Healing My Health Situation & Being Happier

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Thought that it would be useful, maybe even therapeutic, to record my journey of getting back to optimal health. 

Feel free to chime in and share your sentiments and/or advice  

[Michael569]

Love this, can't wait to read more about your journey ?⛰️?

[Vision]

@Michael569 Hope everything turns out well ?

[Vision]

It's crazy how fast life can turn upside down and fall into a downward spiral.

Just 3 months ago I was planning out and envisioning what I'm going to be doing this year and for the next few years. 

Now, it really does feel like I have regressed due to my health problems getting worse...

But at the same time, I think this painful phase of suffering is necessary for me to move forward and develop. 

It is because of this suffering that I (finally) decided to look into the health problems I've had my entire life.

I really have learned so much. Now I know that there are ways to help myself, even completely heal my condition. Whereas before, I thought I'll have them for the rest of my life, just getting worse and worse as I age. Thanks a lot pharma 

 

From Late 2018-Early 2021, I was grinding myself out all day, doing both school work, and working on my business. 

This amounted to 80-90+ hours a week of working, grinding, "hustling". 

For 2 years straight I had barely left myself any time to relax. It was either school, or hustling. Said no to so many things and opportunities, just so I could not waste an opportunity. 

Felt like shit?

Suck it up, time is money.

Maybe go out with some friends? You deserve a break.  

No. Time is money. 

A 2 day vacation?

Absolutely not! I'm going to lose so much progress!

...

This is the mindset I had to have to be able to succeed in my business. 

Of course my cortisol levels are so imbalanced. I'm so glad that I quit it. I was neglecting myself, it was so toxic.  

 

Maybe if my health conditions didn't get so bad, I would have continued my life completely ignorant to what exactly my health conditions are, eating the same diet (even a "healthy" one) while being completely unaware of what I'm doing to my body because I wouldn't have known that I have many food intolerances.

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Man, this anxiety is so shit. 

 

This feeling of uneasiness is so hard to bear 24/7, I just don't know where it's coming from. 

What could it be? 

Is it my fear of becoming a wage slave?

Is it my fear of wasting my life? 

Is it just my health conditions that is causing this? I have read that gut dysbiosis and SIBO can cause depression and anxiety. 

There is just so much tension. I want to flow with life. Am I taking it too seriously? 

My life feels like a mess right now.  

Maybe when I get my test results, I'll be able to have more clarity on what to do and what steps to take. 

 

A part of me really just wants to jump into some protocol and see what happens. I don't really want to wait 2 more months...

Maybe I'll research a bit more into that this weekend. I have a test this Friday. 

[Vision]

One day, I will look back at this period of suffering, and be proud of myself for pushing through. 

One day, I will be grateful for this suffering, because it would shape me to be the person I am.

One day, I will be crying tears of joy for the first time in my life, because I'll be proud of myself for pushing through so much pain.

One day... patience...