Feeling an urge to scream, punch and have a panic attack.

[lmfao]

My writing may be odd and incoherent because I'm typing whilst being in a state of anxiety and restlessness. Should I act upon my urges, or should I not act upon them and remain mindful. Basically, I'm going to find out my end of high school exam results in 3 hours (it's 5:08 am currently) and the grades will determine whether I enter university of not. 

The amount of stress that the whole schooling experience gave me has left an emotional scar which gets me feeling and thinking in ways which are very uncharacteristic of me. The network of situations and environments I have experienced in school have defined the negativity I have tried so desperately to get rid of through self improvement. 

When I'm feeling restless and anxious, with a hyper active mind, what should I do? Should I give in to my animalistic instinct? I feel like my head is going to explode with all the thoughts and feeling racing by. I feel like I'm going a bit crazy even. Holotropic breath work? Meditation? What should I do. On the other hand my natural instinct is to shrivel into a fetal position and remain lost in thought. 

Edited August 16, 2018 by lmfao

[RendHeaven]

enlightenment work probably won't help you at this point, recenter yourself on something material/rational.

[Gabriel Antonio]

It's so sad that young people have to deal with such high pressure and stress. 

I think what would really work is to cut off the things that are causing the stress. Unfortunately this is not always possible. 

Giving in to the "animalistic instinct" will probably only make you more anxious... 

 

19 minutes ago, lmfao said:

my natural instinct is to shrivel into a fetal position and remain lost in thought. 

This shows how burned out you are... I have been there, and it sucks. Eventually I had a pretty bad emotional breakdown. 

 

Do you have any friend you can talk with?