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Path of Surrender via Psychedelics: how to mitigate t side-effects of awakenings?

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After an awakening on psychedelics, I don't know how to motivate myself anymore. I just gave up everything, how am i supposed to motivate myself to pick it all back up again? How am i supposed to motivate myself for anything else but more awakenings & more surrendering?

I don’t know how to juggle psychedelic surrender & sober self-actualisation. I'm neurotic as it is & already have a hard time with paradox, but surrendering absolutely everything in one moment & then grinding my ass off for the very goals i just had to give up in the next? I don’t know, tricky stuff man, tricky stuff. It feels like too much to juggle. I don’t know how this lil mind, this lil self, this lil controller guy can handle that. Surrender to physical death forever in one moment…then just back to busting my ass as normal the next? With no time for an in-between period to feel like a hollowed-out shell of a person whilst motivation regroups & rearranges itself in such a way as to be usable again? I don’t get it. I guess what I’m asking is: more surrender, or more reliance on cleaning up my act with faith-based discipline first? More surrender feels like a good choice, it feels like the right time for it, but only because of years of failing to clean up my act & being fed up with it, not to mention the simple allure of more experiences of mystical union. I think my intuition is telling me that it’s time to surrender, but I don't trust my "intuition" as far as i can throw it & i'm not great at distinguishing it from other motivations yet. 

How do you guys deal with the temptation to ego-backlash after an awakening on psychedelics? it's very difficult for me to care about anything at all after giving it all up & accepting my own death & the death of everything I loved. In fact, the only thing I want to do, is awaken again so that I can remember again, in part due to the hope that if i awaken enough times, it will gradually filter through into becoming my baseline state of being.

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Just give yourself time, what your feeling right now will pass. The mind likes to set expectations on how the awakening journey should go, and really you just don’t know. I see a lot of monkey mind in this post, maybe it’s time to slow down a little? Put down the the psychedelics for a moment and take it easy for a bit.

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That's the interesting thing about awakening. God doesn't care if you awaken, God wants to experience duality and be back in the dream world. It was created for a reason, everyone wants enlightenment without realizing what it costs, ie your entire fucking life. I'm the same, my motivation has not declined but changed. You realize what's worth pursuing and what is not. Maybe your goals are very materialistic in the first place. Obviously you need to make good money, but find a way to do it in a positive way. It's hard, I'm lucky I fell into a career I love. I think put enlightenment on hiatus and work on actualizing your life first.

 

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@Godishere Thanks for reply. It's certainly made me more chilled about the whole thing. But also so apathetic that I just want to become catatonic & do nothing all day haha.

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Yeah, I've experienced shit which made me lose all motivation and interest in the world as well. The physical world is boring as fuck bro.

Until I found my gun and personal bad ass hooker ;)

Pleasure over anything. The only way I can hold living in this world.

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@Kalo feel the same way lately bro. my dream is to become completely catatonic that i get fed thru a straw and never have to think again. part of me still wants to self-actualize, but it just feels like spinning my wheels and staying in place. i think this could be a fun end-game.

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All of the resistance derives from the thought  ‘awakenings’; pluralizing experience & thus reinforcing “the you” which “has” them. Before you now it you’ve identified as the tripper. 

All of the ‘efforting’ is an attempt to accommodate that thought, vs inspect it. 

Be happy anyways. 


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15 hours ago, yungtrippa said:

@Godishere Thanks for reply. It's certainly made me more chilled about the whole thing. But also so apathetic that I just want to become catatonic & do nothing all day haha.

I don’t see the problem with this if it is your true desire. This isn’t an ego backlash as much as a large change to the ego due to awakening. You know where the most worthwhile rewards are and some methods to connect to them. I’ve changed a lot after my first awakenings. Caring less about materialistic success or even more noble forms of success the ego could achieve is a pretty natural product of all of this. You could sit on your couch for the rest of your life, and it wouldn’t change the fact that the transcendental You does all things that ever have been or will be done. Let go of feeling pressured to be a certain way due to cultural programming. When it is time to act, you will act, and you will be doing what you are meant to do. 


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Yeah, that's the bitch, breaking into heaven and then falling back down into petty human affairs.

With time you will forget about heaven and the human crap becomes a bit more tolerable.


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@yungtrippa Don't allow your mind to compartmentalize daily life with its activities and spirituality. Surely, you can't maintain the peak of DMT realization all of a sudden but if you use the simple but effective lessons of awakening to daily life with a strong spiritual practice, your hectic life will slowly resemble more and more the awakening realizations.

 

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@yungtrippa yeah very relatable.

The way I see it is that once you reach god state again after death, it will get boring and you will want to role play again. 

This is one big game.... So go and play it, see what you enjoy and enjoy it. Level up your skills and do quests etc. If you get bored, take it easy and sit around doing nothing, accessing oneness. 

You are placed in this ego form out of love, so that you get to experience this adventure. No matter what you do you are loved. Suffering and survival are pure love because they give your life narrative. 

Also the beauty is that you are not all powerful in ego state. If you actually want to accomplish shit, it will take time and energy and skill building, but that journey is where all the fun is.

 

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