Dig deeper. Assuming your statement is authentic, you might discover a purpose very similiar to mine. I'll keep you all updated, either here or throughout new threads. It's been exactly two months since the original post. Things have settled in, and there is still no doubt. I want to be at the frontier of consciousness. Like a pioneer. A full-time psychonaut, but greater. I could join a monastery, but I haven't done enough research in recognizing and locating best candidates. My current plan is to build an online business (mostly orange) that generates income, but requires little time to manage. Things may change eventually. After a while, you realize the conscious decision @Leo Gura has made: either to go balls deep, or "hang around" and teach others. You'll still hear his voice speaking, but know exactly how fucking radical it is there's nobody behind it. It always brings tears to my eyes, knowing Leo knows it too. I choose the unknown.