Communication and connection

[Preety_India]

 

sometimes feel overly fortunate

and i had my own guilt with that you

know so

being there there was a sense of peace

knowing that there was nothing i could

do about it

because there's times where me wanting

to control has been able for me to

create this authentic brand i never do

anything that i don't want to do

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my music is exactly what i want it to be

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being in control a lot of the time works

in my favor

but being obsessed with control can also

be really damaging to just being

in what the plan that the above has for

you so I  battled with that but i more so

i really felt at peace knowing that

there's nothing i can do about it and

i've taken that piece and i try to find

that space because there's a billion other

times in your life that there's gonna be

nothing that you can do about it

having that that freedom now of not

being

just so in love with control has been really good for me yeah it's funny you talk about that because

if i go through and i read it from an

altitude and i said cherry pick the

events that we've all seen and heard

that's the trade of being a performer i

suppose is that

stuff gets put out here it does feel

like the moments when things have taken

you in a vastly different direction to

be the moments when you've

on the outside have being in complete

control uh-huh yeah well i

i thrive in in chaos a little bit and i

also

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i don't like making decisions this is

one thing that i don't like

i do not like someone asked me to go to

dinner you choose

like i do not like me oh that's annoying

i don't like making decisions that's because i really am kind of happy

anywhere right

i just am and until you're not until

until i'm like this place sucks but i'm like so obviously really 

i really like people kind of i mean when it comes to my music into my craft i really really like making my own

choices and making my own art but those aren't really decisions

you know those aren't to me those aren't decisions they're probably very big

decisions if you're not

used to making them all the time but like putting out music to me isn't a big

decision it's like

it just is like it's just flowing out

constantly so i liked that

i never had to make a choice about saying goodbye to that house it just said goodbye to me there was no choice

in it and i really liked that about

about the non-decision-making process so

it's been a year

i mean if this is still the case and no

judgment but from what i can tell it's

been a year since you chose

sobriety right since you decided to

clear your head yeah how did it feel

when you started to wake up and realize that that was working well i like a lot of people you know being completely honest during the pandemic fell off and felt really a lot of you know and i would never sit here and go i've been [ __ ] sober and

i didn't and i fell off and I realized that i now am back on sobriety two weeks sober and you know i feel like i really accepted that time and one of the things

i've used is don't get furious get curious so don't be mad at yourself but ask

 

Edited March 2, 2021 by Preety_India