60 day NO FAP challenge

[Shin]

 

[Vitamine Water]

4 hours ago, Shin said:

 

Haha yess!!

 

[Leonid]

Wow man great journal! 50+ days is super cool! I've been watching porn for 8 years, and I can say to you there is nothing to see there my bro. Does not worth it at all. The amount of pain you get for the joy from porn becomes too pricey at some point. 

As I can see you were not that much of a hard porn addict, couple of times in a week is a relatively mild porn addiction. 

Hard porn addiction is 1-5 times every day minimum. And this almost quarantees you are ruining your life completely if you do that. And I know some of this guys personally. And obviously all of them have extreme erectile disfunction, because that's what watching porn does with men without exception. (Not the case with me anymore, but I was there)

That's why maybe it was relatively easy for you to pull off that 55 days. Not whining tho, great accomplishment buddy. 

I would also recommend watching Ted Bundy's last interview, it's a serial killer that said his killing were due to a severe porn addiction. And I can relate to that completely. He is telling the truth. I myself was acting out that addiction, not in a bad or hurmful ways, but I know if I would not stop in some point in the future I would certainly be doing what he was doing. 

So stay vigilant my bro and keep it up?

 

[Vitamine Water]

11 hours ago, Leonid said:

Wow man great journal! 50+ days is super cool! I've been watching porn for 8 years, and I can say to you there is nothing to see there my bro. Does not worth it at all. The amount of pain you get for the joy from porn becomes too pricey at some point. 

As I can see you were not that much of a hard porn addict, couple of times in a week is a relatively mild porn addiction. 

Hard porn addiction is 1-5 times every day minimum. And this almost quarantees you are ruining your life completely if you do that. And I know some of this guys personally. And obviously all of them have extreme erectile disfunction, because that's what watching porn does with men without exception. (Not the case with me anymore, but I was there)

That's why maybe it was relatively easy for you to pull off that 55 days. Not whining tho, great accomplishment buddy. 

I would also recommend watching Ted Bundy's last interview, it's a serial killer that said his killing were due to a severe porn addiction. And I can relate to that completely. He is telling the truth. I myself was acting out that addiction, not in a bad or hurmful ways, but I know if I would not stop in some point in the future I would certainly be doing what he was doing. 

So stay vigilant my bro and keep it up?

 

Thanks man, and your are quite right; I'm not a hardcore porn addict and I never really was. That's why it's been relatively easy for me. Back in my highschool days I was fapping daily, but I kinda grew out of that when I turned 18/19. I'm 22 now. 

Looking back tho, I was in a period of my life where I felt I was literally wasting all of my life energy to porn. Whenever I was bored or stressed, I would fap. Like running upstairs for a quicky and not even feeling horny. Just masturbate to masturbate. 

I was also in the beginning fase of watching more hardcore porn stuff, like groupsex, anal, and girls putting huge dildo's in their asses. I was never interested in that stuff. That was the moment I took action, because I didn't want to go down that path (I also read other people's obsession about needing weirder and more hardcore porn to get off). This made me a little scared tbh. 

Good luck on your journey mate. 365 days sounds like an EPIC goal, but I hope it's not too far on the horizon for you. You might wanna start with 90 days and see from there. We'll be in touch

 

 

Edited December 28, 2018 by Vitamine Water

[Leonid]

@Vitamine Water Yeah I certainly can understand that. And then it comes to the point where even mild discomfort makes you wanna fap. Glad you took that action timely, I didn't. My friend who was masturbating 4-6 times a day almost never even watches porn with women. He prefers hentai, in my opinion because the degree of stimulation there can be way more than in average porn. 

Unfortunately the last frontier is violent porn. I got to that point but fully realised I have to stop. Am literally on the verge. So I decided to give it up completely. 365 days is a lot, but that's because I would never ever want porn to be any part of my future life. The man who jerks off to pixels can never be trully fulfilled and happy in life imo. 

[Vitamine Water]

@Leonid Glad you realised it on time dude. I can't even imagine fapping 4-6 times a day, must be very draining for him. I hope your journey will inspire him too.

I've learned that it's easier to inspire people instead of convincing people. 

And yeh I agree, in hentai everything is possible. VR porn is also gaining popularity which can make people even more addicted to an online virtual sex world. But that's another story haha

 

Edited December 28, 2018 by Vitamine Water

[Vitamine Water]

(long post incomming) 

Day 60 complete! 

Hooray! I completed my initial goal of 60 days which means I can finally watch porn again! Man, I missed it so much. Here I cum Lana Rhoades! 

Said no no-fapper ever. I'm building more momentum by the day so I have no reason to quit now.

What has changed in these 2 months? 

First of all, I feel much more energetic. I'm more aware of my body and masculine energy. Sometimes I feel like a FUCKING NINJA WARRIOR and I act like I'm Bruce Lee. Only at home in front of the mirror btw  

But this feels so great. Its the type of energy that makes you want to change your lazy habits. For me this resulted in taking cold showers, eating and drinking less sugar products (especially ice coffee and chocolate) and reading. There are still a lot of habits I want to change, but this is a good start. 

Secondly, and this is also energy related, I can feel pressure and tingling sensations along my spine, from root to top. I think this is kundalini related though I'm not sure. During my meditations I experience heavy jerking and twisting joints. Especially my neck. Sometimes it literally feels like I'm possessed and someone is changing my energetic code. Sensations definitely feel alien. People say this could be related to energy purification in the chakras. 

But the twisting and jerking wasn't something new for me. It happened occasionally before nofap, only during meditation. Now I often experience it outside of the meditative state too, and with a higher intensity and for a longer period of time. I think this is directly related to semen retention. I'm basically keeping the energy in my body and not wasting it through orgasm. I have to do more research on this topic. 

Anyway, I ordered two books about kundalini so I hope that will give me more I sight on the matterrrrrrrrr

Nice.

What's next? Female attraction.

Ive noticed changes in how women see me, and how I see them. First of all, girls just look at me for no reason. It's not my clothes or physical attraction that they notice, I'm sure. It flipped in just one day. I get so much more looks and stares. It MUST be my energy that they can pick up with their super high tech male energy detection radar sensor device-mechanism. Im not complaining.

Conversations go much smoother and I am more in control of myself. Less in thought. More aware and genuinely interested in the other person, which make conversations more fun for both parties. 

I would love to say that my perception of girls have changed, but they haven't. My standards are still very high and "less attractive" girls are not really interesting to me. I still haven't found the balls to start dating and meet new women. There is still this sense of insecurity. But im working on it by stepping out of my comfort zone more often, and self inquiry. But it is also not my main focus at the moment. 

My take on nofap/semen retention

Nofap is a great tool for If you want to install new habits in your life, or get rid of old habits you don't like. You're using this (sexual) energy to actually do productive things and not ejaculate to a bunch of colored pixels which form a woman's butthole. Try it out. Pause the video and zoom in as far as you can and you'll see its just a colored, poor little square. Poof! That's reality for ya. The girl is illusory! 

All jokes aside. Doing this thing "only" 60 days in made me feel so much better about myself. By not giving into urges and just silently observing the sexual thoughts I gained more mental strength. Strength which can be used to improve areas in my life.

But there is so much more work to do. This is only the beginning. 

I'm mentally setting a goal for 90 days, but actually it doesn't matter. I do this day by day. 

Thanks for reading! 

<3

 

[TheAvatarState]

@Vitamine Water congrats Dude! It's kind of surreal to wake up and see your wonderful post on the completion of your goal! Really makes the completion of mine seem more tangible. 

Cheers! Here's to the next 60 days my friend! ??

[Vitamine Water]

46 minutes ago, TheAvatarState said:

@Vitamine Water congrats Dude! It's kind of surreal to wake up and see your wonderful post on the completion of your goal! Really makes the completion of mine seem more tangible. 

Cheers! Here's to the next 60 days my friend! ??

Kind words of you, Mr. Avatar! Sending positive vibes your way! 

Edited December 28, 2018 by Vitamine Water

[TheAvatarState]

@Vitamine Water It's funny that your signature is a quote by Bruce Lee. I've never watched any of his movies (yet), but a few weeks ago I was compelled to purchase a biography of his, as well as a special edition magazine about his life. I'll be reading those soon!

5 minutes ago, Vitamine Water said:

Mr. Avatar

HA! Have you seen Avatar the Last Airbender yet? If not, what are you doing with your life?!   Much love and good vibes headed your way

[Psyche_92]

1 hour ago, Vitamine Water said:

 

This picture triggered me .

[Vitamine Water]

@TheAvatarState yes yes! It has been a long time since I've watched it, thanks for the reminder haha  really awesome stuff.

I saw this quote by Bruce Lee on YouTube and it resonated very deeply with everything in my life. Creativity, relationships, who I want to be, everything. Deep wisdom. 

Be water, my friend! 

[Vitamine Water]

1 hour ago, Psyche_92 said:

This picture triggered me .

Please keep your hands above the blanket, sir

 

[TheAvatarState]

@Vitamine Water Deep wisdom for sure. Feminine wisdom, actually, if you think about it. It is the surrender to go with the flow of life. Waterbenders draw their power from the moon, the receiving and reflection energy of the sun. Waterbending is based on Tai Chi, an internal style that focuses on the control of energy. It is a very soft, gentle and flowing, but devastating when mastered. Although Bruce Lee learned a more external style in Wing Chun, he also took the wisdom from many different styles and incorporated it into his own. These two styles seem to be closely related. Maybe I'm reading into it too much, but he seemed to understand the "external" and "internal" so well that he transcended and incorporated both into his own style. Perhaps he really was the Avatar of martial arts. http://taichisnob.blogspot.com/2012/03/i-am-not-bruce-lee.html

[Vitamine Water]

2 minutes ago, TheAvatarState said:

@Vitamine WaterIt is the surrender to go with the flow of life. 

You hit the spot right there. Life takes wherever it wants to take you, if you completely surrender to it. The path of least resistance. The path of true HAPPINESS!!!!

Haleluja!!! 

❤️

 

 

[Shin]

[Leonid]

@Vitamine Water Man are you for real? You are going to just watch porn now and ejaculate? Do you think that worth it? Congrats on reaching the goal, that was challenging

[youngshinzen]

@Leonid He was just joking :-)

@Vitamine Water You did it! Congrats <3 I'm grateful I was able to see your progress and be influenced by it. 

[Vitamine Water]

@Leonid haha yea man, it was a joke initially. But it became reality hahaha

@youngshinzen Thanks mate, good to hear. But I just relapsed

Day 61: relapse! 

Speaking of ego backlash, Holy moly. For some reason my mind needed a reward for these 2 months of nofap and I got caught in that thought loop. So I very consciously decided to touch myself and before I knew I ejaculated. 

This whole day I've been feeling so horny to the point where observing the thoughts and breathing into them didn't help. Even one thought made me almost orgasm. Ive never experience these sensations in this intensity and I had a very hard time not touching myself until I finally gave in. And BOYYYY what was I relieved afterwards lol (guys don't read this if you're on a streak ) 

I very quickly settled with the fact that I had just relapsed and I started observing my experience and thought process. 

Against all my expectations I still feel energetic, motivated and happy. Like nothing has changed except the fact that I broke my streak. Well, that doesn't hold me down! In the end that's what matters, not the highscore. 

And I can still feel the energy tingling sensations in my spine. Could it be that my mindset didn't influence the process and progress? I guess so. I felt more energetically drained after fapping when I was fapping multiple times a week than I do now. 

Even though it may seem like I'm back at square one, I really don't feel it that way. Nothing has end and nothing started. I'm flowing, BABYYY!!! 

But rules are rules. I'm resetting the day counter  and this time, I'm mentally aiming for 100 days. 

Next time I have to be way more aware of a possible ego backlash. It caught me off guard so I was more sensitive to act on sexual thoughts. I still haven't mastered this process.

And if you're reading this and you're on a nofap streak, please don't do what I did. Your situation might be totally different and you might lose all your progress...keep it up!!!

<3

 

Edited December 29, 2018 by Vitamine Water

[youngshinzen]

@Vitamine Water That‘s why I used past tense?