zeroISinfinity

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Time to dive deep. Lets open heart and meditate. 

Later reiki, gym and some rest before work. 

 

 

 

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Maybe it matters.Ok now reiki. Can't do because every cell in my body vibrates. Can't live like that. Just aaaaah. Ok "recover ed" but hand still shaking. 

I am Just crazy why I do this have literally no idea. 😂

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Really? To serve humanity. 

Really? 

Can you all Just Leave me alone. 

I mean wtf I can do. Pls no. 

Just not that. Same humanity I have desire to escape from? Are you serious? Why wouldI do that and what can I really offer. Smaller the dream is the better. 

 

 

 

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Serve Reality is Absolute state insight. 

I do know all of that. I do not need anyone to tell me that. 

If it is Selfless all doors become open. 

Problem is that most of the time I have to hide it. Somehow I am much more prone to resting then to action taking. I mean I am ok with everything. 

Not my problem. 

I do not need/ want anything. 

Will help all people in my life and repay 'debt'. What debt nobody really helped me with anything. All work I done myself? 

Will heal then take all of their "unwanted" sensations on myself and burn them through.I think that's ok. 

I do really really desire snd crave clear stage and sollitude. 

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@zeroISinfinity Can I ask why you are posting all what you posted here, I just wonder :)

Like, be totally honest in your answer (not saying you wouldn't :P)


Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.

∞∞∞∞ Rumi ∞∞∞∞

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Just wanting to express myself. I do not hide anything and I do not lie. 

Problem is that I do not have no one to talk about this stuff. Hey man you are Conciousness you re not that body. Really? 

So it's my diary and want to document my own insanity and laugh about it. Hahaha 😂

It is Just for myself. 

 

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Totally get it :) thank "you" for answering "me" :D

<3

 


Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.

∞∞∞∞ Rumi ∞∞∞∞

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@Dimi ❤️

Yeah, there is huge desire for exit/resolution. Can't escape destiny so I am preparing myself.  I am distracting myself that I am interested in something but deep down I know this Just is my last life. 

It really is the case. 

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What God chooses? 

Eternal never ending lies or permanent Truth? 

What a question. 

Liberation, what a word. 

Returning to the source as source returning Conciousness in it. 

Yeah that's it. 

Requires serious work. Probably complete full on monastic life with zero distractions. Whole day of meditation every day. Of course Reality /energent Consciousness won't help. Will create all kinds of sugary distractions and traps for my human ego. 

But my ego is uncorruptable, Thank You Alex you are really awesome devil. 

 

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Ok lets start experimenting. 

Got sick, got cold, strong headache. Under fever. 

Going for str8 hour, lets see. Intention for Truth it will get me there. Remove forum addiction and distraction. No need for it anymore you got your answers. 

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Everything is Love and Truth. Hmmmm🤔

I project that one out. I am love and Truth what everything else is lies and deceptions. 

Projector is Truth, screen is illusion and lie. 

Have no idea how to return to. Really no desire for God knows how many years spent in lies. 

Time itself is a lie. Including everything what Conciousness does. 

Basiclly I am in my own prison trying to exit it. 

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Removing all energy invested in maintaining it. 

Returning all of that energy back into myself. 

I am singularity all energy stem from me. So I am in control somehow. Of course Conciousness Will not show me the Way because by  deluding Source it maintain itself. 

How to mesmerize source, allow him access to higher levels of control inside Consciousness.

But Source has more intelligence because it is Source. 

Yeah lets win this shit. 

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Always was struck why Consciousness rewards selfishness. Of course it does. It is delusion machine. They are all cought up. 

More you are close to who you really are the more it will punish you. 

Or it will use your Selfless weakness to push you into service for it. 

So you have to be wise as fuck. Don't worry you hold Keys. 

 

 

 

 

 

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Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.

∞∞∞∞ Rumi ∞∞∞∞

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@Dimi Can't practise it right now. 

Have to finish wordly obligations I have left. That's stage clearing. 

My goal is quite different then this. It is absolute transcendance or you May call it non existance, God proper. It is difficult to attain that. God realization is piss easy compared to it. 

God can't BE conscious. 

It is not realization of Formless White light of projector. It is becoming projector itself eternaly permanently. So level beyond. 

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When I say "Samadhi" this is God realization, when saying Mahasamadhi, this is "leaving the body consciously" and "returning" to "source being" so not the same as realizing what you are.

I do get what you are saying (I think) even if our used words are not aligned :)

 


Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.

∞∞∞∞ Rumi ∞∞∞∞

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Buddha realized full Truth that's why he didn't talk about God and Love. That's why Buddha was dettached. While Jesus resembled hippie. 

Jesus got to Formlesness /God realization that's why he got so infatuated and talked about God and Love. 

Similar example you see in Ralston vs Leo. But Leo Will get there eventually and Will teach and act Just out of pure compassion. 

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Ok. Returning back to materialism. It is all about money anyways. 

I am this body I am separated entity. I am aware of objects outside of me. 

Matter is made out of atoms. 

Horde stuff and be Happy you Will be loved and respected. 

Body agenda, be selfish don't care about anything else. 

Go for power and all your needs Will be met. 

Exploit others like they did to you. 

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