Sashaj

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@Sashaj

Is there anywhere to run or hide from Truth?

No?

So why not just be happy with it?

Surrender.

Surrender.

Surrender.

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God is love

Whoever lives in love lives in God

And God in them

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2 hours ago, Sashaj said:

@Zigzag Idiot did you feel like you had nowhere to turn for help. Like you were alone on the “world”

 

Yes. A part of it was seeing the 'sleep' of the world or a part of it. A lot of confusion.

A lot of Dread. 


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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3 hours ago, Sashaj said:

That’s a lot to take in

I just hope that going along with it and being humble get me through

Yes, Humbleness will help very much. 

I was having relationship problems and the turmoil and guilt from that added to my pain and confusion.

I think Kundalini awakenings can span from a few months to 7 or more years. Different with everyone. Jana Dixon says that also. Within this, there are several up and down episodes sometimes culminating in a 'classic' dark night period. A lot of stuff in Biology of Kundalini didn't happen to me but a number of symptoms/phenomena did.

 


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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1 hour ago, Sashaj said:

@Zigzag Idiot yeah, my family is suffering along with me. Did it culminate in an awakening?

 It really felt like more of the false in me died.  I felt more of the awakening in the beginning.

This was about 2002-2008. It didn't resolve everything, though. My work on myself then was very lopsided. I didn't start meditating until about 4-5 years ago. Full time only 3 years ago. I've pretty much always been a loner with no 'spiritual community'. Doing a lot of things the hard way,,,, Not meditating. Eating poorly,,,

Over the 5-6 years of my Kundalini experiences, I had a couple of intense dark night episodes and several times of just gloominess. In one of my bad times, the light of day suddenly dimmed. It was a clear bright winter day and it was like I put on a pair of sunglasses, only I didn't. Like 'God' hit the dimmer switch. This sudden drop in the brightness of day felt strange as well. Hard to describe. Another time,,, actually two,,, I got on bad crying jags. An absurd number of times in 2-3 hours that I burst into tears. Maybe every 15 seconds at times. The crying would just go On /off,  on/off, on/off. 

Practicing Forgiveness would probably help as much as anything. You mentioned humbleness or feeling humbled,,, that's the right territory,,,


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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4 hours ago, Jkris said:

@Truth Addict I don't understand? How to surrender the i feeling or sense of me? 

If there was a technique, this thread would not exist.


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@Preetom i think i have had this for 9 months straight.

It was more in the heart area. I had a constant pressing kind of pain, really uncomfortable but it was there all the time. From when I woke up until I went to sleep I could feel it.

I went to the physiotherapist, doctor, etc. 

I just wished everyday it was over.

I realized from the beginning that the doctor or physiotherapist weren't going to be the solution but I wanted to try it anyways. The doctor was thinking about thoracic blockage.

Basically it was repression of stress and emotional pain that couldn't be dealt with in a healthy way. At that point there were life events happening and it literally hurt my heart because I couldn't get in peace with it.

Once I could finally find peace with the situation the pain was gone.. 

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8 hours ago, Jkris said:

@Truth Addict I don't understand? How to surrender the i feeling or sense of me? 

What is it that knows that I feeling?

Chase and stay with that self aware being more and more, while being progressively uninterested in things that are known.

4 hours ago, Tistepiste said:

@Preetom i think i have had this for 9 months straight.

It was more in the heart area. I had a constant pressing kind of pain, really uncomfortable but it was there all the time. From when I woke up until I went to sleep I could feel it.

I went to the physiotherapist, doctor, etc. 

I just wished everyday it was over.

I realized from the beginning that the doctor or physiotherapist weren't going to be the solution but I wanted to try it anyways. The doctor was thinking about thoracic blockage.

Basically it was repression of stress and emotional pain that couldn't be dealt with in a healthy way. At that point there were life events happening and it literally hurt my heart because I couldn't get in peace with it.

Once I could finally find peace with the situation the pain was gone.. 

Thanks for sharing your case and glad you are past it.

Let's see where things go in my case :)


''Not this...

Not this...

PLEASE...Not this...''

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17 hours ago, Mu_ said:

 Nah. It will pass.   Sounds like your going through some spiritual thingyness, and you have a healthy perspective on it

Please bless me

13 hours ago, Nahm said:

@Preetom It will pass. Your attitude & character are remarkable man. 

The final battle is yet to come 9_9


''Not this...

Not this...

PLEASE...Not this...''

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«Give me a mantra !

Please Mooji BLESS ME !!!»

 

???


God is love

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8 minutes ago, Shin said:

«Give me a mantra !

Please Mooji BLESS ME !!!»

 

???

xD 

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''Not this...

Not this...

PLEASE...Not this...''

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8 minutes ago, Nahm said:

@Preetom

No one is coming. 

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But one is sure getting melt alive :ph34r:


''Not this...

Not this...

PLEASE...Not this...''

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21 hours ago, Jkris said:

@Truth Addict I don't understand? How to surrender the i feeling or sense of me? 

Surrender to it, whatever that feels like, and also surrender to that.

Every negative emotion is a conflict. And fighting is not the answer.

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I feel like I’m falling, being dragged into the void by the hand of god, or the gravity of a black hole.

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21 hours ago, Shin said:

If there was a technique, this thread would not exist.

You can prepare the land. You can plant and water the seeds. 

But you cannot grow the crop.

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