60 day NO FAP challenge

[Vitamine Water]

Day 14: easy

I've had a good weekend. I'm not feeling sick anymore and I'm ready for this week. It's going to be a busy one with interviews, calls, and so on so its good that I'm feeling better right now. 

No serious urge to fap today. Or any sexual thoughts really. But I'm slighty starting to feel more pressure down there. I think the time has come where he's starting to fight back...

 

[korbes]

3 hours ago, Scholar said:

Though be careful and don't seek out sexual content or fantasy on purpose. When it happens, notice it, transmute it and continue with your day. You have to actually notice that your arousal is intense energy, and whenever you lose it by having an orgasm (even a wet dream!) you will also lose that energy.

Any tips for not getting wet dreams?

When I am on NoFap, I tend to get wet dreams atleast one time pr. week. 
Also when I'm on the toilet, semen leakage is not uncommon.

 

And btw, nice journal OP. 

I'm on day 7, my highest streak is 228 days.

[Scholar]

17 hours ago, korbes said:

Any tips for not getting wet dreams?

When I am on NoFap, I tend to get wet dreams atleast one time pr. week. 
Also when I'm on the toilet, semen leakage is not uncommon.

 

And btw, nice journal OP. 

I'm on day 7, my highest streak is 228 days.

The wet dreams are something I am trying to counteract as well, at the moment it is going well for me though I do not know exactly why. Whenever I have sexual dreams I am able remind myself and resist it. Other than that, it seems like using your energy and transmuting it consciously can help avoid having sexual dreams. It's just something one has to figure out.

[Vitamine Water]

Day 15: easy

Yup. Today went easy. Nothing really much too add really. Feeling less tired in the evenings and in the mornings too so that's nice. 

I'm having way more boners than before tho, lol. And I have no control over it too. In the bus, on the couch, at the office. He does whatever and whenever he wants man... Oh well...

Goodnight!

 

[Vitamine Water]

On 12/11/2018 at 0:49 AM, korbes said:

Any tips for not getting wet dreams?

When I am on NoFap, I tend to get wet dreams atleast one time pr. week. 
Also when I'm on the toilet, semen leakage is not uncommon.

 

And btw, nice journal OP. 

I'm on day 7, my highest streak is 228 days.

Thanks man! 

I've had that semen issue a few times too, in previous attempts at nofap. I don't know to what degree it influences the proces. But it surely is not nice while you're trying to keep the boat dry. 

Edited November 13, 2018 by Vitamine Water

[Vitamine Water]

Day 16 : relatively easy

Special day today, I reached my highest streak! 10 points for griffoendor! 

Nah just kidding. I don't really have anything to celebrate yet. But it feels good to pass this point, not knowing what to expect. That motivates me more to keep going. The unknowing, the unexpected. 

More and more pressure is building up down there (physical pressure). And I can feel some tingling sensations but I'm not feeling horny or aroused. It's like I have to pee every 60 minutes. Luckily It hasn't turned into a desire to rocket launch everything out yet. I'm keeping my cool still

Edited November 13, 2018 by Vitamine Water

[Vitamine Water]

Day 17: easy

I'm rolling. Body awareness is increasing more and more. I feel stronger, phisically, even though my body is still feeling a bit weak and I'm tired. Sometimes I look in the mirror acting like a Kong Fu monk. And the next moment I almost fall asleep at my desk. It's like the energy is trying to push through the sickness.

I sleep 7+ hrs every night, I eat healthy, and I have a pretty good immune system so it will pass soon. I hope

Happy New year! 

Edited November 14, 2018 by Vitamine Water

[Vitamine Water]

Day 18: easy

Yesterday was a good day. So far it has been quite against my expectations, really. My last try before this one was just terrible. I was thinking about sex and porn the whole day and I was struggling way more than I do now. I really think the journaling helps a lot with that. I feel motivated to post something everyday and people are reading along. 

This night I dreamed that I relapsed and I could feel the disappointment of failing and having to start over again. Of course it felt very real in the moment but when I woke up I was so relieved.. And I'm only 18 days in! 

Edited November 16, 2018 by Vitamine Water

[Shin]

[Vitamine Water]

2 hours ago, Shin said:

<3

[Vitamine Water]

Day 19: easy

Easy again? Yes! Why? I have no clue. I have no idea when this thing is going to be difficult. Or IF it even gets difficult. It will, for sure.

But there is a need to struggle because that's when I learn most. That's where real progress takes place in my experience. Things just have been so easy so far. Nothing much has happened. 

I know I'm just rambling thoughts right now that I don't even know make sense. Good job mind

We're moving on. No expectations or overthinking. Be now. 

 

Edited November 17, 2018 by Vitamine Water

[Vitamine Water]

Day 20: relatively easy

This morning I woke up with a boner the size of Manhattan. I've been there once, It's a beautiful place. But HUGE! 

I had a lot more sexual thoughts today. More than usual. And these thoughts can be dangerous, in the sense that if you get caught up by the thought, you might act on it. Once you're in this "sexual thought loop" it might get hard to get out. Literally mental masturbation. 

Especially with erotic thoughts, because you can get triggered so easily. But everytime a thought like this came up, I had no real desire to actually fap or watch porn. It was just a thought with a slight energetic feeling to it, although very lightly. 

Edited November 18, 2018 by Vitamine Water

[Sahil Pandit]

@Vitamine Water Have you been spending your time differently? 

[Vitamine Water]

22 minutes ago, Sahil Pandit said:

@Vitamine Water Have you been spending your time differently? 

Not really, honestly. I did pick up qi gong exercise almost every morning. But there is still a lot I wish to change in my routine. A few examples:

- read 30 minutes a day

- meditation at 23:00, not randomly before I go to bed every night 

- morning meditation 

I just haven't found the energy to start them all. I try to pick them up one by one. Today was the first evening since like 2 weeks that I started painting again. I didn't feel tired and felt creative. But the weekdays are kinda killing me. Work and graduation is really tough at the moment so all of my energy goes to that. 

My hopes are to stay energetic when I get back home from work so that I can make time for my hobbys and spiritual/self development work

How about you? 

Edited November 18, 2018 by Vitamine Water

[Sahil Pandit]

Energy is going towards mostly building my studying routine/habit and spending more time with family! Got some strategic intentions lined up however. (Morning routine - gym, etc.) 

[Shin]

9 hours ago, Vitamine Water said:

Not really, honestly. I did pick up qi gong exercise almost every morning. But there is still a lot I wish to change in my routine. A few examples:

- read 30 minutes a day

- meditation at 23:00, not randomly before I go to bed every night 

- morning meditation 

I just haven't found the energy to start them all. I try to pick them up one by one. Today was the first evening since like 2 weeks that I started painting again. I didn't feel tired and felt creative. But the weekdays are kinda killing me. Work and graduation is really tough at the moment so all of my energy goes to that. 

My hopes are to stay energetic when I get back home from work so that I can make time for my hobbys and spiritual/self development work

How about you? 

Wake up earlier and do everything before going to work if that becomes a recurrent problem.

[Vitamine Water]

2 hours ago, Shin said:

Wake up earlier and do everything before going to work if that becomes a recurrent problem.

Thanks for the tip Shin. Waking up earlier is on my list too. I'm not a morning person but I have to give it a go this week, starting Monday morning! 

[Vitamine Water]

@Sahil Pandit good to hear man. Go at it step by step. Doing everything at once works the other way around in my experience. 

[Vitamine Water]

Day 21: easy

3 weeks in! Hooray! 

What has changed since the start? 

- body awareness is building up. I'm More aware of my posture and how the body interacts with the environment. 

- more sexual thoughts and fantasies (of course) , but the "letting go" is easier. 

- More focus on what goals I want to achieve in the future. What I want to change in my life to become the best version of me. 

Other than that, nothing much. I'm feeling better and better with my health. I'm taking my rest in the weekends. Still having headaches now and then, but things are changing. Tomorrow morning I'm setting the alarm 30 minutes earlier to do meditation and qi gong. And I will stick to that. My system has to get used to it again. 

Edited November 18, 2018 by Vitamine Water

[Sahil Pandit]

@Vitamine Water