it's your turn, to cry

Cry me a river
Cry me a river
Cry me a river
Cry me a river

You know that they say that somethings are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him
And you know it
(Don't act like you don't know it)
All of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
Should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it

You don't have to say, what you did
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance
With you and me
There'll never be
Don't it make you sad about it?

You told me you love me
Why did you leave me all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me on the phone
Girl, I refuse
You must have me confused with some other guy
The bridges were burned
Now it's your turn, to cry

Cry me a river (go on and just)
Cry me a river (go on and just)
Cry me a river (baby, go on and just)
Cry me a river

Oh!
The damage is done, so I guess I be leaving

Oh!
The damage is done, so I guess I be leaving

Oh!
The damage is done, so I guess I be leaving

Oh!
The damage is done, so I guess I be leaving

You don't have to say, what you did
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance
With you and me
There'll never be
Don't it make you sad about it?

Cry me a river (go on and just)
Cry me a river (baby, go on and just)
Cry me a river (you can go on and just)
Cry me a river

Cry me a river (baby, go on and just)
Cry me a river (go on and just)
Cry me a river (oh, baby, cry)
Cry me a river (I don't wanna cry no more)

Cry me a river
Cry me a river
Cry me a river
Cry me a river

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5 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

Also, on a side-note;

You should not be rooting for me to get into a relationship, because, more likely than not, I'd stop writing in this diary then.

Oh no! I don´t want to disappoint your fans. I just told that I am glad J. decided against you. It´s not exactly rooting you into a relationship :)

7 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

Everyone is actually just looking for real. Knowing it or not. There is nothing sexier than real.

Interesting observation

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14 minutes ago, Hulia said:

Oh no! I don´t want to disappoint your fans. I just told that I am glad J. decided against you. It´s not exactly rooting you into a relationship :)

Please... You have been trying to force a relationship onto me since the first page :P

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Interesting fact I forgot to mention about 'U'.

She used to practice pole dancing! And hip hop!

Fucking jackpot, baby!

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9 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

Please... You have been trying to force a relationship onto me since the first page :P

I was just worried that J might fall in love with you - after massage and all the talks about enlightenment - you know.. 

But she seems to be more mature than I thought. Good for her! Now I don´t force you into relationship any more. 

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35 minutes ago, ivankiss said:

An epic song comes to mind. Absolutely love this one.

I'd like to dedicate it to she who shall not me named. 

You were my sun, you were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance, made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no

You don't have to say, what you did
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance
With you and me
There'll never be
Don't it make you sad about it?

You told me you love me
Why did you leave me all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me on the phone
Girl, I refuse
You must have me confused with some other guy
The bridges were burned
Now it's your turn, to cry

Cry me a river
Cry me a river
Cry me a river
Cry me a river

You know that they say that somethings are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him
And you know it
(Don't act like you don't know it)
All of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
Should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it

You don't have to say, what you did
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance
With you and me
There'll never be
Don't it make you sad about it?

You told me you love me
Why did you leave me all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me on the phone
Girl, I refuse
You must have me confused with some other guy
The bridges were burned
Now it's your turn, to cry

Cry me a river (go on and just)
Cry me a river (go on and just)
Cry me a river (baby, go on and just)
Cry me a river

Oh!
The damage is done, so I guess I be leaving

Oh!
The damage is done, so I guess I be leaving

Oh!
The damage is done, so I guess I be leaving

Oh!
The damage is done, so I guess I be leaving

You don't have to say, what you did
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance
With you and me
There'll never be
Don't it make you sad about it?

Cry me a river (go on and just)
Cry me a river (baby, go on and just)
Cry me a river (you can go on and just)
Cry me a river

Cry me a river (baby, go on and just)
Cry me a river (go on and just)
Cry me a river (oh, baby, cry)
Cry me a river (I don't wanna cry no more)

Cry me a river
Cry me a river
Cry me a river
Cry me a river

 

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13 hours ago, ivankiss said:

I cum all over her beautiful, pink pussy

More than one woman has gotten pregnant this way, even if it is really unlikely. It only takes one good swimmer. Just because it was not inside doesn't mean none of the little spermies went in. It might not be likely, but it's still very possible. Like I said, you only need one of those little bastards.

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@Hulia  Well, I knew she was mature and reasonable from the get go. Even if we really stop fucking now, I think we'll remain friends. And possibly fuck again somewhere down the line. Spontaneously, when we bump into each-other, on a hot night out - I imagine.

@AtheisticNonduality She's on the pill.

But also, yeah right xD The chances are very slim.

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