SLuxy

Winning

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Hey guys!

I'm gonna talk through where I've been and where I'm at now.

Where I've been:

Depression, schizoid defence mechanism, suicidal ideations, PTSD, social anxiety, insomnia, low energy, low grades, hated studying.

Where I'm at now:

Depression is now 1/14 days, not 13/ 14.

Schizoid defence of experiencing the world as not real, and experiencing the world as if through a glass jar = not experiencing anymore

Suicidal ideation (18 months experienced everyday) = Gone

PTSD caused anger outbursts = Gone

Social anxiety = alleviating gradually, but significant progress made

Insomnia = Dealing with it

Low energy = Higher energy

Low grades = Now at medium grades, but the trajectory is on point.

Hated studying = Now look forward to studying

Thoughts

These things happen.

Big changes. Its possible to change. 

Stay blessed, stay peaceful.

 

 


"I wanted only to try to live in accord with my true Self. Why was that so very difficult?" - Herse

"As soon as you trust yourself, you will know how to live.” - Goethe

"There are no bad parts" - Schwartz

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@aurum  Thanks!

Took another big step today. Left my group of friends from childhood and am stopping hanging around with people who I don't feel I have a healthy, or relationship I want with.

Am already seeing more worth in myself!

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"I wanted only to try to live in accord with my true Self. Why was that so very difficult?" - Herse

"As soon as you trust yourself, you will know how to live.” - Goethe

"There are no bad parts" - Schwartz

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Awesome! Congratulations.

 

How did you get rid of PTSD? I hear that doesn't go away on its own


Learn to resolve trauma. Together.

Testimonials thread: www.actualized.org/forum/topic/82672-experience-collection-childhood-aware-life-purpose-coaching/

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Well, that is a list of things to go through for sure! Sounds like you’ve made great progress, though! Keep going and see it through to the end, you got this!

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@flowboy Thanks!

My PTSD may still be there, but the anger outbursts are mostly gone. I say mostly instead of gone, as they still come around maybe once a month, but it used to be multiple times a week.

Honestly, behavioural activation has been immense for me (essentially smart scheduling). I have also been in weekly psychotherapy for coming up to a year. However, the impact of that is hard to actually analyse.

@Willie Thank you as well!

 

 

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"I wanted only to try to live in accord with my true Self. Why was that so very difficult?" - Herse

"As soon as you trust yourself, you will know how to live.” - Goethe

"There are no bad parts" - Schwartz

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I like the way you systematically charted out your progress for total review.  Inspiring and educative indeed. :)


Self-awareness is yoga. - Nisargadatta

Awareness is the great non-conceptual perfection. - Dzogchen

Evil is an extreme manifestation of human unconsciousness. - Eckhart Tole

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