Transmuting Sexual Energy Into Spiritual

[KP_Spirituality27]

Hey.

I need to understand my sexuality and how exactly transmuting sexual energy into spiritual works.

I meditate a lot during the day. At least  3 hours daily. I live very simply. I try to live in celibacy, but sometimes I can't stand the huge energy and i do masturbate (usually about once a month) Of course without porn. I'm learning tantric masturbation with breath and ejaculation control.

How awareness "level" after sperm ejaculation decreases it is amazing. Personally, it is incomprehensible to me why sexual energy has such an impact on meditation. I literally don't want to meditate after ejaculating sperm. When sexual energy is in the Crown Chakra, I drown in Nirvana. I cannot achieve this state without this energy.

I have a few questions for people really experienced in this topic. I hope you will understand me. It means a lot to me right now.

Can sexual energy be always transmuted?

The moment I learn to control ejaculation, during orgasm I can stop with my prostate from 50-75% of sperm. However, after such masturbation I feel a strong pressure of semen in my prostate all the time. Because of this, I have erotic thoughts and it makes me want to masturbate again. I don't want to lose my sexual vital fluid so much. Oooh so much .. Usually after ejaculation the next 3 days I do nothing and wait for my energy to regenerate. I just don't want to live without her. What to think about people who masturbate twice a day ??. Hell. Real hell.

How can I educate myself and recognize all the energies in my body? 

I would like to understand why sexual energy is so powerful when transmuting into spiritual. How exactly this happens. Why is this happening? I want to understand the whole process. Can anyone recommend me some books? Its so difficult to find something about it.

 

 

 

[hamedsf]

Hello there again! @KP_Spirituality27

sexual energy is vital and not the same energy that keeps you awake, it's more of a "motivating energy" for the lack of better word.

yes, sexual energy when gone out of hand could create a hell for ya. coz this energy is hard to let go of.

so if you wanna gain some control over this, first off, don't force yourself to be asexual forever, think about having a partner or somebody you could have sex with. 

if you feel the urge to jerk off frequently. it means that your mind is still involved in the sexual imaginations, everytime you feel like to start the sexual imagination, let that go! 

do you know why you get blue balls? because you feel aroused to the images that you had in your head! if you eliminate the source of arousal which are sexual imaginations, you'd be able to stay comfortable without masturbating.