Brain visions

[Preety_India]

God please help me in this time of trouble. 

I hope everything goes okay today. I'm really facing a test. It's a huge challenge. 

I will never trust my family again. I have to find my own path. 

I am just too fed up and too scared. 

And somehow I will need urgent help to get out of this quagmire I'm stuck in.

I need to do something quick within the next 2 months or else it's going to be hell.

God I pray to get me out of this. 

 

[Preety_India]

 

 

I'm praying for a high quality man to be my spouse/ partner in the future. 

God please bring a good man in my life, a wonderful wholesome funny respectful man who I can trust blindly. 

[Neph]

@Preety_India God is there. Just don't worry
                           Have faith...and keep going forward......that's all it takes

[Preety_India]

 I don't appreciate comments on my journal. Sorry 

I don't need kind words.

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Today my feet are hurting like hell.

But there is good news. 

Within hours there is a lantern event. 

I can buy some fancy  lanterns. Yay. 

 

 

Something to make me happy today after a depressing start in the morning. 

I did a lot of physical work yesterday. 

My friend needed help for moving stuff from her old place to her new house. So I had to help her with that. 

I was carrying so much for hours and hours that my feet are hurting like crazy. 

I kept walking to and fro more than a hundred times 

Still I need to move some heavy furniture next week. And I'm going to have to call the movers packers guys. 

But it's going to be tough physically because last night I suffered dysentery. 

I didn't have any food and I was feeling exhausted... 

Hopefully next week will be good news for me.. 

If I get to move out it will be so good for me. 

I might want to move in with the girl I'm helping. But she has already given word to another girl. 

So maybe it won't work out. 

I wish I could get new caring amazing people in my life. And a decent way to live. 

I just want to feel peaceful and happy and with my family that's not possible. 

I pray to God for a favor and a blessing. 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I'm feeling slightly better. It's Sunday here 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

In one hand there is love 

In one hand there is war

 

Community role is absolutely important 

 

I'm learning so much. And so much has changed since 2017. 

I have grown. 

The most important emotional lesson I learned is how much a person's energy can impact one's life. So be careful who you allow into your life. They might create heaven or hell.

Well a huge chapter of my life is indeed over and done last November and I'm moving on. 

It took a hell lot of energy to come out of it. But late than never.

I finally came late but came safe. I guess I had to come full circle. 

Some part of it I do regret especially the part of how badly I neglected myself. 

But there is a good part I'm grateful for. 

The good part is the exhaustive learning and maturity. 

I have taken a lot of that.. 

I have taken in so much learned so much. Gosh. Huge change. 

Hehe. 

Now I know things I never knew. 

The latest things I wrote about role are so wonderful. Roles create a structure in life. 

 

[Preety_India]

Women need both experience and education on relationships 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I have suffered so much in life emotionally. But finally I am getting there. Towards emotional freedom. 

I have realized that emotional freedom is one of the greatest and most valuable possessions of a person in life. 

 

[Preety_India]

Finally I will get freedom 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Just because someone has it doesn't mean that they will give it

 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

I have suffered a lot of stress in my life. 

 

I have developed a new concept that I'm going to implement called the formal pledge twice a day 

 

One is the subconscious pledge and the other is the marching pledge.. 

 

 

[Preety_India]

Matching elements 

 

Condition 

Situation 

Event 

Person

Yourself 

Your choice 

Your decision

The system you are living in 

Your role

Your actions

Occupation 

Food 

Relationship

Different elements of life 

Edited January 20, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

I have been through the whole circle. But it seems there is hope and light at the end of the tunnel. 

 

I need to pray for health, a good home, good people, love, happiness and livelihood. 

 

[Preety_India]

Two extra tarot cards 

 

16 Progress regress

17 positive negative 

 

[Preety_India]

I want to be a part of the "good people club" 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

It's important to know the future beforehand 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

• Flexibility.. Give and withdraw 
• Optimization. When to spend energy and when to conserve 
• Using everything as a weapon therefore nothing is right or wrong. HH.
• Perception of future. 
• Strategy . Can't use all your arrows at once. Have to save them but also have to use them 
• Caution. Very careful 
• Knowledge. Preliminary knowledge 
• Observation

• Maturity 
• Gigantic strength and preparedness 
• Recovery and resilience 
• Resources. This is the most basic

 

 

One process is love and the other process is elimination 

 

Edited January 20, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Life is like driving. It needs a lot of skill and strategy and flexibility and maneuvering 

 

A bow arrow Archer tarot best represents this 

 

 

 

 

Edited January 20, 2020 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

2 extra sets of tarots