Zigzag Idiot

Zigzag Idiot and the ladder of Objective Reason

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Sometimes being awake means that most everywhere you look, you see things that make you cry, because of their beauty.

in this beauty is the inherent meaning in which any words of description completely fail to do justice.

 


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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So I tackled a few shitty jobs today. It was a good day to do it because I felt centered and peaceful. Not always do I feel centered and peaceful. But neither do I experience the emotional turmoil that I did 20-30 years ago. I've neglected my well pump and pressure tank over the years. When I finshed building my house back in 1995-96, I was so sick of carpentry that come fall, I would just throw a few square bales around it and call it good. Some years I would throw a tarp the over pressure tank pump and pressure switch and scatter loose hay over it for insulation. A few years here lately I would just throw all my old clothes that were ready for the rag pile onto the pump and then throw a tarp or some plastic over it all.  Well this morning I went out to clear around the pump so could  build  a nice insulated pump house. When I tried to find earth around the pump I encountered layer upon layer of haystring, rotted tarps, insulation, and old half rotted clothes. Mixed in was some fine looking electric extension cord plus a nice section of 6 guage high voltage wire.  Fine looking extension cord is anything thats not rotted or has bad insulation. I cut the plug in cord off every appliance I throw away. The heavier ones with three prongs I'll use to put on old extention cords. The female ends I usually get new at the store. I do the same thing with garden hoses. Patch with splices and attach new ends whenever necessary. if for some reason I need to run out a 1/4 mile of water or electric line,   ,,,,,,,  no sweat.  It took me all morning using box cutter, pruning shears, pry bar, shovel, 420 Honda quad and chain. At mid day I was soaked with sweat and short of breath but I had dug down to fresh earth around the well pump.

This afternoon I went and cut garage door panels as jigsaw pieces for a small well pump house. My father had bought a couple of semi loads of these things that had been culled at the manufacturing plant. This was 30 years ago and the things are still worthy a building material. Mostly they're 2 foot wide in random lengths. You can cut them the way you can roofing tin. Just turn the blade around backward on a skill saw and lay into it,,,, You just have to watch out for the carbide saw teeth as they fly off the blade on the first cut. With the blade turned around the saw will still eat through the tin.  One problem though is the massive noise polution you put out into the world. The terrible growling whine made by a skillsaw cutting tin is just God-awful. On a still day it will echo for miles. It will make your ears ring. The chorus of crickets that I often hear sounded like they were on a frozen lake. This only lasted for an hour or two. ,,,, I take that back. i payed closer attention just now and their sound still isn't back to what sounds normal.

I didn't mention. Last night I had rather long and vivid dreams. Thinking of them this morning early started the day good.


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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@Zigzag Idiot Wish I could've been there to give you a helping hand. ;)  

I've found myself quite enjoying laborious work again after a little rest from it. It's nice to have something to do, even if it seems tedious in the moment. 

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@fridjonk I would have been glad to have your company!

Yesterday I did discover how much better a millwaulkie high speed grinder with a metal cutting disc cuts through roofing tin versus the old skillsaw with a blade put on backward. And much less noisy as well. Such an improvement there has been in tools over the last 30 yrs.,,,

Ive been meaning to ask you a rather personal question. Please disregard if you would rather not answer. With all of your families enormous spread of land, people must view you as rather wealthy. Have you ever been suspicious or a little paranoid that potencial mates/wife would pursue you because of your wealth?

 


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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12 hours ago, Zigzag Idiot said:

Yesterday I did discover how much better a millwaulkie high speed grinder with a metal cutting disc cuts through roofing tin versus the old skillsaw with a blade put on backward. And much less noisy as well. Such an improvement there has been in tools over the last 30 yrs.,,,

Yeah, the newer brushless tools are such a massive improvement over the older tools that you never really felt safe to use. One slight kickback and you could lose a finger. Now it all comes with electric brakes and kickback protection which makes it way easier to use. But I've usually just used a nibbler if possible when cutting the thinner metal plates.

12 hours ago, Zigzag Idiot said:

Ive been meaning to ask you a rather personal question. Please disregard if you would rather not answer. With all of your families enormous spread of land, people must view you as rather wealthy. Have you ever been suspicious or a little paranoid that potencial mates/wife would pursue you because of your wealth?

We're not really "wealthy" by any means. Sheep farming actually causes us to lose money, the cost of fertilizer, running equipment and machinery, and the low price of meat here. It's just a very expensive hobby at this point. We do pretty well by working day jobs in construction and electricity. I assume the land could be sold for maybe 6-10 million, but it will never happen due to it being split up between family members, and no one has any intention of selling. So it really hasn't crossed my mind. 

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@fridjonk  Please forgive the slowness of my responses. I understand what you express about the cost of running a farm in a responsible way with a long term view. When I managed our family ranch there seemed to be no end to the things I could spend money on ( x 10 ) with good justifications. I got tired of working my ass off whie deciding what I had to spend money on that was most crucial and then paying taxes with the rest. Often denying things for myself like health insurance and taking vacations.

@fridjonk Expounding on the question I asked you became a launching pad for a spontaneous spiel that I just typed out and in no way is directed at you but to the forum at large. I wanted to make that specifically clear and thank you for allowing me this space in our conversation for this indulgence. My question about the possiblilty of deceptive potential mates probably gives away my tendency for having a rather pessimistic 'glass half empty' view of the world, At times anyhow. That admission is likely to push the buttons of lurking self righteous zen devils that are currently trolling this section of the forum. When I say these things that appear to have an inherent negativity, I do so with a non-judgemental heart, or try to, because in the past, I was one of them. A zen devil that is. This is my expression of how I've found this work towards Self actualization to be a two edged sword.  I could often see others shortcomings but lacked the love of absolute truth enough that I would put on the blinders to avoid seeing my own self deception and folly. I've also found these type of confessions to draw out the beginners and partially awakened neophytes who are quick to dog pile onto others and in which they fail to recognise their own judgemental assessments. The neccessity here that I see of this work to eventually resemble an ouroboros. A similar cryptic statement out of the Fourth way is that one must work on oneself and purify emotionally in order to become food for Arch-angels. When one has cooked enough internally in an alchemical way, anything which happens will no longer be taken in a negative way. Even seemingly "bad" things. This realization is one that comes and goes with the flux in my degree of being. My daily yo-yo of being. When I have objectively seen my own bullshit, how can I judge others at all for theirs,,,,  When my degree of being is at a higher level I perceive how Understanding is a magic bullet for unconscious behaviors and unneccesary suffering. It comes with a price though.

 


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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I'm about a week late posting Dr. Rosen's weekly mini- column. Tomorrow he should send out another.

Reaching Up   
  "Challenge the Bull"
by Dr. Jim Rosen
©2021 Dr. Jim Rosen
 

    Challenge the untruths and educate yourself with truths.  You're not stuck with the thoughts you have today.  It's a good thing too, because "bull" causes people a lot of pain.  The Greek philosopher, Epictetus, put it more eloquently when he said, "It is not events, but the perception of events that disturb people's minds."  There are many untruths.  Here are just a few examples.  Put-downs: "I'm bad.  I'm stupid.  I'm ugly."  False ideals: "If I don't do _____ like other people, then I'm abnormal."  "If it's not perfect, I've failed."  "I've made bad mistakes, so God couldn't possibly love me."  Awfulizing: "If I don't get enough _____, I'll go crazy and I'll die."  Personalizing: (S)he did _____ because there is something wrong with me."  The untruths cause much emotional distress, including anxiety and panic.  You've heard the proverb, "The truth shall set you free."  Well it's true.

 

 


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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BLACK ELK's VISION

This is a quote from a well known and recorded vision. It's from the Lakota healer and visionary, Nicholas Black Elk (1863-1950). It's a powerful statement expressing about his nondual experience. In reading it, some of you will cry.

,,,,,,,,,,Then I was standing on the highest moutain of them all and around and about me was the whole hoop of the world. And while I stood there I saw more than I can tell and I understood more than I saw; for I was seeing in a sacred manner the shapes of all things in the spirit, and the shape of all shapes as they must live together as one being.,,,,,,,,,


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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Reaching Up   
  "Let's See What You're Made Of"
by Dr. Jim Rosen
©2021 Dr. Jim Rosen
 

    Are you love or are you fear?  God created you to be love.  The world demands that you be fear.  You can try to be both, but you can’t really be both.  Being afraid blocks your ability to be loving.  Fear covers up your loving nature.  It is clear beyond crystal clear that your brothers and sisters need your love.  Everyone needs your love, your compassion, your kindness.  And you need the very same to be returned to you.  What you give is returned to you.  You have a choice, an obvious choice.  You can comply with the world’s commands to stand in fear and tremble within.  Or you can listen to your deeper within, the One where God is.  You can stand in His light and be the loving being you were created to be.  The power to make this choice comes from the simple realization that you have a choice.


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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"Let's dispense with any self congradulatory statements."

That statement was made at a Fourth Way group meeting nearly twenty years ago. That's a statement that gets your attention. It did mine anyway and also the lady that finished making some remarks just pryor to it being said. At the time I didn't really hear anyrhing that was self congradulatory in what she said. Also I belive it was the first time I had ever heard that word uttered. I knew what it meant though and became concerned that it might have been me that had made some self congradulatory remarks just before the lady mentioned spoke. This cause me to inner consider which is fourth way speak for -thinking too much-. Another point stressed in fourth way self observation is to refrain from self criticism. That's difficult to do. It was for me anyway for a long time.It's something I still have to keep an eye on.

How objective is your inquiry?  Can you recognize when you make self congradulatory remarks and possibly out yourself for it. By the way, this is pretty hardcore. If a person is working on bolstering their self esteem. They really don't need to be concerned with outing themselves for being self congradulatory. It goes along with Ken Wilber once saying that we have to have a healthy functioning ego before we can start doing work to go past it and letting go of things egoic.

 


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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Five fridays in a week Universal heretic celebration day

The title stems from my station as being both a Zigzag Idiot and a universal heretic. I've titled today as that just for the hell of it and because it's raining outside. it would be more serious if it were also raining inside. I agree with Almaas when he says you have to have a lot of nerve to let go and voluntarily lose your mind. The average Jack or Jill in no way will be up for it because they want to be accepted by the herd.

Now for a comercial.

 

At times I will come off as being a goody goody and at the drop of a hat I will say extremely raunchy things sometimes. I'm not bothered by this because through understanding I've come to accept my multifaceted nature. This doesn't mean that I never get rattled or embarrased because of .the depth this multifaceted nature. I'm just not as fractured as I was in youth and early adulthood.

What most of you actualizers reading this needs is someone to slap your sorry ass around. Either to make you angry so you'll quit crying foul and telling everyone what a poor helpless victim you are or to put you face to face with your own schadenfreude. Saying this won't win me many friends but I write this with sincerity and conviction. Expressing my inner truth means more than winning peoples approval. Whenever I express from this facet of myself it drives compassionate Idiots completely berzerk. They start jumping up and down pointing at me and blowing a loud whistle. They may say "Look, look look. See how terrible and uncaring this ruffian is. Oh how awful."  If they're lucky, there will come a day when the need to show the world how caring and compassonate they are will be gone and they will have a more complete understanding.

I intuit that in Leo's approach at times what people are seeing as arrogant is his way of slapping us around a bit to make us think or wake us up. He's possibly playing the role of the malamat at times. The way of blame. I could be wrong about that also. Anyway, in light of that there is the idea that at times an awakened person needs to learn when it's best to just go run and hide. So as not to be pecked to death. Somewhere in my journal I remember writing about the aggravated chicken pecker syndrome that manifests both in poultry farming as well as in human sociology.

The tone of all this may sound like I'm putting myself above everybody or that I don't have any empathy in regards to the hardships others have to endure. Not so. I do care deeply about people but at times my selfishness may rule the day.  In addition to occasionally being a complete fuck up to boot. I try to be honest with my self observation and inquiry. To help pay my dues, so to speak. 

 

 


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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UUHHH,

I was just role playing a plain spoken asshole of sorts earlier this afternoon. One of the crew aboard my ship of fools. He's an unguided projectile. He rebels at any kind of guidance or direction. Neither is he afraid of being a self starter. He just pulls initiative right out of his ass and goes to town. Moderate to heavy use of cannabis pacifies this patented Idiot. Guess I haven't been smoking enough lately. If I were to quit altogether. He would probably be running for the presidency or maybe a Senate Seat and offending as many people you can just barely get by with.

Anyway I hope that all who witnessed this role playing event were entertained or amused.


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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Reaching Up   
  "Finding Purpose & Meaning"
by Dr. Jim Rosen
©2021 Dr. Jim Rosen
 

    There is purpose in life.  Indeed, there are perhaps four big purposes.  If you pursue them, i.e., if you strive toward these purposes, you will very likely experience fulfillment in life.  It's no small task to achieve fulfillment. Much of your time and effort is spent taking care of physical needs.  But that's not the reason you are here.  The real purposes - the higher, deeper, meaningful ones – you can accomplish in very important spans of time.  Without them, your life will probably be empty.  Just take a look at people you know whose lives lack purpose or meaning.  They're often depressed.  They experience the "what's it all for?" kind of depression.  They feel empty because their life is missing something.  They lack a reason for being.

    You are not handed your purpose on a silver platter, but you are provided with opportunities to find your purpose.  And it's your responsibility to seek it and reach for it.  But first you must put your physical needs in their proper place.  You already know that life is not really about physical beauty, money, sex, possessions, and the size of your portfolio.  Close to 45 years as a psychologist have taught me that the deeper purposes, the ones that give meaning to life are these: to love, to learn and grow, to create, and to enjoy.

    You come here to open your heart and love deeply.  You come here to find out how to love.  Along your travels through life, there are many discoveries, such as: loving another person as much as you love your own self; viewing yourself with humility instead of self-importance; putting yourself in the place of others and feeling what they feel; and accepting others for who they are, instead of molding them to serve your needs.  You come here to give love to your brothers and sisters, and to open yourself up to receive love.  Thus, you are making a home for love within yourself.

    Life is also for learning.  You come here to learn and grow and develop as a person.  Improving your worldly talents is important.  Becoming a deeper, better person is much more important.  This is the kind of learning that you keep forever.

    You also come here to create, and thereby give something back to the world.  There are no rules for what your creations must be.  You can be an architect or a carpenter - both are capable of giving beauty to the landscape.  You can be a bus driver whose gift is transportation.  You can be a teacher who stimulates young minds.  You can be a parent who helps create love and self-esteem in your children.  Fulfilling your purpose to create can be anything you do from your heart.

    It’s not easy.  Life hands us many difficulties and hurdles.  But it's not enough just to endure your circumstances and grunt your way through life.  You come here also to enjoy.  When you can enjoy who you are and what you are given, then you have mastered this task.

 

    Dr. Jim Rosen is a PhD Clinical Psychologist.  He is an experienced psychotherapist, hypnotherapist, and couples counselor.  He offers treatment for anxiety disorders, panic attacks, depression, relationship problems, self-esteem issues, assertiveness training, anger control, stress management, and overcoming the effects of sexual, physical, and emotional trauma.
 

    Dr. Rosen works with his patients primarily over the phone.  When needed, face-to-face therapy sessions can be scheduled in his home in Magnet Cove, Arkansas.  Because he does not accept insurance, his fee is only $60 for a full 50-minute hour of treatment.  He can be reached anytime by email at drjrosen@ipa.net or by phone or text at 501-623-2050.
 

    If you like Dr. Rosen's Reaching Up column, you are free to share it with other people. There is no fee for this column. It's free. If you're not on the list to receive it, just send an email that says "Please Send Column" in the subject line. You will receive a new column each Sunday.  If you are on the list and you don't want to receive Dr. Rosen's column anymore, just send him an email that says "Stop Column" in the subject line.
 

Dr. Jim Rosen
Clinical Psychologist
Magnet Cove, Arkansas
Ph: 501-623-2050
Email: drjrosen@ipa.net

 

 

 

 


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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In another Journal this morning I was pretty harsh in my assessment of Leo's latest video. i Should have waited until after I had watched the whole thing before I gave an opinion. He said some things that made good sense and outed himself for how socially awkward he used to be which was an endearing display of humility. I still think how he presented some ideas in the video and the title given to it was kinda cheesy though. Talking about "game",,,  For the most part developing healthy self esteem seemed to be the focus. It's a part of my development which has always been lacking. So who am I to be so critical,,,,? 


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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Well you have right on your opinion, why not. Self actualization isn't it so. 

Don't bow before anyone. 

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@Zeroguy Thank you,

We all vary with different backgrounds, cultural conditioning, and shadow elements to process or heal no doubt. But in other ways we are all the same.

27 minutes ago, Zeroguy said:

Don't bow before anyone. 

It's interesting you mention that. I need to be reminded of that on occasion. Whenever ungroundedness or imbalance show up in my inner condition. I've always been prone to hero worship as well and anyone with a degree of status or fame intimidate me sometimes. A self esteem issue most likely. I try to at least observe it as objectively as I can if nothing else.


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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2 hours ago, Zigzag Idiot said:

@Zeroguy Thank you,

We all vary with different backgrounds, cultural conditioning, and shadow elements to process or heal no doubt. But in other ways we are all the same.

It's interesting you mention that. I need to be reminded of that on occasion. Whenever ungroundedness or imbalance show up in my inner condition. I've always been prone to hero worship as well and anyone with a degree of status or fame intimidate me sometimes. A self esteem issue most likely. I try to at least observe it as objectively as I can if nothing else.

I found this video insightful on low self esteem

I know the guy has character flaws, but the information is useful nonetheless.

“Adapt what is useful, reject what is useless, and add what is specifically your own.”


― Bruce Lee

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Thanks! @Raptorsin7

I'll definately  give it a watch.


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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Read my lips

Read my lips

No new taxes on a burned out village

No new taxes on a burned out village

Don't scold the lover. The wrong way he/she talks is better than a hundred right ways of others.

 

This is what you get when you mix George H.W. Bush with Rumi.

 


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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Reaching Up   
  "What's In Your Nucleus?"
by Dr. Jim Rosen
©2021 Dr. Jim Rosen
 

    I am updating the mailing list for the Reaching Up column.  If you would like to continue receiving my free column each week, please reply to this email with "Yes" in the subject heading.  That's all you need to do.  If I receive your reply by December 4, you will be on the updated list and you will continue to receive this column each Sunday.  Thank you for giving this your attention.


    If your kids are the center of your universe, the bond between you and your mate is suffering ...and your kids suffer, too.  Their sense of well being shouldn't depend on being the center.  It makes them self-centered and insecure.  A strong family revolves around the bond between two loving adults.  When your choices and decisions are based on what's good for your marriage to your partner, then your family has a strong nucleus.  It fills your home with security and love.  Although your kids won't always get their way, they do get the security and love they absolutely need.  They also learn to share with others and tolerate frustration.  Having a strong center doesn't mean that you ignore your kids' real needs.  It doesn't mean that your kids become less important.  It doesn't mean you become a slave to your mate's wants and wishes.  It means doing what's right for your marriage, because it's right for your whole family.
 

    Dr. Jim Rosen is a PhD Clinical Psychologist.  He is an experienced psychotherapist, hypnotherapist, and couples counselor.  He offers treatment for anxiety disorders, panic attacks, depression, relationship problems, self-esteem issues, assertiveness training, anger control, stress management, and overcoming the effects of sexual, physical, and emotional trauma.
 

    Dr. Rosen works with his patients primarily over the phone.  When needed, face-to-face therapy sessions can be scheduled in his home in Magnet Cove, Arkansas.  Because he does not accept insurance, his fee is only $60 for a full 50-minute hour of treatment.  He can be reached anytime by email at drjrosen@ipa.net or by phone or text at 501-623-2050.
 

    If you like Dr. Rosen's Reaching Up column, you are free to share it with other people. There is no fee for this column. It's free. If you're not on the list to receive it, just send an email that says "Please Send Column" in the subject line. You will receive a new column each Sunday.  If you are on the list and you don't want to receive Dr. Rosen's column anymore, just send him an email that says "Stop Column" in the subject line.
 

Dr. Jim Rosen
Clinical Psychologist
Magnet Cove, Arkansas
Ph: 501-623-2050
Email: drjrosen@ipa.net

 

 


"To have a free mind is to be a universal heretic." - A.H. Almaas

"We have to bless the living crap out of everyone." - Matt Kahn

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