Self Deception / Corruption

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Hi All, 

 

I have a question / dilemma that I wanted to get your opinions on.

I have become very self-aware recently and really have started to notice my small acts of corruption everyday. The first step to behavior change is awareness, however think I might be using awareness in devilish ways. For instance, I allow myself to commit small acts of corrupt / devilish acts, e.g not flushing the toilet seat, eating other family members food etc. I know these are small, however I tell myself a lot, "As long as I am aware that I am being a devil, then being a devil can be allowed". Whats the next step from going to just awareness, to actually stopping doing corrupt stuff?? I feel like if i constantly let small corruption slide then this will be a road to much larger corruption.

I am not sure if i am deluding myself, or if I am deluding myself by believing that I am deluding myself. lol

Any advice??