My struggles with Christianity

[RichardY]

@Preety_India
Christ is "The Archetype of the Self." (The Son of Man). There is only 1 Christ.

Mark 10:40 But to sit on my right hand and on my left hand is not mine to give; but it shall be given to them for whom it is prepared.

"The best of men cannot suspend their fate: The good die early, and the bad die late." - Daniel Defoe.

[Preety_India]

9 minutes ago, Preety_India said:

Symbols for 5 cloves.  

 

?Grace 

Cross. And dwarf umbrella leaves.  

 

? Grace Swan 

C pendant or ring with a C pendant. 

 

?Zezet 

Chain of beads 

 

 

 

❤?Delphi 

Lotus buds or heart pendant 

 

?Viini 

Meditation spindle 

 

 

 

❤ Grace.. Cross

❤ Grace Swan..  C pendant 

❤ Zezet.  Chain of beads.  

❤Delphi.. Lotus bud.  

❤ Viini.. Spindle 

 

?Grace 

Cross. And dwarf umbrella leaves.  

 

 

 

 

❤ Grace Swan..  C pendant 

 

 

❤ Zezet.  Chain of beads. 

 

 

 

 

 

❤ Viini.. Spindle

 

❤Delphi.. Lotus bud or heart pendant. 

 

[Preety_India]

I'm so done with the world.  

 

[Bill W]

2 hours ago, Preety_India said:

I'm so done with the world.  

 

Have you ever thought about opening up a bit and saying what's really going on? There might be people on here who can help. 

[Preety_India]

9 hours ago, Bill W said:

Have you ever thought about opening up a bit and saying what's really going on? There might be people on here who can help. 

I've experienced people on here and they aren't to my liking would be the best way to put it. 

 

 

[tsuki]

3 hours ago, Preety_India said:

I've experienced people on here and they aren't to my liking would be the best way to put it. 

Hmm... maybe you are to their liking and they could reflect love back to you?
I'd love to know you better.

Ugh, that's creepy as hell. Sorry.

Edited August 27, 2019 by tsuki

[Preety_India]

19 minutes ago, tsuki said:

Hmm... maybe you are to their liking and they could reflect love back to you?
I'd love to know you better.

Ugh, that's creepy as hell. Sorry.

If you take it personally, your problem not mine. I don't need any love, at least not from this place.    I'm not interested in knowing anyone here better.  I just stick to my journal.  

Maybe others should do the same. 

 

 

 

[tsuki]

Ouch. Alrighty.
It certainly is my problem that I have a difficulty seeing people that are done with this world.

Edited August 27, 2019 by tsuki

[Preety_India]

19 minutes ago, tsuki said:

Ouch. Alrighty.
It certainly is my problem that I have a difficulty seeing people that are done with this world.

Dude, you really needed to edit that.  First you wrote just "Alrighty. " Then you had to come back and edit it to get back at me.  

Maybe this is the reason I'm done with the world.  

Anyway I'm not going to ruin my mood because some random stranger decided to pop up into my journal and pick a fight with me.  

So why don't you go back to your business.  

 

 

[Preety_India]

 

 

 

 

 

[Preety_India]

6 cloves 

 

Symbols for 5 cloves.  

 

?Grace 

Cross. And dwarf umbrella leaves.  

 

? Grace Swan 

C pendant or ring with a C pendant. 

 

?Zezet 

Chain of beads 

 

 

 

❤?Delphi 

Lotus buds or heart pendant 

 

?Viini 

Meditation spindle 

 

? Sage life 

A lifestyle centered around Wicca, Wicca hut and inscription and symbol cards.  

Symbol. Bowl containing sage or simply sage sticks.  

[Preety_India]

4  types of cards 

Symbol cards 

Inscription cards 

Story cards 

Reward cards 

Edited August 28, 2019 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Consequential truncation

 

[Preety_India]

6 cloves 

 

 

Viini 

Sage life 

 

Delphi 

 

Grace Swan 

 

Grace 

Zezet 

[Preety_India]

Breastplate of righteousness 

Shield of faith 

[Preety_India]

Viini deals with spiritual warfare 

Healing should happen on 3 levels 

First on spiritual. 

Second on mental and emotional 

Third on physical 

[Preety_India]

Read more on spiritual warfare 

I broke up finally and finally on 26 August.  And I'm done with him.  Never gonna say " I love you " again.  

He was a a-hole..  

Feels good and free at last.  

The pain of 2 years is over finally.  

He is out of my life.  

He thought that I was with him for venting.  That was the break point.. He has a lot of cognitive dissonance.  

 

 

 

Edited August 28, 2019 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

We had a fight in last week of June, after June 25.  

July was mostly without incident.  But I was going through a lot.  The last week of July was brutal and there was this huge fight on 25 July that ended in lot of back and forth.  That's when I avoided him for next full week and ignored him for almost a week.  

First week of August without incident.  

3rd week of August around 18 was another fight. 

The bus incident happened on 23 August which completely stressed me out.  

He entered a crisis center and had a restraining order against him by his roommates Rick and Lou on 24 August  Sunday.  We had a huge fight once again on 26 August just a day after admitting into the crisis center.  

That's where I made my final decision to say bye. Once and for all when he said that I was with him only venting.  He totally misunderstood me and totally destroyed my love. 

Also I came to know the past history of his ex and it was very revealing.  She went through a lot.  I had sympathy for her. He found it odd. 

 

He was an asshole to her. 

He is himself delaying the process.  

He blocked me on 26 and then unblocked me.  That was fatal.  That was the end.  It's the final straw that broke my back.  

Why in the world did I go back to him.  It wasn't worth it.  I regretted it.  

No more regret.  No more going back.  

Edited August 28, 2019 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

He completely invalidated my feelings in just a minute.  

My love was spent in vain.  The biggest betrayal.  

 

Leave me alone if I'm such a bad person.  

 

Edited August 29, 2019 by Preety_India

[Preety_India]

Last night I had a dream that I was married to a wonderful man.  He wasn't great looking but very understanding and gentle. He would understand my problems and not mock or humiliate me.  We lived in a nice spacious home.  I just love to decorate his home, our home. Everything is clean.  I was scared of something crawling over the cabinets and he found it funny because it was a fake fish that looked cute. They were like hangers used to pull stuff magnetically and I didn't know that, silly me.  

The space made me so happy.  I could just chill out with nobody bothering me anymore. There was this weird old lady, possibly from a nearby apartment, asking me weird questions constantly, almost interrogating me causing me anxiety. I was just nervously answering her questions.  She was getting on my nerves.  Such a rubbish woman, cannot mind her own business.  

I wasn't able to hear her because of the painting work in the house and my nervousness was causing me to just confuse and mix up her questions while I replied to her.  I was just waiting for her to leave. But she wouldn't. Pesky visitors.  

My husband is great.  Although we don't talk much constantly, he never bothers me and lets me do as I please, doesn't control me like my ex used to.  

 

He is peaceful.  We do meditation together.  We both love exploration and a peaceful life and hate loud noise.  

I just love the aura of our home.  So peaceful and pleasant.  

But it's all a dream..  Wonder how I would have been if I had been born in a wonderful place of peace.